Of Dismay and The Parting
Title: Of Dismay and The Parting
Author: Ahra
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: 2min, implied!Yunjae
Genre: romance, slight angst with happy ending.
Summary: Everything seems like a drama and Taemin feels so insecure.
A/n: written for my dearest mirru_val for her awesome story Of Insecurity and First Step which made me realise to write something quick as the return so yes, this is the fail oneshot in my version ^___^ i gave a similar title to show how this is dedicated to her <3
Once, Leeteuk mentioned this in Strong Heart.
" As an idol group, they go well about 5 years, then disband. As you life, there isn't always forever."
Disband is a word idol groups will always carry and get pressured with.
***
Slowly the maknae rubbed his eyes.
" The number you're calling can not be reached.."
Taemin flipped his cell close as he stared intently at the screen right in front of his eyes. Right hand desperately moved the mouse, pointing the cursor to a title of hottest headline news explained on a particular website. He suddenly trembled upon re-reading the title over and over faintly, feeling tremendously scared.
“That’s not true. We’ve never received contact. And even if we want to contact them, their numbers have changed, so we might not have accepted the call because of the unfamiliar number. There’s been a lot of prank calls lately, it’s difficult for us to take every call.”
Was it even a lie?
Taemin looked down to the next paragraph.
It was Jaejong's tweet written below.
“I want to reply to this directly, through my own words. They weren’t many, but do you know how hard it was for me to send you those texts? I texted you again right now, please check it.”
Like a drama, as if it was really one.
Even Taemin could grasp this to his mind quick - it's impossible for Yunho to not identify the text even if Jaejong changed his number. They had been together for a long, long time. Their relationship was something Taemin once always worship back then, hoping him and Minho 's relationship could be that smooth.
Why did you lie, Yunho Hyung?
Taemin bit his upper lip, frustated and full of dismay.
Minho too - he didn't pick up Taemin's calls or reply a text that often now.
With Yuri, Hara, Krystal, and now a noona called Eunsoo.
They were all pretty - and if it needed then Taemin had to put '-er' behind the pretty word. So flawless, beautiful, and sincere. Unlike Taemin.
He was still a kid. Nothing compared to the noonas (and Krystal).
Top of all, the women above were considered to Minho's ideal type.
But it was just Minho never mentioned their secret relationship to the public. A cuddle, hug, and kiss they shared weren't that warm anymore but a cold one, just a formality as a couple and Taemin wasn't numb enough to feel the empty warmth already replaced with a barrier - like a thick bricks of wall - between their meshed lips.
If one day Minho Hyung leaves me.
Taemin gasped while he leaned back against the chair.. and he just smiled bitterly.
He will leave me. He will pretend to not recognize my calls and text just like Yunho Hyung, is it still worthy to stick up for our relationship?
And as for the disband matter..
Taemin, suddenly, felt so insecure and scared about the relationship, unrealizing tears already on the both of his eyes.
He's so close yet feels so far.
" Taemin?"
The maknae hurriedly clicked 'close the tab' and he spun around, meeting with the frog eyes like two meters away from him. Taemin smiled as he got up from the chair, welcoming the rapper softly.
" Hyung, welcome home."
The older took off his coat and mumbled. " Sorry for coming home late. Yunho hyung needs me."
I know. All sunbaes always need you, and you are happily willing to accompany them.
But what about me?
" I'm tired, Taemin-ah. Let's sleep."
and that was all Minho said before he got into his shared room with Jonghyun, leaving the dancer alone nailed on the floor. Again. No hug, no night kisses.
Minho didn't knew the tears which was already flowing down from his eyes quietly, begging Minho to come back and give an attempt to comfort - but Minho was already disappeared behind that closed door before he could voice out.
I can't stand to this anymore.
***
Like a thunder in the broad daylight, Minho was too stunned to register what Taemin just had said. He could not believe his own hearing and Minho was pretty sure his ears still worked well.
" I'm sorry, Hyung," A tiny, faint whisper muttered an apology, pains clearly heard underneath that soft voice. " It's just.. not working anymore."
Basically Taemin was a crybaby, but he didn't let out a cry nor tears. Minho tried to read Taemin's expression, hoping that perhaps he hid something but failed to.
