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[chiaslut]

I'm still struggling with my job.  I'm nowhere near the level of competency that I should be.  I really underestimated the difficulty of it as well as my own lack of motivation. I feel terrified someone is going to notice that I'm still trying to "fake it 'til I make it" and tell me to hit the road.  The job market here is dismal.  One of my former

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[thatgirly]

I know I'm a smart, capable person, but as of yet, I haven't been able to translate that into job success yet. I'm gonna be 39 this year and I still don't know what I wanna be when I grow up.

This is exactly how I feel, except my number is different.

Good luck!

[chiaslut]

Thanks. For some reason it does help knowing I'm not the only one.

[bychoice]

I read this cool book in which people were not defined by their jobs. What an amazing concept! When people ask me "So, what do you do?" I always am kind of lost, as I do lots of stuff but I don't work. Living in Eugene, you are never going to have the job options you would in a big city. With this shit-tastic economy, everyone is having trouble. I 100% understand being worried about your job. You can always go to your boss and say, "I'm concerned about my performance. Can you give me any suggestions for how I can improve or something I could study to get more up on X?" It is way better to have an employee who is a little bit behind but really is making an effort rather than having to hire a new one or having some dope who doesn't give a rat's ass

[ladyfiona]

"I'm gonna be 39 this year and I still don't know what I wanna be when I grow up."

Don't worry about that part so much. Some of us never figure that out. My mother is 73 and still says that she doesn't know what she wants to be when she grows up :)

Hang in there *hug*