You don't need him but me
“Taemin,
isn’t that Minho over there?” pointed Jinki at his best friend's boyfriend, who
seemed busy with some girl on his hands. The called boy looked at said
boyfriends. “Yeah that’s him.” Taemin quickened his pace, trying to leave the
hurtful scene.
Jinki followed the smaller teen, feeling really bad for him. “Are you okay?” Jinki knows it's a stupid question as soon as it comes out of his mouth. He really shouldn’t ask but it’s been two weeks and they had seen the same thing for a while. Taemin didn’t say a thing, he would just keep walking leaving his busy boyfriend with the girl.
“Are you hurt?” another stupid question comes from his mouth. Of course he’s hurt. Who wouldn't be when they just saw their boyfriend kissing another girl. Especially when he didn’t know that his real boyfriend was watching them.
“Taemin..”
“Jinki hyung, just forget what you saw, I’m okay.” said Taemin forcing a smile across his face. Jinki knows that Taemin is lying. They had been friends since they were 10 years old, he could tell when Taemin was lying or really - really happy.
“Why are you still with him?” asked Jinki again. He didn’t care if he didn’t answer it. “Cause I need him.” answered Taemin in a low voice, thinking that Jinki didn’t hear it. Little did he know, he was wrong, and Jinki heard it clearly and it just hurt him even more.
****
“ngh.. Minho ..” moaned Taemin between the kiss. Minho had just shoved Taemin into the bathroom, trapped him between the wall and his body. Just before Minho wanted to take off Taemin's shirt, his phone vibrated in his pocket.
“Oh.. yes Yuri?”
Taemin knew that Minho would leave soon, so he fixed his clothes and waited for Minho to go. “Taemin, I must.” Taemin shoved Minho's body lightly, smiling. “I know, have fun.” And he was alone now. “Huh I think I should be going too.” He said to himself.
“Hey Taemin.” Greeted Jonghyun, when he saw the younger teen come out from the bathroom. “I just saw Minho come out from the bathroom a while ago.” said Jonghyun, smirking. “You guys were doing something, weren’t you?”He teased, getting a small punch from Kibum and Jinki who were standing beside him.
“Ahahah, no hyung, we aren’t doing anything, Yuri just called him and I think something important came up since Minho hyung left in a hurry.” Jinki raised his eyebrow, not liking the thought of Minho leaving Taemin for her. He didn't like it at all.
“Bye Taemin, Umma will miss you,” said Kibum, giving Taemin a crushing hug that made Jonghyun and Jinki worried that it’ll hurt the smaller boy. “Stop being so dramatic, it isn’t like you won’t’ see him again,” Jonghyun pulled his boyfriend away from the hug. “No pouting, or you will get a punishment tonight, now let’s go home. Bye Taemin, Jinki hyung.”
Now Taemin and Jinki were alone.”Bye hyung I’ll walk home too,” said Taemin. Jinki grabbed his hand. “I’ll drive you home.” He said guiding Taemin to his blue Mercedes.
The drive to Taemin's house was dead silent. This was the first time Taemin felt uneasy near Jinki. Since that day, being around Jinki made him feel like being his true self, not the person he was with everyone else.
“Taemin.” Jinki's voice surprised him, making him look at the other teen who was concentrating on the road. “Yeah hyung?” Answered Taemin, trying to sound as normal as possible. “Don’t be so tense Taemin, it's not like I‘ll hurt you.” There’s a long pause after Jinki words. It seemed like neither of them wanted to talk first.
“Why you keep smiling and acting like nothing's happening Taemin?”
“Cause I’m okay hyung, I told you, why are you asking again?”
Because I know that you’re lying Taemin, thought Jinki. “Nothing, just amazed at you and how you can be this strong. If I’m not wrong, you weren't like this before, you cried so easily when we were little, just a little cut made you cry for hours.”
Silent, that’s what Taemin do. He knows there’s a hidden meaning from Jinki words. “Why are you still with him Taemin? He’s hurting you.” The same question like before and like always Taemin will just pass and ignore it and after a minute he will answered it with a low voice.
“Cause I need him hyung.”