Taemin bowed deeply as he left. It was Taemin's turn to finally leave Minho - after this times it was always Minho for his hyungies and noonas. But it wasn't an ordinary parting - but a painful separation.
Lee Taemin just asked a break up.
" Let's break up, hyung."
Everything in front of Minho suddenly turned become black and white.
***
The rest members - Key and the double J brothers - were fully aware that Taemin was fully miserable after they broke up a week ago. Not only Taemin, so was Minho. They didn't talk much and not ready yet to face each other so they kept a distance between. Minho decided to go out with his hyungies more and had a drink together, then came home really late. The dorm suddenly became silent. No happy giggles or laughs came out of their mouths, expressing their love intimately on the couch just like they usually did.
So it was Jinki as the leader who was brave enough to approach the youngest slowly, ruffling the auburn locks fatherly as he noticed a pair of weary eyes spacing out to the living room.
" Is there something bothering you, Taemin-ah?"
Minho was observing silently from the couch, the question didn't slip his ears. Taemin merely chuckled. " No. I'm fine."
Wrong. Minho could tell from his laugh very well. Even it didn't fail him to detect the awkward and loss feeling slipping out in Taemin's simple answer.
The other party consisted Jinki, Key, and Jonghyun was also never a dumb when it concerned to the youngest's obvious acts, but they chose to leave behind the answer and Jinki patted Taemin's shoulder. " Good."
Taemin laughed bitterly under his breath.
***
" I'm going out now."
Minho took his jacket and slipped it along his long arms, also to his muscled body. Taemin watched the rapper silently but he didn't bother to ask where. He could imagine the cups of alcohol for the reason of Minho's night stroll. Taemin's heart twinged a little as he wondered if Minho got drunk later. He would be hard to control.
But Minho was all grown up now. He could take care of himself. Taemin took a deep sigh and not too long after Minho's departure, Taemin decided to get some fresh air outside and sneak into the practice room in SM building.
" Are you going out too, Taemin-ah? It's cold outside," Key insisted Taemin to stay in dorm instead but Taemin gave an assuring smile to the umma. " Hyung, i will be fine. Besides, i bring this thick sweater along with me and i wear another long sleeves to warm me up. I'm just gonna take a walk."
Key, although he looked still worried, shrugged off. " Alright. Make sure to not catch a flu later or else you're gonna be in bed for couple days again. We all know how much you hate it."
Taemin clicked his tongue and grinned. " I know."
***
The practice room was usually quiet and only Taemin's heavy pants filled up the emptiness as the dance steps trotted on the wooden floor. Some random musics were being played as Taemin's agile body followed to become a synchronized movement. After the music ended Taemin fell down to the floor on his back, panting heavily while trying to regain his remaining stamina. Dancing was always a good choice for Taemin to release his stress and distract himself from the pressure that had been creeping him all the time lately.
He peeked to the hanging clock over there and the hour hands showed '23.17', making Taemin realise it was already quite late. So then the dancer packed his stuffs into his bag and put on back the sweaters before finally drifted off the practice room. Taemin shivered to the cold atmosphere hitting him when he noticed the company building was already quiet and slightly dark. Taemin shut his eyes tightly and sprinted to save his scared soul.
But then he bumped to someone, nose colliding with the sturdy body before him. Taemin winced while he rubbed his nose and took a look carefully, scanning the man in front of him.
" Yunho Hyung?"
The TVXQ's well known leader furrowed when he realized the young man below him. " Taemin-ah? What are you doing this late?"
" Having a dance practice alone?" Yunho laughed, offering a can of green tea to the young dancer. They were sitting on the long brench under a big tree and conversing, " How come? Didn't you ask Minho for a company?"
Hearing Minho's name Taemin felt a pain stung his heart. " No.. I just wanted to practice alone. I thought he was gone drinking with you."
Yunho's face scrunched up. " That's weird. Indeed i was asking for his company a week but not again. Even i just came back after an interview and sent Changmin back to dorm first. I didn't know he had gone drinking. Maybe he did that alone."
" With girls, i suppose?"
Yunho rolled his eyes. " No he won't - wait. 'Girls'? Why are you assuming like that? Isn't he your boyfriend?"
Taemin's face stiffened and his body froze. Yunho eyed him sharply, clearly sensing something wrong going on between the two. " You didn't.. break up with him.. right?"
