I could never say good-bye ( Read more... )

I'm lost, and i give up on trying to be found or unlost. I dont want to be found anymore, I want to stay lost for as long as i can because if im lost then i will eventully go numb to the feelings that are there. And if i become numb then i cant hurt. The pain, the emotional pain is becoming pyhsical LITERALLY. MY HEART IS BREAKING. IT HURTS REALLY ( Read more... )

She put him out like the burning end of a midnight cigarette ( Read more... )

Today is just another day to add on to my long list of boredum. So, Natilly IMed me. She needed help with Alyssa and Drew, i honestly dont think i was the best person to help but she did so i tried to help the best i could. IDK how to help much in a situation like that. But w/e IM GOING TO MISS YOU ( Read more... )

What happened to me? I used to figure shit out all by myself. I'm sitting here crying trying to figure it out. Its possible to find the one even when your young. I believe that, and i believe i found the one but it hurts cause theres nothing i can do. Why do i love him? why do i care so damn much about it him ( Read more... )

Why is it as you get older the answers to your problems are less clear? Why arent answers as easy to come across as they were then? I love him, I loved him for 5 years of my life, and I loved him when he was gone. No one has ever compared to him or even come close to him. The way he made me feel, like my happiness was all he needed to get by, he ( Read more... )

Today was long, i was up at 6 at work at 7 and it was fathers day, not as many people brought their dads as they did moms. O' well. but i have a REALLY bad headache and i cant get rid of it. i took meds but those didnt work. So, drew should get that letter tomorrow or tuesday. He hasnt called me since friday but w/e im not gonna worry about that. ( Read more... )

Today was alright. workd 11 to 6. then went to malibu and talked to a few people. it was same old shit, we all know how that goes. Anyway, i work tomorrow and dads eat free. THAT BLOWS. I remember what mothers day was like there, fathers day is gonna be just as bad. Anyway, i mailed a four page letter to drew today. So hell get it like tuesday i ( Read more... )

So, yesterday was gay. I sat around all day with nothing to do and no where to go. I sat around my house and turned a 3 page letter into a 4 page letter. Now I just have to have the balls to mail it today when I go to the post office.if i could remember what i wrote, well the main part, then i would explain it here too. I highly doubt any of you ( Read more... )

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