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Turning my back on negativity
I have been watching and listening to "The Secret." I have read many books that work on this principle, but this book appears to be more direct, and more focused than most. I really like it, and believe in its message. Steven, however, does not ( Read more... ) -
couch potato practice
I am spending the evening eating junk food, and watching Law & Order: SVU. Life is good.... -
grateful for life and all its experiences
I feel like one of the adults in Charlie Brown. wah, wah, wah. I keep telling myself that I should not be depressed. But, truth is I have all kinds of reasons to be depressed - losing my dad, the holidays, losing my job, Steven losing money in the stock market, and not able to pay my bills in a timely fashion ( Read more... ) -
Ramblings - from satisfaction to frustration all in one post
I am so glad that I returned to the land of LJ. I forgot how much my friends' postings bring me to contemplate life, love, and many intellectual concepts that others in my RL just don't understand, or know ( Read more... ) -
Holiday plans
nothing big planned. Steven's parents were to arrive Friday and leave Saturday. With fog in the midwest, they arrive in St Louis Thursday nite (not their destination), and we picked them up from the airport. We had a very nice evening, and Friday day, and then drove them to meet the son who was expecting them Thursday nite. Then,I went by my ( Read more... ) -
Life over the past 18 months
I've been gone a long time, and where do I begin to tell my tale? Someone said, "at the beginning, of course," and so I shall start at the beginning ( Read more... ) -
update on "the piercing"
about 5 weeks after the hood piercing, I took out the jewelry. something didn't go well, as it was still painful, and still bleeding. sex was awful, and Master couldn't touch it without me jumping out of my skin.
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I'm baaaaack.......
Oh, my Goddess! what a long strange journey it has been. since my last post, I've been down the rabbit hole, and back a time or two ( Read more... ) -
something positive
it would be COMPLETELY unfair of me to not mention how wonderful Steven has been, and continues to be through all of this. even tho i yelled at Him (yes, the slave yelled at the Master), He was extremely cool about it. He even acknowledged that He deserved my anger, hugged me, and said that everything will be just fine, and we'll get thru all of ( Read more... ) -
a quick check-in
i'm alive. i'm actually doing better. but i'm also crazy busy. i've weaned myself off of my anti-depressants. this is the first time i've been off "mood" meds since 1990. as Master says, my aura feels "cleaner." i've had my moments, but i'm also doing some intense issue work with my therapist. and i'm being closely monitored by my therapist ( Read more... )