SIRIUS BLACK: 2 February, 1976

[trickster_gryff]

 
Dear Uncle Alphard,

I don’t know whether Andromeda wrote to you or not, but I expect she was leaving it to me to contact you myself. She knows that I write to you sometimes and naturally she knows about the birthday and Christmas presents that you’ve sent in the past. She does still write to you, doesn’t she?

How do I sayThis may not come as

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[rabastanlestran]

*carefully sets down is transfiguration textbook, not looking at Sirius directly*

Are you...do you...shall we not bother today? I can go away, if that would make you happier. I...Regulus is...he's been..I'm sorry.

*hesitantly touches Sirius's arm, almost as if he's afraid to be near him*

What...what's going to happen to you now?

Feel free to take out any anger or sadness on Rab. He's been a stuck up prick because he's very sure being disowned must be catching, but he does worry about Sirius.

[trickster_gryff]

*mouth tightens at the mention of Regulus, body going dangerously still at Rabastan's touch*

*voice low and exact*

Nothing is going to happen to me. And why the hell would you care anyway? You're Regulus' friend. You should be congratulating him on landing the heirship. He's Mother and Father's prized little pet now. And he'll do anything they tell him to.

*narrows his eyes*
And anyway, could you remind me exactly how any of this is even any of your business in the first place?

Oh dear. Well, I don't know what Sirius is going to do here, really. He's been very unpredictable lately and very unmanageable. So, I apologize ahead of time if he ends up doing anything horrible to Rab. :/

[rabastanlestran]

We're friends too, aren't we? That's why I care.

*bites his lip, looking away from Sirius again, trying not to show him how hurt he is by his bluntness*
I...I'm your friend. I want to help. Do you want the money I offered you now?

No need to apologize, as you can see Rab just puts his foot right in it.

[trickster_gryff]

*mouth shifts, expression dubious*

*cheeks flush, rising instantly to his feet, textbook dropping to the floor with a loud smack*
*fingers tighten on his wand, nearly forgotten in his right hand*

*spits out*
Fuck you. I don't need your fucking money. I don't need their money. I don't fucking need anybody for anything. So you can bloody well piss off too, you ungrateful little shit.

Mrrnngg. Yeah. Arg.

[favourite_son]

I think it's probably best if Regulus isn't allowed to comment, so Sirius shall have to put up with sneaky cuddles from me. Actually, he can probably have some sneaky cuddles from Regulus too.

[trickster_gryff]

*clings to you and Reg and cuddles like mad* I feel more and more horrible about this storyline the further it goes on. When I start it, I was just thinking... oh right. He'll angst and it'll tie up some of the plotlines from that Christmas and everything. :( But it's turned out so wrenchingly sad and Sirius can't accept help from pretty much anyone and... *headdesk* I just want to grab Sirius and Reg and smoosh them together until they hug and get over all of this. And then they can run off into the sunset. Sirius misses Reg like mad. I can't even tell you. *loves*

[favourite_son]

*cuddles shamelessly and gets the cake out* Oh, I know. The whole thing is just so painful and argh. Regulus seems to be trying his best to alienate almost everyone, and can we do the smooshing? Can we? It'll be like a big Black brothers blancmange or something. Although blancmanges probably can't hug...

And it's not even funny how much Reg misses Sirius, however much he tries to pretend that he doesn't. :(

[sethkyne_blue]

It is! Aw. Poor Regulus. *kisses him softly* We WILL do the smooshing. Have to. (*giggling at the blancmange*)

*flails unhappily* That's it. Not only are these boys going to have to have some cuddles in the next orgy, but I am going to have to write some more first-year letters so that they can be all sweet with each other again.

[synodic_pup]

*goes about being daft and not talking to Sirius, and finds that now he can't even look at him because he knows generally what's going on and it breaks his heart that he won't let himself be there for his friend*

[trickster_gryff]

*has, by now, learned not to look up when he hears Remus' voice, for fear of catching sight of Remus not looking at him*

[trickster_gryff]

You, Remus Lupin, are a giant prat. Yes, that's right. I said it. *folds arms* I realise that you're only 15, but good GOD man. I'm a bloody mess. And can you blame me? *shakes head* I mean, yeah. I was a gigantic arse, but still.

[synodic_pup]

*loves you desperately*

*shakes head in bemusement*
I don't deny it. And I can't blame you. Always did regret those months. *sighs*

[snakes_heart]

*shocked*
Sirius! I'm so sorry to hear that. I'm glad you decided to write to me, but you should have done it earlier. I would have liked to be there for you.

I know you're good friends with the Potters, but if you want you can also come and stay with me. My house will always be open to you.

I want to do something for you. You can always count on me.

*reminiscing*
Yes, I was disowned. I know it sounds terrible, but it was really the best thing that happened to me. I've lived a happy life, away from that house. It's tough now, but I hope you realize it, too.

I'll be glad to talk about it. It may help Do you want to ask me any questions?

[trickster_gryff]

*nodding*
Yeah. Probably should've. Didn't want to bother you, though. Just seems kind of... dunno. Stupid, or something. Didn't want you to think I couldn't take care of myself.

*brows raise*
You'd... you'd do that? Let me... *licks his lips* I mean... it's probably just best that I stay with James, but... *flushes a little* Thank you.

*listens, considering*
Did you... miss them at all? After, I mean? Do you ever miss them now?

[snakes_heart]

Sorry for the delay - just found out I hadn't answered. Must blame the orgy. I understand if you don't want to go on with this, but Alphard needed to give Sirius a sincere answer.

Sirius, you can come to my house any time you want. I understand that you want to stay with your best friend, but remember that I'm also here for you.

*sighs*
*shakes head*
Truly? No. They wanted me to do something I was loath to do. I planned everything carefully and I was expecting to be disowned, so it didn't come as a surprise.

I couldn't live there any more. It was stifling me.

*with a small smile*
I never regretted what I did. But our situations were different.

[sholmes87]

*jeers*

Alphard, Andromeda and Sirius.

Three stooges; no waiting.

[trickster_gryff]

*narrows his eyes*
Do shut up, Bella. No one was speaking to you.

[snakes_heart]

Anybody you despise can only be a good person, Bella.

Sirius and Andromeda are the best of the Blacks.