Title: Bent Author: Concupid Pairing: Howard/Vince Rating: NC-17 Warnings: graphic sex, angst, minor self-harm, mentions of homophobia Summary: Despite all odds, Howard finally feels at ease.
I feel weird commenting here before writing my comment on the last chapter, but... screw it, this chapter gave me so many thoughts that I have to write them down now
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Comment, Part Deux!bluestocking79September 2 2014, 05:36:49 UTC
(Because Livejournal is stupid and wouldn't let me post my full comment as one thing.)
I also see signs that Howard's getting a better grip on his post-switch self, which also means he's starting to see Vince more clearly and understand him a bit better. He can finally see the real Vince is still there, behind the temporary macho, and he's thinking more about Vince's perspective. It feels telling that, when Vince says things are easier this way, Howard pushes him on whether he REALLY enjoys being this way. And for the first time, it occurs to him that "Little Man" could be patronizing sometimes. And when Vince starts punching himself at the end, instead of being afraid of Vince's anger and reacting to it, he can guess what it really means and is there to reassure Vince. That's progress!
And... I'm a mess. It's actually my second time reading this chapter and you managed to make me fall apart again. That and the intensly intelligent commentary supplied by bluey. I don't have any words. I can't do the typie typie word word thing right now but I will send my tears as an offering if you like? It's just so wonderful. And sad. And heartbreaking. And sexy. I think I need a bigger box of crayons to hold all these emotion colours. Thank you for writing something that makes me feel so strongly.
I feel like Bluey is providing some of that fic aftercare! I'll be checking my mailbox for a vial of tears from you so I can add it to my alter of angst and smut.
I swear, they will end up in a good place. Eventually.
I can always count on Bluey to see where I'm going with a story, and I'm glad she's putting people at ease because I'm going to have to send the boys a little deeper into their issues before they can get things cleared up in the River of Reflection.
Thanks for hanging on and trusting me even though the story is making you uncomfortable. I think/hope that the resolution will make the journey worthwhile for them (and you!).
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I also see signs that Howard's getting a better grip on his post-switch self, which also means he's starting to see Vince more clearly and understand him a bit better. He can finally see the real Vince is still there, behind the temporary macho, and he's thinking more about Vince's perspective. It feels telling that, when Vince says things are easier this way, Howard pushes him on whether he REALLY enjoys being this way. And for the first time, it occurs to him that "Little Man" could be patronizing sometimes. And when Vince starts punching himself at the end, instead of being afraid of Vince's anger and reacting to it, he can guess what it really means and is there to reassure Vince. That's progress!
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Thank you for writing something that makes me feel so strongly.
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I swear, they will end up in a good place. Eventually.
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Thanks for hanging on and trusting me even though the story is making you uncomfortable. I think/hope that the resolution will make the journey worthwhile for them (and you!).
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