I am ruined. I sit here, on the computer in the office, looking at the weather and wishing i was at the skate park. I can't get there. If only i could take a turn just a little fast and feel the power and precision of my car following the road perfectly. If only i could drive to work tonight in my car and know that i could go anywhere ( Read more... )

You know, i'm really getting sick of relying on myself to do things right and to make good choices. I really suck at this whole "life" business. I get this feeling that God is a little better, a little stronger, a little wiser. I'm not sure why i always resort to depending on myself. When you remember the Lord in all you do, you are bound to ( Read more... )

Mend these wings together ( Read more... )

At the paso inn, they play a mix cd that must have 30-40 songs on it. Everyday around 1 or 2 the mix plays a song by jimmy eat world. Its the last song on their old cd. Just hearing that one song brings me out of my depressed state and puts a smile on my face. Music does amazing things to me. I feel like that one song is the only thing that ( Read more... )

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My depression at the inn has been nicely balanced by getting off work early, the writing of a new song, a good conversation with Amy, JWL practice in 15 minutes and my last night of server training tonight. Ahh, yes, and the thought that i can sleep in tomorrow and not go to work at 6 in the morning ( Read more... )

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Well as for now, I'm gonna hear the sadest songs and sit alone and wonder how you're making out...

Hey, fools. It's been a while since i posted, i know. I worked 8 hours tuesday and 14 on Wednesday and Thursday. Craziness. I've never worked 8 hours in my life, except for mothers day at AJ's ( Read more... )

I got a call from my manager yesterday. He told me that he was going to train me for a few days, then put me into a use-as-needed serving position. I was freaking stoked. I guess i won't get any real shifts yet because i have to prove myself to my skeptical general manager. Once i do though, i'll have the position that i've been waiting for for ( Read more... )