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[ceinwen]

Shit, this loving myself stuff is harder than I thought. Between watching what I eat and trying not to eat crap, dressing nicely, doing my hair, putting on a little makeup, trying to manage my sleep schedule/energy levels, and trying to exercise....something always gets either forgotten or left out because I'm too damn stressed/tired/unmotivated/

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[nentikobe]

I do believe you've discovered that you're OMG HUMAN!

How do "normal" people do it? By whining, saying "I need a drink/vacation/why is this my life..." wallowing in it for a bit and then realizing that they've actually got it pretty well and keep moving.

Cut yourself some slack hon. Even Wonder Woman didn't wear the boob top every day. And I bet some days it was all she could do not to ram the golden lasso down someone's throat....

[ceinwen]

I know I sound petty in that post. I just....don't know how to explain what's in my head. Now I feel like I failed at expressing how hard I have to fight to care enough some days to look decent. That's what it boils down to: giving a shit to make the effort.

[nentikobe]

Petty? NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. Not at all, hon. You're acknowledging the struggle. Don't let yourself believe that you're failing because you're struggling.. you know you are and you're trying to keep going. THat's big.

*hug* In no way did I take that away as petty. (and you'll have to excuse me coming across a little too blase perhaps, I have been awake for 2 hours with a terrible sore throat and its not even 7:30 yet....)

[ceinwen]

oh..sorry. I usually don't post about the bad stuff, so I'm a little over-sensitive about how people react. Glad what I said was clear; I'm a little prone to belittling my own struggles as unimportant. But this, too, is growth: posting the dark stuff can only bring more light, true?

[smjayman]

FWIW, keeping in shape is a bitch. Part of the reason I've taken on students is that they motivate ***me*** to keep my ass in gear. If I'm an instructor, I better look and act the part, and that part doesn't include being a big gooey fatty.

If you're depressed, don't pretend that doesn't exist. Keep working out and doing your thing, but you may also need to chill a little or back off a bit. Figure out what is going on with you, that is the important thing.

[myapet]

Why are my friends - especially the ones who totally effing rock - so down on themselves? As I recently told another very good friend "Silly girl. Change is coming. You've set the universe in motion. Now watch it spin!"

A journey starts with the first step. You're well on the way - just keep stepping girl!

[quick_chick]

I don't think you sound whiny AT ALL. I think you just put into writing what 99.99% of women feel on a daily basis. I know I feel that way all the time. I've just kind of given up for right now . . .

[ceinwen]

-When you dress nicely, does it make you feel good, or do you do it because you think you "ought" to?

It does make me feel good, which is why I am trying to do it more often. It's a simple thing to change, really, but the rewards for me are substantial. :)

I'm notorious for being too hard on myself; the impatience doesn't help either. :P

[ceinwen]

My growth tends to happen in jumps, which drive me crazy, LOL