Jinki heard what Taemin said and he tried to keep in his anger, he knew how much Taemin loved that man. Even thought Jinki really wanted to punch the other teen in the face, he didn’t want to hurt his best friend's heart more. With Minho playing with the smaller teen's heart it was already breaking.
“Thank you for the ride hyung.” said Taemin bowed to his hyung. Jinki ruffled the smaller teen's hair, smiling. "No need to thank me, you're already like my family." Taemin just give him a thankful smile a, smile that Jinki had missed seeing.
"Hyung?" The smaller teen was confused when Jinki hugged him. This time Jinki was the one who didn't answer or respond, the older teen just hugged him more tightly, which made Taemin more confused. "Don’t hide anything from me okay," was all Jinki said.
Taemin didn’t know what to do, so he just stood there and let Jinki hug him.
"I'll try hyung."
*****
“Hello?”
“Hyung..”
“Taemin? What’s wrong?” Jinki was worried now, Taemin just called him at 2 am, and it must be important since Taemin wouldn’t disturb him when he was sleeping unless something really bothered him. “It’s nothing hyung, it’s just… can I come to your place?”
There’s a pause, Jinki was really worried now. “What happened?” he asked. He can hear Taemin sighing before answering his question. “It’s just, Minho asked Yuri to sleep over and I don’t want to disturb them… so...” Before Taemin could finish, Jinki was already up.
“I’ll get you, wait for me.” was all Jinki said before he hung up.
Taemin didn’t dare to look at Jinki when he arrived, didn’t dare to talk at him. The drive to Jinki’s house felt even more tense then the drive to Taemin and Minho’s apartment.
“Why did you let him bring that bitch?” Taemin was shocked by Jinki words, Jinki usually never swore. Unless something was really bothering him up. Taemin decided to not answer the question, scared of making Jinki mad even more.
“I’m sorry Taemin I didn’t mean it,” Jinki apologized when he realized what just he said. “It’s okay hyung, I know you’re just tired,” answered Taemin, trying to act strong but it was clearly hurting him.
“Because I need his warmth hyung.”
“Did you say something?”
“No, it’s nothing hyung, just focus on the road.” Taemin didn’t know that Jinki heard what he said and Just wanted to show them how wrong he was, how unneeded his boyfriend really was.
“You can sleep on the bed.” said Jinki, when they got into the house. “Then where are you going to sleep hyung?” asked Taemin. “I’ll sleep on the couch,” Jinki replied, grabbing a pillow and blanket.
Immediately Taemin claimed the couch for himself and lay there “What are you doing?” ask Jinki, confused with Taemin’s strange behavior. “The couch is mine; you can sleep on the bed.” He said childishly. Jinki chuckled, lifting Taemin from the couch, and put him on the floor. “Now it’s mine.” He said claiming the empty couch.
“That’s cheating,” he whined, and got into the bed, pouting. “Don’t be mad, I just wanted you to get a good sleep.” Jinki approached the smaller teen, to check if he really was mad. “hehehe, sleep here hyung, we can share the bed.” Taemin pulled Jinki into bed, snuggling into the other’s broad chest.
“You’re so warm hyung.” Jinki couldn’t resist putting his arm around Taemin. He was sure Taemin could hear how fast his heart was beating. He had dreamt about this for so long, being able to wake up with Taemin by his side. He couldn’t believe how ungrateful that Choi Minho was, to have someone as sweet as Taemin and treat him so badly. “Hyung, thank you.” Taemin murmured in his sleep. Jinki kissed Taemin's temple lightly, trying to not disturb the sleeping teen.”I wish you knew Taemin, just how much I love you and how much it hurts me when I see him hurting you.”
*****
“Let’s break up.”
“… Okay.”
Taemin doesn’t know why he doesn’t feel hurt, doesn't know why he doesn't cry, even though he knows that he and Minho aren’t dating anymore. He’s just standing at the same spot where Minho has left him. Staring blankly at the blurry scenery.
“Taemin what are you doing there?” someone was calling out to him and he knew who it was. “Jinki hyung?” the smaller teen turned around, looking at the one who called his name.
