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i can even think of the words to describe how i'm feeling right now. i can't eat, i can't sleep, and i can't enjoy myself without thinking about it..and i feel..like nothing. like nothing at all..and even though i'll never forgive you for what you've done to me..i still miss you. and i hate myself for that. i hate myself for still loving you and ( Read more... )

when i can't even believe my ears and eyes anymore, i know that it's not worth it. i hate that i thought it was and i hate that it still upsets me. i shouldn't let it get to me because anyone that would do anything like this doesn't deserve anything that i've done for them anyways. i hate writing about it and i hate crying about it and i hate ( Read more... )

i'm so drained that it hurts. and it's horrible to know that this whole time, i was lied to. and not even the closest person to you knew this. i hate you..i really do..and you will never know how much. i regret falling for you, i regret believing all your lies, and i regret ever giving you another chance. i regret wanting you back and actually ( Read more... )

i haven't had time to write lately. i have no strength to and i have no motivation to. and like it even matters. you made it clear that it doesn't matter to you. well, i'm glad your so happy..because it's killing me.

don't tell me that i can't hate you, because i do. i hate you so much for what you've done and how you've made me feel. and what i hate the most is the fact that i don't hate you at all. ugh..i hate that..and it's wierd how the people that make you feel wonderful and make you laugh..can end up being the people that make you feel hopeless and make ( Read more... )

i was doing so good. i had myself believing that i hate you. and i then i found something that totally made me realize that i don't. and i hate that i can't hate you because i feel like i'm nothing to you. and all i wanna do is cry because there is nothing i can do about this and you don't even care. it's so hard to wake up in the morning knowing ( Read more... )

i'm so tired. physically, mentally, emotionally.. and i hate going to school and having to deal with all the drama. but i guess a big part of it was our fault. i'm just hoping it all passes over because shit happens..and life goes on..and there are better things to do than hold grudges. i'm so glad tomorrow is the last school day. it's the only ( Read more... )

it's hard to believe that i put so much trust into someone that only ended up hurting me in the end. and i should have known it would end up this way, because there is no such thing as a happy ending. and it's bullshit how love can make you crazy. how love can take over your mind and hide all the lies and make you try and forget about all the tears ( Read more... )

i love my friends and i love our drunken nights. i hate drama, but sometimes..it's fun to cause it. and it feels good when you try to be the best friend you can be, and someone actually notices. and yesterday..we visited a long lost friend and i was excited, and scared, and happy, and upset all at the same time..and i left with a part of me ( Read more... )