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[chiaslut]

I'm still struggling with my job.  I'm nowhere near the level of competency that I should be.  I really underestimated the difficulty of it as well as my own lack of motivation. I feel terrified someone is going to notice that I'm still trying to "fake it 'til I make it" and tell me to hit the road.  The job market here is dismal.  One of my former

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[bychoice]

I read this cool book in which people were not defined by their jobs. What an amazing concept! When people ask me "So, what do you do?" I always am kind of lost, as I do lots of stuff but I don't work. Living in Eugene, you are never going to have the job options you would in a big city. With this shit-tastic economy, everyone is having trouble. I 100% understand being worried about your job. You can always go to your boss and say, "I'm concerned about my performance. Can you give me any suggestions for how I can improve or something I could study to get more up on X?" It is way better to have an employee who is a little bit behind but really is making an effort rather than having to hire a new one or having some dope who doesn't give a rat's ass.

In reality, though, I'm guessing that the most important thing in your life isn't your career. It may be that your happiness doesn't come from putting in 60 or 80 hour weeks. In that case, you may be like the rest of us who find a job that pays the bills so that you can go have fun the rest of the time. At least to me, it wouldn't matter what the job was so long as I didn't detest it and it brought in money. I don't think there is anything wrong with that. I know when I get really cranky/unhappy with my situation, it is wanderlust taking over. I don't know if you have that or not.