“What are you doing here?”
“Taem… min?” Jinki was taken aback when he felt Taemin's small arms wrapping around his neck, his head buried onto his chest. “What..” Jinki didn’t finish his question when Taemin cut him off. “Please don’t ask, just let me be like this just for a minute.” Taemin said between the hug.
Without Jinki realizing, his arms had already wrapped around Taemin's small figure, wrapping him in a protective hug. Taemin was crying silently, his small body was trembling and Jinki could feel it. “What did he do Taemin, answer me!” It was no longer a question but an order
“Minho just broke up with me.”
“Hyung! Where are you going?” exclaims Taemin when Jinki pulls out of the hug roughly, he could see the rage in Jinki eyes and it scared him. Jinki rarely showed his anger, and that meant when he let the anger get the better of him, he was really angry. Jinki couldn’t stand Minho looking so happy chattering with Yuri, while Taemin just got his heart broken because of him. The anger blinded his eyes again and he punched Minho in the face so hard, so he fell off his chair.
“What the hell was that for?!” Minho wiped the blood from his mouth. “What am I doing?! I’m doing something that I should do.” answered Jinki. “How could you play with Taemin's heart like that? How could you just throw away his love?!”
Minho got up the floor, wiping down his dirty clothes. “If you love him, just ask him out, he won’t care either.” With that, another punch came from Jinki but this time Minho retaliated, punching the other teen back. Their fight gathered some interest.
“Jinki hyung stop!”
screamed Taemin, approaching the two fighting teens. “Hyung stop it.” He grabbed Jinki's hand and pull him out from the fight. “Shut up Taemin.” Jinki said, struggling in Taemin's embrace. Taemin tried his best to stop Jinki even thought it seemed impossible with his small body.
“Hyung just stop… please.” Hearing Taemin plead to him, make Jinki come back reality. Fighting wouldn’t make everything better. It would just make everything worse, even more complicated. He released himself from Taemin's hug and dragged him out from the crowd.
“Hyung… you’re hurting me.”
“Hyung…”
“Why are you still defending him?” Jinki released Taemin's hand from his grip. The smaller boy just lowered his head, afraid to face the angry Jinki in front of him. “Lee Taemin I’m asking you a question.” Jinki raised his voice. He was sick of Taemin staying silent every time he asked him a question about his relationship with his boyfriend, ex-boyfriend.
The sky was dark, it seemed like it was going to rain soon, thunder rumbled overhead. “You know he was just playing with your heart, and still stayed with him, let yourself be treated like a toy,” continued Jinki, since Taemin decided to stay silent.
“Is it because you need him? Is it because you need his touch? Warmth? Love? Face it Taemin, every time he gave you all of those things, it just hurts you even more because he didn’t feel the same way lie you do.” Taemin really don’t know what to say.
“Taemin.” called the teen in front of him, lifting his face so he’s looking at him now. “Just tell me one thing, are you hurt? Be honest.” He said, looking so sincere, the anger already gone from him, looking like just the Jinki hyung he knew.
“No.”
Liar
“Then… what’s that thing that just rolled down your face?” asked Jinki, touching the droplets falling from Taemin eyes, wiping them away. “It's just... the rain.” Taemin lowered his head not wanting Jinki to see his face.
The rain was coming down fast and showering the two teens. “Really?” Jinki looked Taemin in the eyes again. “Then why can I feel the hurt and sadness every time I wipe the tears from your face, the sky crying?” he said, wiping the tears mixed with the rain off Taemin's face.
“I’m not crying.”
“Yeah I know you aren’t crying, let’s just accompanying the sky.” The older teen said, embracing Taemin. “You don’t need his touch anymore Taemin, you don’t need his warmth or love either.”
“Cause you’ve got me now, I love you, Lee Taemin.” Taemin feels a pair of soft lips kissing his temple, making him feel comfortable, making him feel loved. The rain stopped along with with Taemin tears. “I guess the sky has already stopped crying right now.” said Jinki, looking at the beautiful sky.
“Hyung? Don’t hurt me, please.”