Taemin choked on Yunho's guess and the older sighed. " I know right. Seriously Taemin, what now?"
So then Taemin poured everything to Minho into small cries and whines, but he was obviously hurt although he didn't really care of his blabbings. He just blurted everything he knew after bottling for months. The insecurity he had about his relationship with Minho. How he felt jealous and weak and nothing compared to the noonas. How scared he was upon thinking the disband matter pressuring him. Also the thought of not wanting to hurt Minho and hoping him to get the better one so he will not get hurt after they separated was the reason why Taemin asked to break up.
" I don't know.." Taemin's voice was shaken a bit, " Really.. How if everything comes true? I don't think i can deal with it bravely.."
" Sssh.." Yunho pulled Taemin closer to hug the poor young boy and murmured, " No, no. You don't have to think it right now, Taemin-ah. There, there.."
Taemin responded the hug by gripping tight Yunho's fabric and let out his tears falling down endlessly, pouring the dismay of being parted away from the one his love and also the group which he had deemed as his second place, second family.
But somehow deep at the corner his heart, Taemin was longing for Minho's touch, silently hoping that maybe, the warmth of Minho's arms could belong to him once again.
But still..
It's better if not me.
" If i ended this with Minho Hyung quickly.. None of us would get hurt more later.. and he can find finest, best girl out there beside me.."
Yunho gave a disapporving look to the younger. " What - what did you just say? Finest girl? Why would he when he already has you!"
Taemin shook his head, still trembling so bad. Yunho sighed and gripped Taemin's small frame loosely, staring deeply to the maknae. " Listen. Don't you miss him? Well, he is dense. and stupid. Guys are stupid. You. Me. Him. and even Jaejong. That's why we need to talk before we take a decision."
Taemin's eyes snapped wide as Yunho mentioned Jaejong. " Who? Jaejong Hyung?"
Yunho smiled longingly. " He is stupid, Taemin-ah. Could you believe that?"
The maknae detected a lonely look Yunho throwing out to the empty space somewhere. " Do you miss him too, Yunho Hyung?" he asked in a small voice, almost voiceless.
" Of course, Taemin-ah. I always do," Yunho replied softly, ruffling the maknae's hairs. Taemin narrowed his eyes a little to the touch and looked up.
" So why didn't you reply the message? Do you hate him because he left the group and also, you?"
Yunho replied calmly. " I never hate him, not even if i die."
" Then why - "
" Because i love him," Yunho cut off the maknae with his low, deep voice, " I'm afraid if i hear his voice, both of us will turn weak again. We have our personal reasons to keep on our paths, despite the longing feeling."
Taemin blinked, his head spinning from all the mature talk.
" But as for Minho.." Yunho continued, now a smile bringing up along with his words, " He really loves you and never missed a chance to brag about you in front of us, the hyungies. No matter how many his ideal types out there, he still chooses you.."
Taemin felt his frozen body going numb. He really felt wanting to die.
" .. and he also confessed to me, wishing you two's relationship to be long last forever."
Knowing the truth had been revealed made Taemin's eyes tear again.
" Listen," Yunho suggested, wiping the tears off patiently, " Don't act recklessly. You guys belong to each other. In the other news, i must say you are stupid, so is Minho."
Taemin peeked and pouted. " Aren't you the same, Hyung? Just like Jaejong Hyung."
Yunho chukled. " Yes, i am," he replied, there was a confidence in his tone, " That's why he will return to me again, Junsu and Yoochun too."
The young dancer cupped Yunho's cheeks with his hands until their eyes met, holding a staring contest for a moment. " He misses you."
" I know," said the faint whisper slipped out of Yunho's lips.
" Then go text him. You said he will return to you, but when? Now send him a text as the reply. Haven't you looked the news yet? He tried to reach you, Hyung."
Yunho closed his eyes and when he opened back, he gave a sweet smile. " As for you, go talk to him. Don't waste the time."
Taemin nodded with a smile as he let go his hands, bowing twice to express his thankful and storming to the direction of SHINee's dorm placed at.
***
" I'm home."
Minho took off his shoes and threw the coat away which was dropping right on the wooden chair next to him. Minho lied on the couch to regain back his sanity. He knew he wasn't sober enough after bottles of drinks so he ended up staring out, mumbling randomly. Ever since he broke up with Taemin, Minho had been a total mess. Gone drinking and strolling around alone in night with no company were all Minho did. His heart was hollow.
