So, ranting, raving throwing myself into insanity to fullfil a deep desire of innovation and action. Yes, indeed, letting a mind wander freely and travel through the myriads of space and time, that will lul even the deepest senses into madness and despair ( Read more... )

I wonder how it is, that you don't feel like updating your livejournal. I mean,it is pretty normal that you write and write and just let your mind flow with useless information, that you think might cheer up somebody. Or is it in reality for yourself you write ( Read more... )

And we are down to 19 days, then my beeeeaatiful wonderful wife will FINALLY be in the same country as I. It is quite bizarre to be married and still be apart. Anyway, everything is ready and we just need to wait now. *Sigh*

On a whole other part, my company decided to shift the payroll from advance pay to backwards pay. Quite okay, except now I ( Read more... )

this is the happiest day of my life.


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 Does the concept of right or wrong exist? Can we say that it is not wrong to lie? Can we say that it is not wrong to steal? Can we say that it is not wrong to kill ( Read more... )

So... now what can we learn about this:
1) I am a fucking bastard and I disgust myself when I think about what I have done
2) I have hurt the one the most in the world, and the only one who really matters, and I have no right to even ask about her forgiveness
3) I simply cannot do alcohol. It is a mind-altering substance for my part, when I consume it ( Read more... )

Have you ever thought about the words that you think about? Just looked into your mind and thought "hey thats a funny word" or something like that? To be amazed over the whole amazement?

It is a weird feeling. To sit and think about thinking. To wonder what it is, that you are wondering about. You know, when you have a thought and you just lose it, ( Read more... )

It is everywhere. It crawls inside of me, it fills my chest, it makes the blood cloth in my veines ( Read more... )

...She said, taking my hand into the cave of madness. Dance, she invited, and had my mind swirl in distress and colours, losing its sanity, forgetting reason, and diving into unholy lands of catastrophic proportions.

Laugh, she cried, as the picture turned to horror, and the screams of rationality echoed throughout the world of the sane. The steps ( Read more... )

...control..manipulation... however you put it: The tools to have it all. For so long it has been in my mind. As long as my curse has been there.

Now, normal people. or whichever people you do choose to call normal, but at least those people who are mostly in the world, do not suffer from curses. They do not enter a realm of wickedness, or pure evil ( Read more... )