"I hurt myself deeply, though at the time I had no idea how deeply. I should have learned many things from that experience, but when I look back on it, all I gained was one single, undeniable fact. That ultimately I am a person who can do evil. I never consciously tried to hurt anyone, yet good intentions notwithstanding, when necessity demanded, I ( Read more... )

Was just reading some of my past entries. God am I depressing and repetitive in almost all of them. Sometimes I still can't believe people aren't bored of me yet ( Read more... )

"Hatred is like a long, dark shadow. In most cases, not even the person it falls upon knows where it comes from. It is like a two-edged sword. When you cut the other person, you cut yourself. The more violently you hack at the other person, the more violently you hack at yourself. It can often be fatal. But it is not easy to dispose of. It is very ( Read more... )

Sigh, two sessions of counseling and both times my tears just keep falling as if I have absolutely no control over them. Its like a reflex action whenever any topic related to family comes up ( Read more... )

I'm stuck in a vicious cycle that I can't seem to get out of ( Read more... )

I know I'm the one who's shutting myself out from the rest of the world, but I can't help but feel all this constant mugging is making me socially inapt. (not that I ever was a sociable person to begin with) And all this time alone by myself is allowing me to wallow in self-pity and loneliness yet again. This whole depression thing is getting ( Read more... )

I keep telling people how I hate hypocrites who lie blatantly and gossip about you behind your backs ( Read more... )

I feel like I'm constantly sabotaging myself. Over-thinking, over-analyzing a lot of things I can safely say that most of them are untrue. The stupid self-protection alarms I've put up in my mind are constantly ringing at the slightest blow of the wind. I'm sick and tired of myself as I think many people should be too by now, but I can't seem to ( Read more... )

Alright here's my list of Singapore films I want to watch and perhaps own ( Read more... )

Went to my relative's place to usher in the new year with no clue as to what I should be looking forward to ( Read more... )