Minho had known too that he already hurt the maknae's feeling by keep leaving him alone numerous times. Minho also realized well that actually Taemin needed him badly but Minho wasn't there to comfort. He failed as a boyfriend, obviously. He desperately tried to distract himself from locking his gaze to Taemin, wishing the only hope for him to make up again. But the youngest clearly avoided him.
Before Minho knew, tears already spilled from the corner of his eyes.
" Taemin-ah.." he muttered faintly, " i miss you.."
" Is that true, Minho Hyung?"
Minho was shocked and got up quickly as he found a young bad he had missed so bad standing not too far, sweating all over his body. Apparently he had run really fast that he tried to compose his breath between the silence occuring between them.
Taemin coughed awkwardly. " Hyung.. do you love me?"
Minho crinkled his forehead, can not fetch the question quick. " Well.. yes.. why are you asking that?"
" Will you leave me someday?"
Saying that question made Taemin's heart twitching , unconsiously dropping tears down to his face. " SHINee won't disband.. right?"
It needs three seconds for Minho before it finally clicked with his mind. Minho stood up and took the maknae into his arms, embracing him tightly.
" I promise.. we won't," He whispered, their eyes locked, " Even if it takes hundred years for us to meet again, i will be still loving you. I will never leave you."
Taemin closed his watery eyelids. " And the noonas?"
" Do you believe me or the script writer?"
That was all Taemin needed to believe in his idiot lover again.
" Taemin-ah," Minho captured Taemin's face and closed the distance between them, " I love you. You should have known this." and by that, Minho slammed his lips on Taemin's, drawing the curtain on their small misunderstanding.
" I know," Taemin said in their kisses, " I love you too."
" Where did you go?" Minho asked curiously when they cuddled close on the couch, rubbing their bodies intimately. Taemin hummed. " I met Yunho Hyung."
" Really? What were you two talking?"
" About you, me, Yunho Hyung, and Jaejong hyung 's stupidity."
" Wait," Minho fused his brows suprisedly, " Jaejong Hyung? I thought Yunho Hyung only talked him to Changmin Hyung and the other Super Junior Hyungies beside me."
" Guess he was," Taemin shrugged, " We simply had a nice talk.. and it was a secret."
Minho pouted. " Sneaky."
" I am," Taemin laughed before sent another peck on his lover's lips. When they parted the kiss, Taemin titled. " Say, what do you think about your hyungwhore attitude? Lately you're sticking with the noonas."
Minho sniffled. " As for the noonas, the script writer made me involved to this troublesome situation. Also being a hyungwhore to distract the fans from our relationship. As happy as they could get, i still want to keep this relationship in a secret. You know what i mean." and he received an affirmative from Taemin's nod.
Out of blue, Taemin quickly got up and smirked. " Then i should stick with Jinki Hyung instead! Well, to distract the fans too, of course."
As much as Minho didn't like the idea, he just could not reject it. He already went hyungwhoring and if he prohibited Taemin, it only made himself look like a jerk.
Minho sighed. " In case, don't you flirt to him and leave me."
Taemin giggled. " I won't. Jinki Hyung is my 'appa' and Key Hyung's property. And besides," he sent a witty wink to the confused tall rapper, " Just like Changmin Hyung to Yunho Hyung. No matter how stronger their relationship they have gotten and how Yunho Hyung referred it as a 'married couple', father and son relationship is still not allowed, you know."
***
Jung Yunho stared to his cellphone longingly as Taemin's words echo-ed in his head repeatedly.
" Then go text him. You said he will return to you, but when? Now send him a text as the reply. Haven't you looked the news yet? He tried to reach you, Hyung."
Yunho swore he looked like an idiot right now.
I don't know if this is a good idea..
Yunho took up the cellphone and started pressing the buttons, typing out something from his mind.
Finally his thumb clicked the 'send' option and Yunho put his cellphone back on the wooden desk, gripping it tight before letting go.
Maybe Taemin's suggestion wasn't bad either.
He turned his heels, leaving the cellphone just like that, not even bothered to look back the message's status..
'Hey Jae. I miss you.'
Sent.
Thirty minutes later, his phone vibrated against the wooden surface in the silent mode.
