i took too many nondrowsy cold pills last night that made me really sick.

...i want it to be spring. i want to undo the things i've changed. i want to graduate.

i want to not have a birthday.

iM nERvOuuUUUUSSsSsS

ARE YOU on acid?

putting things into perspective, i think things are just leveling out.
i wouldn't change them if i had the opportunity.
i'm getting other things in check.
i have a bad feeling about something.

going to santafe in february.. mmm ( Read more... )

. . . but i don't feel any different

1.)i find out there's an 80% chance i'm allergic to wheat and gluten and everything and my immune systems is screwed up as a result and that's why i'm sick all the time. everyone who ever told me I WAS A HYPOCHONDRIAC can eat shit ( Read more... )

if i don't get into santa fe; i aspire to get hit by a hess truck.

i am looking forward to, christmas, maa birfday, and graduation.

i really like getting drunk by myself and reading. sometimes i get thinking that i don't need anyone in my life, LIFE IS SO GOOD WITHOUT HUMAN CONTACT. sundays make me feel this way. i guess i'm just difficult to understand, and if you don't read me well, i can be impossible to deal with ( Read more... )

i retract taht statement. life is manageable. i had a really awesome time today just doing nothing.
sleeping, watching movies, looking at pictures with my family.

keeeep things mellloowwwwww

i seriously

...............

don't know if i can even deal with anyone anymore.

days like today i just want to be a mute. and live out the rest of my existence in cambodia.
actually, ireland.

irene passed away. i cried alot.
halloweens tomorrow.
me and whats his face and our six hour conversations again.
when i'm not happy, i don't talk.
putting myself above everyone else because it's the only way
i can function.

.. . and that's about it.