this is me ( Read more... )

S(he) fucking hates me.......... trust
s(he) fucking hates me.......... la la la love
I tried too hard and s(he) tore my feelings
like I had none and ripped them away

Trust
la la la la la la la la la love
Trust
S(he)fucking hates me.....

Ive died, Ive lost everything I had and could have, I am nothing. Im empty, Im burning up, I cant breath, and I cant sleep. I cant do anything right, I cant keep ahold of anything. I want everything to be the way it was before, before I gave up on the best thing in my life, before I got drunk and acted like a bitch to Jeremy. I want everything to ( Read more... )

So what is new in my life....Im a dumbass, well that isnt new, Ive always been a dumbass, two people Im fond of hate me, Im alone, Im sleep deprived, Im lost, Im out of it, Im done. :(

welp. its been a while. so what has gone down lately was. Christian's moved, I have summer school. it sucks. Ive been going to shows. hanging in Arcata. and spending a lot of time with Isaiah and Jeremy, they're cool cats. thats pretty much all thats been going on nothing to spectactular.

peace and love.
JDove

too bad I have nothing to say. I dont know what to write about or what to say, my poetry sucks anyways its probably better that I have nothing to say. Id bore you all with my rambling about everything and nothing. I hate being called pet names. only one person can call me by a pet name....no one else.

I feel sick to my stomach, and its not just the sour milk....

its been a while, so I thought I'd let you all know how things are. they're shitty, my life is taking a turn for the worse, the only true happiness Ive ever had in my life has to leave and I can only see it ever few weekends, its not fair, I wish my happiness didnt have to go, I wish I could go with him. Atleast its only for a little while. but ( Read more... )

everywhere I see someone with a better body than me, better boobs, better face, better feet,.....better butt....Im so inferior I hate my body, Im so fucking ugly, and all these people who have nice bodies make me sick to my stomach and all I want to do is cry, because Im an ugly sack of shit and no one can like anything about me, no one can think ( Read more... )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CHRISTIAN!! I LOVE YOU!!