I saw you drooling over that stupid whore.  Pretending to care about what she had to say, because she is what the general population would classify as hot.  But the general population considers me fat, or on a nice day, "full figure," and you are too fucking insecure in your manhood to actually go for some one you really like, if your friends don't ( Read more... )

Tossing and turning. 8 hours straight.  One time I actually dosed off, my stupid cat had to spoil it, by playing with my recycling. She decided it was a good idea to knock the bag over, and chase the V8 cans around the apartment.  I got up, cleaned up the mess, and brought Sidnie in the room with me, and shut the door.  As I was laying down, my ( Read more... )

People pointing finger painting the world ( Read more... )

I just wanted to say that I hate perfect bitches, who steal all the good guys, use them, and turn them into jaded assholes. I wonder what life would be like if I were one of those perfect cunt whores...

I found myself in a trap of the same mundane ass bullshit over and over and over again. I want to get out of it, but I dont know how. People tell me to "just go meet people." And I'm like, "go meet your face." I fucking suck at social interactions. I mean I can talk to people pretty normally like at work and other places in which socializing is ( Read more... )

Its been a week. To the day. Everyday I hope I will go in to work and see a 16 oz SA coffee cup sitting there, and then I can be happy again. But of course not. I snoozed, and I losed. I don't get it sometimes. Why am I such a goddamn chicken shit. I learn the same lesson over and over, but never use the knowledge when presented with the same ( Read more... )

I need a change. I need something different. I don't know what, but not this drudgery.  I just want to sleep for the next few years, and wake up a grown up. Obviously, I know that that can't happen, nor would I really want it to, but it seems at least a little appealing. I thought I had everything all figured out, everyone does. And then reality ( Read more... )

I have a fucking pit in my stomach and I cant tell anyone why. I don't trust anyone enough to talk about all of this. I feel like I should have done something today, but what the hell was I suppose to do.  And now all I can do is think, "what if," and that if is going to drive me crazy if I don't get it off my mind. Maybe its a good thing after all ( Read more... )

Hate my boyfriend. All about some one else. But god damn mother fucking hell he isnt going to be where i see him anymore. aaaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. 

I changed my journal! Too bad no one ever reads this. Whatever. That means I can really use it like a journal and put my deepest darkest secrets in here and no one will see it. Ok heres the first one,....yeah right. I'm not that stupid. ok good enough for now.