One text from myJae, received.
Author: Ahra
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: 2min, implied!Yunjae
Genre: romance, slight angst with happy ending.
Summary: Everything seems like a drama and Taemin feels so insecure.
A/n: written for my dearest mirru_val for her awesome story Of Insecurity and First Step which made me realise to write something quick as the return so yes, this is the fail oneshot in my version ^___^ i gave a similar title to show how this is dedicated to her <3
Once, Leeteuk mentioned this in Strong Heart.
" As an idol group, they go well about 5 years, then disband. As you life, there isn't always forever."
Disband is a word idol groups will always carry and get pressured with.
***
Slowly the maknae rubbed his eyes.
" The number you're calling can not be reached.."
Taemin flipped his cell close as he stared intently at the screen right in front of his eyes. Right hand desperately moved the mouse, pointing the cursor to a title of hottest headline news explained on a particular website. He suddenly trembled upon re-reading the title over and over faintly, feeling tremendously scared.
“That’s not true. We’ve never received contact. And even if we want to contact them, their numbers have changed, so we might not have accepted the call because of the unfamiliar number. There’s been a lot of prank calls lately, it’s difficult for us to take every call.”
Was it even a lie?
Taemin looked down to the next paragraph.
It was Jaejong's tweet written below.
“I want to reply to this directly, through my own words. They weren’t many, but do you know how hard it was for me to send you those texts? I texted you again right now, please check it.”
Like a drama, as if it was really one.
Even Taemin could grasp this to his mind quick - it's impossible for Yunho to not identify the text even if Jaejong changed his number. They had been together for a long, long time. Their relationship was something Taemin once always worship back then, hoping him and Minho 's relationship could be that smooth.
Why did you lie, Yunho Hyung?
Taemin bit his upper lip, frustated and full of dismay.
Minho too - he didn't pick up Taemin's calls or reply a text that often now.
With Yuri, Hara, Krystal, and now a noona called Eunsoo.
They were all pretty - and if it needed then Taemin had to put '-er' behind the pretty word. So flawless, beautiful, and sincere. Unlike Taemin.
He was still a kid. Nothing compared to the noonas (and Krystal).
Top of all, the women above were considered to Minho's ideal type.
But it was just Minho never mentioned their secret relationship to the public. A cuddle, hug, and kiss they shared weren't that warm anymore but a cold one, just a formality as a couple and Taemin wasn't numb enough to feel the empty warmth already replaced with a barrier - like a thick bricks of wall - between their meshed lips.
If one day Minho Hyung leaves me.
Taemin gasped while he leaned back against the chair.. and he just smiled bitterly.
He will leave me. He will pretend to not recognize my calls and text just like Yunho Hyung, is it still worthy to stick up for our relationship?
And as for the disband matter..
Taemin, suddenly, felt so insecure and scared about the relationship, unrealizing tears already on the both of his eyes.
He's so close yet feels so far.
" Taemin?"
The maknae hurriedly clicked 'close the tab' and he spun around, meeting with the frog eyes like two meters away from him. Taemin smiled as he got up from the chair, welcoming the rapper softly.
" Hyung, welcome home."
The older took off his coat and mumbled. " Sorry for coming home late. Yunho hyung needs me."
I know. All sunbaes always need you, and you are happily willing to accompany them.
But what about me?
" I'm tired, Taemin-ah. Let's sleep."
and that was all Minho said before he got into his shared room with Jonghyun, leaving the dancer alone nailed on the floor. Again. No hug, no night kisses.
Minho didn't knew the tears which was already flowing down from his eyes quietly, begging Minho to come back and give an attempt to comfort - but Minho was already disappeared behind that closed door before he could voice out.
I can't stand to this anymore.
***
Like a thunder in the broad daylight, Minho was too stunned to register what Taemin just had said. He could not believe his own hearing and Minho was pretty sure his ears still worked well.
" I'm sorry, Hyung," A tiny, faint whisper muttered an apology, pains clearly heard underneath that soft voice. " It's just.. not working anymore."
Basically Taemin was a crybaby, but he didn't let out a cry nor tears. Minho tried to read Taemin's expression, hoping that perhaps he hid something but failed to.
Taemin bowed deeply as he left. It was Taemin's turn to finally leave Minho - after this times it was always Minho for his hyungies and noonas. But it wasn't an ordinary parting - but a painful separation.
