sorry. In all honesty, I should have told you months and months ago that I wasn't into the games. I tried really, really hard to keep interest. It felt like I didn't matter.
I was crying over this several months ago. I wanted to quit, but I stayed on. I got so sick of being miserable, that I did something else. I feel like crap. I'm really, really sorry.
Well, whatever now. If you didn't have any interest in the games, you should have said something- particularly since you were a mod. It's really hard to keep games with players when your mods aren't even interested.
I'm glad you're having fun elsewhere, but it really hurts my feelings that you'd rather play crack crap with strangers than with people who are supposedly your friends and that you wouldn't tell us anything about it. And if you would do that, then what hope is there for the rest of the games? I'm done running things.
It wasn't that I didn't have any interest. I wanted to have interest. I tried joining plots, I tried running stuff. I really, really tried and I just felt unwanted.
I want to play with my friends. I like plots, but when we can't even play an IRC session together, something is wrong. When my characters didn't want to come out anymore, I made new ones, that didn't help. I felt more and more isolated from you guys, but everything else in the game seemed like it was going fine. I decided that it was me.
I have issues. I've deleted this 10000000 times, and you probably hate me forever. Again, I'm sorry. I know I could have handled this completely differently, and I should have said that I couldn't get into OSI when the game started, but then I got into it for a while. When it restarted, I was really excited, but then something happened, and I don't know what it was.
I'm really, really, really sorry and I'm going to stop now before I dig myself into a deeper hole.
It's very hard for table-top as well as online. However I have a group that meets irregularly and eventually we'll start up again some Friday or Saturday night. Our last few sessions were pretty cool - a lot of solid roleplaying where they completed most of the objectives and finished the encounters. Not necessarily survived or were successful, but they finished them at least.
I'll let you know next time we play if Vineland isn't too far.
L, for what it's worth, I love your games. I try to post often and everything, but my life has hated me this past week. However, much of it seems to have settled now. Don't give in to the bad RPs. I've even tried one, and it sucked horribleness to the bone. Yeah, my English is bad at the moment, but I think my point was made. I'm willing to pick up my slack on games, though.
As for hobbies, I play The Sims 2. I write stories for their lives, although I have yet to figure out how to post the pictures. However, now I dream about them, which is a little scary.
Still, don't give in to the crack RPGs. Fight the real enemy!
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I was crying over this several months ago. I wanted to quit, but I stayed on. I got so sick of being miserable, that I did something else. I feel like crap. I'm really, really sorry.
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I'm glad you're having fun elsewhere, but it really hurts my feelings that you'd rather play crack crap with strangers than with people who are supposedly your friends and that you wouldn't tell us anything about it. And if you would do that, then what hope is there for the rest of the games? I'm done running things.
I just give up.
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I want to play with my friends. I like plots, but when we can't even play an IRC session together, something is wrong. When my characters didn't want to come out anymore, I made new ones, that didn't help. I felt more and more isolated from you guys, but everything else in the game seemed like it was going fine. I decided that it was me.
I have issues. I've deleted this 10000000 times, and you probably hate me forever. Again, I'm sorry. I know I could have handled this completely differently, and I should have said that I couldn't get into OSI when the game started, but then I got into it for a while. When it restarted, I was really excited, but then something happened, and I don't know what it was.
I'm really, really, really sorry and I'm going to stop now before I dig myself into a deeper hole.
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I'll let you know next time we play if Vineland isn't too far.
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i think i lost it
ive just fallen out of everything
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As for hobbies, I play The Sims 2. I write stories for their lives, although I have yet to figure out how to post the pictures. However, now I dream about them, which is a little scary.
Still, don't give in to the crack RPGs. Fight the real enemy!
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