You know, I thought things were getting better between my father and I. I thought he changed in the aspect that he begun to have a mind of his own. I was wrong. Terribly wrong. "Joan will not be contacting you." Should that make me happy or sad. He left a message...not a happy one. "What exactly were you trying to gain" I wasn't trying to gain ( Read more... )

It's all done. In some ways it's good, I guess, but I'm really going to miss being around those people everyday. Both performances went well, and after yesterday's I joined the cast on stage and they gave me roses with a checkered print ribbon and one of the advertisement posters framed and signed by the entire cast. Ms. Donahue gave me a note that ( Read more... )

First day of work....boring
night hanging out with people from my past...fun...somewhat...fun except for the part in being tricked into hanging out with one person from my past in particular...kind of ironic...talking to people about a play which was partially inspired by the one listening to the conversation...quite ironic...

later,
tums

I am so tired! It seems like no one understands. Once we get back from spring break we've only got one full week of rehearsal with the entire cast. And it's most likely going to take that long to get back where we are now: no where near performance level. I'm getting nervous about the show. I'm nervous about my best friend and my 'relationship'. He ( Read more... )

I hate feeling like things are falling apart. I hate feeling guilty. I hate not feeling as if I've gained freedom by quiting my job. I hate the feeling I got when a fellow employee looked as if they were going to cry. Especially when it was a guy. I hate the feeling I got when I saw my boss's (the one that I have no respect for) smile disappear and ( Read more... )

This sucks!

I'm not ready....

I'm just not ready....

I'm sorry.

Auditions went well last night, well at least I think they did. One donahue mishap, but most of the people whom tried aren't were amazing. Not merely by acting, they just...just fit. It was nice having people there that were supportive of this being the first time i've directed. It was actually quite relieving when a couple told me not to worry, ( Read more... )

Today we posted the audition notices. I'm really excited, but started to get a little nervous. Cut out a few characters and now have the cast down to 11. I think I can handle it. Adam keeps saying shit and it's making me even more nervous. I have to say, the one thing that was hanging over my head was that someone mentioned it 'turning into another ( Read more... )

Went to MN again this weekend. I actually liked it better this time. I don't like it in the winter. That last statement is important because I would be up there from fall until like the end of winter. You know, the two colleges I thought I wanted to go to for my first year or so, and now neither thrill me. I feel that neither quite fit, and that if ( Read more... )

My eye doctor is great! Yes, I had fun at a doctor's office. They sent my out wearing these grandma sunglasses plastic thingys with my regular glasses over it. That was an amusing drive home, people are so funny! I looked like a bug! It's a bug. lol. Show tonight, all should come.
Later,
Tums