Lee Taemin just asked a break up.
" Let's break up, hyung."
Everything in front of Minho suddenly turned become black and white.
***
The rest members - Key and the double J brothers - were fully aware that Taemin was fully miserable after they broke up a week ago. Not only Taemin, so was Minho. They didn't talk much and not ready yet to face each other so they kept a distance between. Minho decided to go out with his hyungies more and had a drink together, then came home really late. The dorm suddenly became silent. No happy giggles or laughs came out of their mouths, expressing their love intimately on the couch just like they usually did.
So it was Jinki as the leader who was brave enough to approach the youngest slowly, ruffling the auburn locks fatherly as he noticed a pair of weary eyes spacing out to the living room.
" Is there something bothering you, Taemin-ah?"
Minho was observing silently from the couch, the question didn't slip his ears. Taemin merely chuckled. " No. I'm fine."
Wrong. Minho could tell from his laugh very well. Even it didn't fail him to detect the awkward and loss feeling slipping out in Taemin's simple answer.
The other party consisted Jinki, Key, and Jonghyun was also never a dumb when it concerned to the youngest's obvious acts, but they chose to leave behind the answer and Jinki patted Taemin's shoulder. " Good."
Taemin laughed bitterly under his breath.
***
" I'm going out now."
Minho took his jacket and slipped it along his long arms, also to his muscled body. Taemin watched the rapper silently but he didn't bother to ask where. He could imagine the cups of alcohol for the reason of Minho's night stroll. Taemin's heart twinged a little as he wondered if Minho got drunk later. He would be hard to control.
But Minho was all grown up now. He could take care of himself. Taemin took a deep sigh and not too long after Minho's departure, Taemin decided to get some fresh air outside and sneak into the practice room in SM building.
" Are you going out too, Taemin-ah? It's cold outside," Key insisted Taemin to stay in dorm instead but Taemin gave an assuring smile to the umma. " Hyung, i will be fine. Besides, i bring this thick sweater along with me and i wear another long sleeves to warm me up. I'm just gonna take a walk."
Key, although he looked still worried, shrugged off. " Alright. Make sure to not catch a flu later or else you're gonna be in bed for couple days again. We all know how much you hate it."
Taemin clicked his tongue and grinned. " I know."
***
The practice room was usually quiet and only Taemin's heavy pants filled up the emptiness as the dance steps trotted on the wooden floor. Some random musics were being played as Taemin's agile body followed to become a synchronized movement. After the music ended Taemin fell down to the floor on his back, panting heavily while trying to regain his remaining stamina. Dancing was always a good choice for Taemin to release his stress and distract himself from the pressure that had been creeping him all the time lately.
He peeked to the hanging clock over there and the hour hands showed '23.17', making Taemin realise it was already quite late. So then the dancer packed his stuffs into his bag and put on back the sweaters before finally drifted off the practice room. Taemin shivered to the cold atmosphere hitting him when he noticed the company building was already quiet and slightly dark. Taemin shut his eyes tightly and sprinted to save his scared soul.
But then he bumped to someone, nose colliding with the sturdy body before him. Taemin winced while he rubbed his nose and took a look carefully, scanning the man in front of him.
" Yunho Hyung?"
The TVXQ's well known leader furrowed when he realized the young man below him. " Taemin-ah? What are you doing this late?"
" Having a dance practice alone?" Yunho laughed, offering a can of green tea to the young dancer. They were sitting on the long brench under a big tree and conversing, " How come? Didn't you ask Minho for a company?"
Hearing Minho's name Taemin felt a pain stung his heart. " No.. I just wanted to practice alone. I thought he was gone drinking with you."
Yunho's face scrunched up. " That's weird. Indeed i was asking for his company a week but not again. Even i just came back after an interview and sent Changmin back to dorm first. I didn't know he had gone drinking. Maybe he did that alone."
" With girls, i suppose?"
Yunho rolled his eyes. " No he won't - wait. 'Girls'? Why are you assuming like that? Isn't he your boyfriend?"
Taemin's face stiffened and his body froze. Yunho eyed him sharply, clearly sensing something wrong going on between the two. " You didn't.. break up with him.. right?"
Taemin choked on Yunho's guess and the older sighed. " I know right. Seriously Taemin, what now?"