Jinki can’t help smiling. He’s loved Taemin for as long as he can remember and, he finally has him. He leaned towards Taemin, giving him a small kiss on the lips.
“No I won’t, I promise Taemin.”
******
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Jinki followed the smaller teen, feeling really bad for him. “Are you okay?” Jinki knows it's a stupid question as soon as it comes out of his mouth. He really shouldn’t ask but it’s been two weeks and they had seen the same thing for a while. Taemin didn’t say a thing, he would just keep walking leaving his busy boyfriend with the girl.
“Are you hurt?” another stupid question comes from his mouth. Of course he’s hurt. Who wouldn't be when they just saw their boyfriend kissing another girl. Especially when he didn’t know that his real boyfriend was watching them.
“Taemin..”
“Jinki hyung, just forget what you saw, I’m okay.” said Taemin forcing a smile across his face. Jinki knows that Taemin is lying. They had been friends since they were 10 years old, he could tell when Taemin was lying or really - really happy.
“Why are you still with him?” asked Jinki again. He didn’t care if he didn’t answer it. “Cause I need him.” answered Taemin in a low voice, thinking that Jinki didn’t hear it. Little did he know, he was wrong, and Jinki heard it clearly and it just hurt him even more.
****
“ngh.. Minho ..” moaned Taemin between the kiss. Minho had just shoved Taemin into the bathroom, trapped him between the wall and his body. Just before Minho wanted to take off Taemin's shirt, his phone vibrated in his pocket.
“Oh.. yes Yuri?”
Taemin knew that Minho would leave soon, so he fixed his clothes and waited for Minho to go. “Taemin, I must.” Taemin shoved Minho's body lightly, smiling. “I know, have fun.” And he was alone now. “Huh I think I should be going too.” He said to himself.
“Hey Taemin.” Greeted Jonghyun, when he saw the younger teen come out from the bathroom. “I just saw Minho come out from the bathroom a while ago.” said Jonghyun, smirking. “You guys were doing something, weren’t you?”He teased, getting a small punch from Kibum and Jinki who were standing beside him.
“Ahahah, no hyung, we aren’t doing anything, Yuri just called him and I think something important came up since Minho hyung left in a hurry.” Jinki raised his eyebrow, not liking the thought of Minho leaving Taemin for her. He didn't like it at all.
“Bye Taemin, Umma will miss you,” said Kibum, giving Taemin a crushing hug that made Jonghyun and Jinki worried that it’ll hurt the smaller boy. “Stop being so dramatic, it isn’t like you won’t’ see him again,” Jonghyun pulled his boyfriend away from the hug. “No pouting, or you will get a punishment tonight, now let’s go home. Bye Taemin, Jinki hyung.”
Now Taemin and Jinki were alone.”Bye hyung I’ll walk home too,” said Taemin. Jinki grabbed his hand. “I’ll drive you home.” He said guiding Taemin to his blue Mercedes.
The drive to Taemin's house was dead silent. This was the first time Taemin felt uneasy near Jinki. Since that day, being around Jinki made him feel like being his true self, not the person he was with everyone else.
“Taemin.” Jinki's voice surprised him, making him look at the other teen who was concentrating on the road. “Yeah hyung?” Answered Taemin, trying to sound as normal as possible. “Don’t be so tense Taemin, it's not like I‘ll hurt you.” There’s a long pause after Jinki words. It seemed like neither of them wanted to talk first.
“Why you keep smiling and acting like nothing's happening Taemin?”
“Cause I’m okay hyung, I told you, why are you asking again?”
Because I know that you’re lying Taemin, thought Jinki. “Nothing, just amazed at you and how you can be this strong. If I’m not wrong, you weren't like this before, you cried so easily when we were little, just a little cut made you cry for hours.”
Silent, that’s what Taemin do. He knows there’s a hidden meaning from Jinki words. “Why are you still with him Taemin? He’s hurting you.” The same question like before and like always Taemin will just pass and ignore it and after a minute he will answered it with a low voice.
“Cause I need him hyung.”
Jinki heard what Taemin said and he tried to keep in his anger, he knew how much Taemin loved that man. Even thought Jinki really wanted to punch the other teen in the face, he didn’t want to hurt his best friend's heart more. With Minho playing with the smaller teen's heart it was already breaking.
