You have stood at my side and looked into the abyss and found both charm, attraction, and love, for we are not made up only of our light and happiness but also of darkness and sorrow. To deny the darkness of yourself is to deny half of who you really are, and when you love, truly love, you need to love the whole person not just the part that smiles ( Read more... )

Wow, it's been 2 years since I've posted anything. A lot has happened. Right now though, I just need somewhere to vent because my life in crumbling. I was in a relationship for almost a year. We broke up tonight because we really do have "irreconcilable differences" - as lame as that sounds it is the only way I can truely describe why we can no ( Read more... )

Like I always say it's been a while since I've posted and it will probably be a long while until you see a new entry because I really have to be in the mood to write in here. This might be a long one ( Read more... )

Have you ever met a person that seriously just lives to infect your life with negativity? My aunt is one of these people. She feeds off drama and then she turns around and completely contradicts everything she says about herself. She has to always be right about everything and make everyone feel like a complete piece of shit or she won't be ( Read more... )

I got my first tattoo today but I can't take a picture because my digital camera batteries are dead and Jordynn gave me a sidekick 3 but the fuckin thing won't send a picture to my email mothhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhher fucker. Anyway it's a rose on my hip I'm getting the other side done in 2 weeks...why? Because I couldn't afford to get it done tonight ( Read more... )

Some of you know, I have a blankey. I think it's bullshit that people are trying to ween there kids off of there blankeys because "You can't walk around as an adult with a blankey it's just not normal.". WHO THE FUCK SAYS I CAN BITCH? A lot of people also say that's is a defense mechanism to deal with life and my response to these allegations is: ( Read more... )

I'm so depressed. Hi, it's my birthday. It sucks. I'm 18. I'm not happy. I'm lonely. I whine too much. I'm ugly. I hate my feet and my face. I'm stupid. I am selfsih. I break too many hearts. I don't let people get close to me. I don't get close to people. I don't love anyone. I'm scared. I'm angry. I am doubtful. I don't trust anyone. I'm afraid I ( Read more... )

I love you.

Stick a fork in me, I'm done.

I'm pretty sure that no one reads my jounrnal anymore but I'm way stressed, kind of happy that I'm stressing about my own life though and not someone elses. I was so pissed I got my GPA today and it was 87 because I was missing two tests I made them up today though so everything will be good. I'm happy, I'm really happy that I'm in school now and ( Read more... )