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cestlavie_2010

Choke

Jun 03, 2011 17:11

When I was younger, it was generally imparted on me that I was somehow broken and needed to strive to be "normal." To fit in. So I worked hard to find stability in myself and my life, and got to a place of profound health and well-being (better than even THEY imagined)...and discovered that a good majority of the people around me, including those ( Read more... )

thoughts, gender, childfree, not one of the crowd, thinking

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smile_n_cuddle June 5 2011, 19:28:30 UTC

As it turns out, it's much nicer being a misfit for being happy and healthy than it is to be "weird" for being MORE dysfunctional than the dysfunctional people around you." Word. :)

Are you planning to have kids? I saw that too. I was raised to breed, and after watching all the bright-eyed brides go on to become depressed mothers, rethought it all.

Sad how motherhood zaps ambition. Alas no children for me. :)

smile_n_cuddle June 5 2011, 19:30:10 UTC

Oh, didn't see your childfree tag until the end. YAY CHILDFREE!!! :)

The women I know who are childfree seem to have so much more fun, more life... (although mothers tell me there's nothing more rewarding in the world...)

cestlavie_2010 June 5 2011, 20:42:59 UTC

Yeah it was funny--my husband hadn't wanted kids before we met, but as we got serious he said I was the only person he could imagine that being ok with, although he was still pretty ambivalent. With me, I'd been heavily trained that I WOULD have kids, and the realization that I had a CHOICE to do so was hugely unsettling for me. I got pissed, basically. : P Pretty quickly I recognized that not only did I not have a desire for it, I actually have a borderline phobia about pregnancy--I truly find it horrifying ( ... )