“Thank you for the ride hyung.” said Taemin bowed to his hyung. Jinki ruffled the smaller teen's hair, smiling. "No need to thank me, you're already like my family." Taemin just give him a thankful smile a, smile that Jinki had missed seeing.
"Hyung?" The smaller teen was confused when Jinki hugged him. This time Jinki was the one who didn't answer or respond, the older teen just hugged him more tightly, which made Taemin more confused. "Don’t hide anything from me okay," was all Jinki said.
Taemin didn’t know what to do, so he just stood there and let Jinki hug him.
"I'll try hyung."
*****
“Hello?”
“Hyung..”
“Taemin? What’s wrong?” Jinki was worried now, Taemin just called him at 2 am, and it must be important since Taemin wouldn’t disturb him when he was sleeping unless something really bothered him. “It’s nothing hyung, it’s just… can I come to your place?”
There’s a pause, Jinki was really worried now. “What happened?” he asked. He can hear Taemin sighing before answering his question. “It’s just, Minho asked Yuri to sleep over and I don’t want to disturb them… so...” Before Taemin could finish, Jinki was already up.
“I’ll get you, wait for me.” was all Jinki said before he hung up.
Taemin didn’t dare to look at Jinki when he arrived, didn’t dare to talk at him. The drive to Jinki’s house felt even more tense then the drive to Taemin and Minho’s apartment.
“Why did you let him bring that bitch?” Taemin was shocked by Jinki words, Jinki usually never swore. Unless something was really bothering him up. Taemin decided to not answer the question, scared of making Jinki mad even more.
“I’m sorry Taemin I didn’t mean it,” Jinki apologized when he realized what just he said. “It’s okay hyung, I know you’re just tired,” answered Taemin, trying to act strong but it was clearly hurting him.
“Because I need his warmth hyung.”
“Did you say something?”
“No, it’s nothing hyung, just focus on the road.” Taemin didn’t know that Jinki heard what he said and Just wanted to show them how wrong he was, how unneeded his boyfriend really was.
“You can sleep on the bed.” said Jinki, when they got into the house. “Then where are you going to sleep hyung?” asked Taemin. “I’ll sleep on the couch,” Jinki replied, grabbing a pillow and blanket.
Immediately Taemin claimed the couch for himself and lay there “What are you doing?” ask Jinki, confused with Taemin’s strange behavior. “The couch is mine; you can sleep on the bed.” He said childishly. Jinki chuckled, lifting Taemin from the couch, and put him on the floor. “Now it’s mine.” He said claiming the empty couch.
“That’s cheating,” he whined, and got into the bed, pouting. “Don’t be mad, I just wanted you to get a good sleep.” Jinki approached the smaller teen, to check if he really was mad. “hehehe, sleep here hyung, we can share the bed.” Taemin pulled Jinki into bed, snuggling into the other’s broad chest.
“You’re so warm hyung.” Jinki couldn’t resist putting his arm around Taemin. He was sure Taemin could hear how fast his heart was beating. He had dreamt about this for so long, being able to wake up with Taemin by his side. He couldn’t believe how ungrateful that Choi Minho was, to have someone as sweet as Taemin and treat him so badly. “Hyung, thank you.” Taemin murmured in his sleep. Jinki kissed Taemin's temple lightly, trying to not disturb the sleeping teen.”I wish you knew Taemin, just how much I love you and how much it hurts me when I see him hurting you.”
*****
“Let’s break up.”
“… Okay.”
Taemin doesn’t know why he doesn’t feel hurt, doesn't know why he doesn't cry, even though he knows that he and Minho aren’t dating anymore. He’s just standing at the same spot where Minho has left him. Staring blankly at the blurry scenery.
“Taemin what are you doing there?” someone was calling out to him and he knew who it was. “Jinki hyung?” the smaller teen turned around, looking at the one who called his name.
“What are you doing here?”