So then Taemin poured everything to Minho into small cries and whines, but he was obviously hurt although he didn't really care of his blabbings. He just blurted everything he knew after bottling for months. The insecurity he had about his relationship with Minho. How he felt jealous and weak and nothing compared to the noonas. How scared he was upon thinking the disband matter pressuring him. Also the thought of not wanting to hurt Minho and hoping him to get the better one so he will not get hurt after they separated was the reason why Taemin asked to break up.
" I don't know.." Taemin's voice was shaken a bit, " Really.. How if everything comes true? I don't think i can deal with it bravely.."
" Sssh.." Yunho pulled Taemin closer to hug the poor young boy and murmured, " No, no. You don't have to think it right now, Taemin-ah. There, there.."
Taemin responded the hug by gripping tight Yunho's fabric and let out his tears falling down endlessly, pouring the dismay of being parted away from the one his love and also the group which he had deemed as his second place, second family.
But somehow deep at the corner his heart, Taemin was longing for Minho's touch, silently hoping that maybe, the warmth of Minho's arms could belong to him once again.
But still..
It's better if not me.
" If i ended this with Minho Hyung quickly.. None of us would get hurt more later.. and he can find finest, best girl out there beside me.."
Yunho gave a disapporving look to the younger. " What - what did you just say? Finest girl? Why would he when he already has you!"
Taemin shook his head, still trembling so bad. Yunho sighed and gripped Taemin's small frame loosely, staring deeply to the maknae. " Listen. Don't you miss him? Well, he is dense. and stupid. Guys are stupid. You. Me. Him. and even Jaejong. That's why we need to talk before we take a decision."
Taemin's eyes snapped wide as Yunho mentioned Jaejong. " Who? Jaejong Hyung?"
Yunho smiled longingly. " He is stupid, Taemin-ah. Could you believe that?"
The maknae detected a lonely look Yunho throwing out to the empty space somewhere. " Do you miss him too, Yunho Hyung?" he asked in a small voice, almost voiceless.
" Of course, Taemin-ah. I always do," Yunho replied softly, ruffling the maknae's hairs. Taemin narrowed his eyes a little to the touch and looked up.
" So why didn't you reply the message? Do you hate him because he left the group and also, you?"
Yunho replied calmly. " I never hate him, not even if i die."
" Then why - "
" Because i love him," Yunho cut off the maknae with his low, deep voice, " I'm afraid if i hear his voice, both of us will turn weak again. We have our personal reasons to keep on our paths, despite the longing feeling."
Taemin blinked, his head spinning from all the mature talk.
" But as for Minho.." Yunho continued, now a smile bringing up along with his words, " He really loves you and never missed a chance to brag about you in front of us, the hyungies. No matter how many his ideal types out there, he still chooses you.."
Taemin felt his frozen body going numb. He really felt wanting to die.
" .. and he also confessed to me, wishing you two's relationship to be long last forever."
Knowing the truth had been revealed made Taemin's eyes tear again.
" Listen," Yunho suggested, wiping the tears off patiently, " Don't act recklessly. You guys belong to each other. In the other news, i must say you are stupid, so is Minho."
Taemin peeked and pouted. " Aren't you the same, Hyung? Just like Jaejong Hyung."
Yunho chukled. " Yes, i am," he replied, there was a confidence in his tone, " That's why he will return to me again, Junsu and Yoochun too."
The young dancer cupped Yunho's cheeks with his hands until their eyes met, holding a staring contest for a moment. " He misses you."
" I know," said the faint whisper slipped out of Yunho's lips.
" Then go text him. You said he will return to you, but when? Now send him a text as the reply. Haven't you looked the news yet? He tried to reach you, Hyung."
Yunho closed his eyes and when he opened back, he gave a sweet smile. " As for you, go talk to him. Don't waste the time."
Taemin nodded with a smile as he let go his hands, bowing twice to express his thankful and storming to the direction of SHINee's dorm placed at.
***
" I'm home."
Minho took off his shoes and threw the coat away which was dropping right on the wooden chair next to him. Minho lied on the couch to regain back his sanity. He knew he wasn't sober enough after bottles of drinks so he ended up staring out, mumbling randomly. Ever since he broke up with Taemin, Minho had been a total mess. Gone drinking and strolling around alone in night with no company were all Minho did. His heart was hollow.
