I've spent a lot of this year thinking about taking myself permanently out of the equation, figuring that it'd make a lot of people's lives easier and that no one would really care if I did or not anyway. The problem is, it's looking more and more likely every day like that's the case. I have very little support from my own family to the point ( Read more... )

I decided that I'm done with Brandon in my life. He led me on, lied to me, used me and can't for the life of him give me a straight answer in regards to anything. I finally told him that I wanted nothing to do with him because being around him makes me feel uncomfortable and he'll purposely talk about one of the other girls he's been fucking to ( Read more... )

I forgot how good I am at hiding my depression from others. I sincerely wish I had someone that I could break down crying to and just completely vent my problems to who would understand my insecurities and just try to make me feel comfortable instead of miserable ( Read more... )

I look around at my emotional landscape and see nothing more than the charred remains of social bridges and abandoned paths that are too overgrown to ever be traversed again. I found out that I apparently make my friends miserable when we hang out together now. What bothers me the most is that they didn't have the guts to tell me to my face that I ( Read more... )

so apparently everything is really funny at 5 in the morning XD even the crap in a psychology book seems amusing

anyway, had an interesting idea for a project that involved livejournal, so basically just checkin up and figured i'd update while i was at it :D

so yeah, things have been going pretty well recently: i got my job back, have an adoring beau, i'm back in school

i still need my license and car but otherwise everything is going great....that's probly why i don't post much anymore XD nothing to post...

good god..i'm gonna die of head explody...

i've got exams all through thursday...and i'm soooooooooo not prepared.....>.>

but all is good, cause christmas break comes afterward :D

XD ha...well...i don't remember what was written in my last journal....but

:D

am so happy. haven't been this happy in a while...^_^ i get snuggled on an almost daily basis, i made some new friends, and things are going well in life.

Vincent is also making things better....though it seems...may be my almost perfect personality match.....insanely

so i was once told "the more i ignore you, the more i'm crying out for your attention and the more effort you'll put into trying to get me to pay attention to you" which, at the time, kind of made sense, since we saw each other on a daily basis. however, using that same logic with text messages and phone calls. for a while, he would talk to me ( Read more... )

i'd probly be finding a place that would willingly stick a needle through a random body part and leave some metal there in place of the skin ( Read more... )