I kinda just need to write this and get it out of my system

[chickadilly]

So Christmas.

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[bekkio]

*hugs you*

I'm looking forward to seeing you on Friday.

[ancarett]

It's hard to manage these special days without your loved ones, I know. It'll be nine years this August since my mother passed away and I still want to talk with her, share stories of the girls with her and hear her voice in reply.

I am glad you're having fun with the beading. I don't know anything about Etsy except how to buy stuff on there!

[svgurl]

*hugs* I'm so sorry. I've been where you are and I know how you feel. My grandfather passed away on Christmas day and while I loved the holidays, it was definitely hard for the first few years. If you ever need someone to talk to, I am always there.

I am glad that your mom is doing better though!

[zorb]

*hugs*

[lexalicious70]

I remember when my dad died and being SO angry at my mom for throwing out his stuff a few days later, at him, for dying, and at myself, for not being there when it happened. Anger is a very normal emotion, and if you're in that stage, then your therapist is right. Deal with it now. I didn't even realize how angry I was and once I did, I got it all out, and I cried over it, and after that, it was a little easier.

It's really hard when your world stops turning for a little while, and everyone else moves on with things that seem so unimportant or trite. And sometimes you feel like everyone should be grateful, which is normal, too. I guess what I'm trying to say is that everything you're feeling is part of the process. This was your first Christmas without her and I know how hard that was for you. *HUGS*

I'm always here if you need to talk.