Minho had known too that he already hurt the maknae's feeling by keep leaving him alone numerous times. Minho also realized well that actually Taemin needed him badly but Minho wasn't there to comfort. He failed as a boyfriend, obviously. He desperately tried to distract himself from locking his gaze to Taemin, wishing the only hope for him to make up again. But the youngest clearly avoided him.
Before Minho knew, tears already spilled from the corner of his eyes.
" Taemin-ah.." he muttered faintly, " i miss you.."
" Is that true, Minho Hyung?"
Minho was shocked and got up quickly as he found a young bad he had missed so bad standing not too far, sweating all over his body. Apparently he had run really fast that he tried to compose his breath between the silence occuring between them.
Taemin coughed awkwardly. " Hyung.. do you love me?"
Minho crinkled his forehead, can not fetch the question quick. " Well.. yes.. why are you asking that?"
" Will you leave me someday?"
Saying that question made Taemin's heart twitching , unconsiously dropping tears down to his face. " SHINee won't disband.. right?"
It needs three seconds for Minho before it finally clicked with his mind. Minho stood up and took the maknae into his arms, embracing him tightly.
" I promise.. we won't," He whispered, their eyes locked, " Even if it takes hundred years for us to meet again, i will be still loving you. I will never leave you."
Taemin closed his watery eyelids. " And the noonas?"
" Do you believe me or the script writer?"
That was all Taemin needed to believe in his idiot lover again.
" Taemin-ah," Minho captured Taemin's face and closed the distance between them, " I love you. You should have known this." and by that, Minho slammed his lips on Taemin's, drawing the curtain on their small misunderstanding.
" I know," Taemin said in their kisses, " I love you too."
" Where did you go?" Minho asked curiously when they cuddled close on the couch, rubbing their bodies intimately. Taemin hummed. " I met Yunho Hyung."
" Really? What were you two talking?"
" About you, me, Yunho Hyung, and Jaejong hyung 's stupidity."
" Wait," Minho fused his brows suprisedly, " Jaejong Hyung? I thought Yunho Hyung only talked him to Changmin Hyung and the other Super Junior Hyungies beside me."
" Guess he was," Taemin shrugged, " We simply had a nice talk.. and it was a secret."
Minho pouted. " Sneaky."
" I am," Taemin laughed before sent another peck on his lover's lips. When they parted the kiss, Taemin titled. " Say, what do you think about your hyungwhore attitude? Lately you're sticking with the noonas."
Minho sniffled. " As for the noonas, the script writer made me involved to this troublesome situation. Also being a hyungwhore to distract the fans from our relationship. As happy as they could get, i still want to keep this relationship in a secret. You know what i mean." and he received an affirmative from Taemin's nod.
Out of blue, Taemin quickly got up and smirked. " Then i should stick with Jinki Hyung instead! Well, to distract the fans too, of course."
As much as Minho didn't like the idea, he just could not reject it. He already went hyungwhoring and if he prohibited Taemin, it only made himself look like a jerk.
Minho sighed. " In case, don't you flirt to him and leave me."
Taemin giggled. " I won't. Jinki Hyung is my 'appa' and Key Hyung's property. And besides," he sent a witty wink to the confused tall rapper, " Just like Changmin Hyung to Yunho Hyung. No matter how stronger their relationship they have gotten and how Yunho Hyung referred it as a 'married couple', father and son relationship is still not allowed, you know."
***
Jung Yunho stared to his cellphone longingly as Taemin's words echo-ed in his head repeatedly.
" Then go text him. You said he will return to you, but when? Now send him a text as the reply. Haven't you looked the news yet? He tried to reach you, Hyung."
Yunho swore he looked like an idiot right now.
I don't know if this is a good idea..
Yunho took up the cellphone and started pressing the buttons, typing out something from his mind.
Finally his thumb clicked the 'send' option and Yunho put his cellphone back on the wooden desk, gripping it tight before letting go.
Maybe Taemin's suggestion wasn't bad either.
He turned his heels, leaving the cellphone just like that, not even bothered to look back the message's status..
'Hey Jae. I miss you.'
Sent.
Thirty minutes later, his phone vibrated against the wooden surface in the silent mode.
One text from myJae, received.