“Taem… min?” Jinki was taken aback when he felt Taemin's small arms wrapping around his neck, his head buried onto his chest. “What..” Jinki didn’t finish his question when Taemin cut him off. “Please don’t ask, just let me be like this just for a minute.” Taemin said between the hug.
Without Jinki realizing, his arms had already wrapped around Taemin's small figure, wrapping him in a protective hug. Taemin was crying silently, his small body was trembling and Jinki could feel it. “What did he do Taemin, answer me!” It was no longer a question but an order
“Minho just broke up with me.”
“Hyung! Where are you going?” exclaims Taemin when Jinki pulls out of the hug roughly, he could see the rage in Jinki eyes and it scared him. Jinki rarely showed his anger, and that meant when he let the anger get the better of him, he was really angry. Jinki couldn’t stand Minho looking so happy chattering with Yuri, while Taemin just got his heart broken because of him. The anger blinded his eyes again and he punched Minho in the face so hard, so he fell off his chair.
“What the hell was that for?!” Minho wiped the blood from his mouth. “What am I doing?! I’m doing something that I should do.” answered Jinki. “How could you play with Taemin's heart like that? How could you just throw away his love?!”
Minho got up the floor, wiping down his dirty clothes. “If you love him, just ask him out, he won’t care either.” With that, another punch came from Jinki but this time Minho retaliated, punching the other teen back. Their fight gathered some interest.
“Jinki hyung stop!”
screamed Taemin, approaching the two fighting teens. “Hyung stop it.” He grabbed Jinki's hand and pull him out from the fight. “Shut up Taemin.” Jinki said, struggling in Taemin's embrace. Taemin tried his best to stop Jinki even thought it seemed impossible with his small body.
“Hyung just stop… please.” Hearing Taemin plead to him, make Jinki come back reality. Fighting wouldn’t make everything better. It would just make everything worse, even more complicated. He released himself from Taemin's hug and dragged him out from the crowd.
“Hyung… you’re hurting me.”
“Hyung…”
“Why are you still defending him?” Jinki released Taemin's hand from his grip. The smaller boy just lowered his head, afraid to face the angry Jinki in front of him. “Lee Taemin I’m asking you a question.” Jinki raised his voice. He was sick of Taemin staying silent every time he asked him a question about his relationship with his boyfriend, ex-boyfriend.
The sky was dark, it seemed like it was going to rain soon, thunder rumbled overhead. “You know he was just playing with your heart, and still stayed with him, let yourself be treated like a toy,” continued Jinki, since Taemin decided to stay silent.
“Is it because you need him? Is it because you need his touch? Warmth? Love? Face it Taemin, every time he gave you all of those things, it just hurts you even more because he didn’t feel the same way lie you do.” Taemin really don’t know what to say.
“Taemin.” called the teen in front of him, lifting his face so he’s looking at him now. “Just tell me one thing, are you hurt? Be honest.” He said, looking so sincere, the anger already gone from him, looking like just the Jinki hyung he knew.
“No.”
Liar
“Then… what’s that thing that just rolled down your face?” asked Jinki, touching the droplets falling from Taemin eyes, wiping them away. “It's just... the rain.” Taemin lowered his head not wanting Jinki to see his face.
The rain was coming down fast and showering the two teens. “Really?” Jinki looked Taemin in the eyes again. “Then why can I feel the hurt and sadness every time I wipe the tears from your face, the sky crying?” he said, wiping the tears mixed with the rain off Taemin's face.
“I’m not crying.”
“Yeah I know you aren’t crying, let’s just accompanying the sky.” The older teen said, embracing Taemin. “You don’t need his touch anymore Taemin, you don’t need his warmth or love either.”
“Cause you’ve got me now, I love you, Lee Taemin.” Taemin feels a pair of soft lips kissing his temple, making him feel comfortable, making him feel loved. The rain stopped along with with Taemin tears. “I guess the sky has already stopped crying right now.” said Jinki, looking at the beautiful sky.
“Hyung? Don’t hurt me, please.”
Jinki can’t help smiling. He’s loved Taemin for as long as he can remember and, he finally has him. He leaned towards Taemin, giving him a small kiss on the lips.
“No I won’t, I promise Taemin.”
******
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