What's the point

[christyfire]

Honestly I don't get it. What's the point of having a positive attitude. It doesn't change your life for the better or instantly make friends or loved ones appear. It just seems to be a test of how well one can pretend. Therapists always say to stay in touch with reality, well pretending is just the opposite. When all is said and done you are

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[shinran]

I still feel lost and empty even though I have someone I love dearly. I don't think this will change ever. Seeing the glass as half-full thing...I know it must be nice if you can get lost in your positive thoughts, but that won't happen to me. I know when I'm faking.

Volunteering at a senior's lodge was not a very good thing for me. Ah, it doesn't matter what you do, who you love, what you have...we'll all become to this thing...old, ugly, useless, waiting to die. Maybe positive thinkers are denying their inevitable future. I want to leave this world before I turn 65.

I'm sorry, I don't think I'm helping you with my negative thoughts. I guess I just wanted to say "I hear ya".

And you're not alone, and it's a good thing you're here because I enjoy conversing with you.

[c0mad0ll]

Guess what Darlin? You are not alone. I have spent almost my entire life pretending. Will it change? Fuck no! But we have got to make the best of it and stick together. You know that I am here for you, whenever you need to talk. Like I said.. Us crazy people have got to stick together. Hope to talk to you soon... Keep that chin up, it will get better...
Kisses
The Doll

P.S. Sorry I missed your call.. I was catching some Zzzz before work...

[ada_byron]

Hey -- sorry you are so down. I wish you coulda started school this semester because it helps my depression a LOT being out and around people in an academic environment. Call me whenever you get home (which should be in approximately 15 minutes). :) I'll ttyl. And I hope your therapy session went well.

[shinran]

Are you okay? Are you still feeling the same as a couple of days ago? *hugs*

[christyfire]

Hello. Thanks for your concern, but I am feeling better now. I just had a lousy couple of hours and I felt the need to post what I was feeling. I still feel the same about that though. I definitely do not have a positive outlook and I am not going to pretend to no matter what. I just spent the last 2 days with my aunt and little cousin. We took him out and had a good time. I love spending time with him it makes me feel better. Enough about me though.
How are you and your family doing? Well I hope. Anything interesting happen lately. Hope to hear from you soon.
Christy

[shinran]

That's nice to know that you're feeling a bit better. I'm doing okay. Just had a dinner with my adopted family (you know, I'm not related to them in any way but I consider them my family) and that was fun. ttyl:)