You know what I've realized tonight?  I'm about as real of a person as it gets.  If you wanna know something, ask.  If you want me to keep a secret, say the word.  But you know what?  People don't want that.  They want this lie, this fanciful, amazing you that is anything but the truth.  And thats pretty fucked up.  I guess where I go from here isn ( Read more... )

I'm finally happy, I'm finally content, I finally feel like someone cares and needs me, and its taken all away. Thats just the story of my life.

There's something exhilirating knowing that at anytime, at any point someone can aim their rifle at your head and end your very existence. This game of cat and mouse, with no saves and no loads feels so RIGHT. It's the only time that I really feel alive...

How do you go about knowing that day after day, week after week, people are trying to kill you? The knowledge that someone out there would hunt you to extiction is enough to drive most people mad. But I LOVE it...

After 2 months in WTI Yuma, AZ I'm back. It was hot and miserable, and there was work out the ass, but overall I'm glad I went. I met a lot of interesting people in the squadron whom I didn't even know existed, I learned a lot about myself, my gear, my capabilities, and my comrades and leaders. Lastly, I learned that 29 Palms isn't so bad after ( Read more... )

In every human's soul exists a corner of darkness. Most of us keep the door widely closed, but that doesn't mean we aren't at times facinated by what we see. What is this decent into my personal hell, this spiral of madness? What would you do if you knew you were going crazy? Would you try with all your might to avert the impending doom? What ( Read more... )

Just a few more days in this place and I can go home.

CldStrifeCS: fuck man ( Read more... )

Friday: Got royaly fucked up for something I didn't even do.
Saturday: Worked from 0530 - 2100.

Conclusion: Yuma Arizona sucks ass.

Project Echelon 4 is officially operational, yet still incomplete. What this means to everyone else is that I finally have a working computer. Yay.