No idea. Really.

[cathykissy]

I can't even say how I'm feeling any more. Weird, or maybe like I've broken the translate button in my head. Rowan spent the day out with his friend on that bike - he came in while I was sleeping and asked if I wanted to go and I think I said no, I must have, because when I woke up he'd been gone for an hour or so. There's a feeling I can't shake:

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[pixellatedspiff]

i sort of get Rowan's obsession with his bike. the adrenalin of doing something totally stupid & dangerous is the best antidote for worry & depression ever. it's most likely just his way of dealing with his unhappiness, not a symptom of his growing apart from you. i think his asking you to go with him is a sign that he still cares about you & wants you to be involved in the things he likes.

[cathykissy]

I feel completely sheepish now; the drama queen strikes again. :p Thank-you though. I think I try to pour too much into one incident. A balancing act I'll have to learn, I suppose.

[pixellatedspiff]

oh, but i totally understand, & i do it all the time too. it's so easy to read so much into one little thing, especially when i'm feeling extra sensitive about that thing. it's easy for me to tell you he still cares about you because i'm not actually involved, but normally...objectivity goes straight out the window.

[cathykissy]

I hear that, I really do. I was the same with my friends, when I still kept in touch with them. Could tell 'em that they were being silly, that of course he doesn't like that other girl; it would just be so obvious and I'd wonder why they couldn't see it... :/ Guess we're all lousy judges when it comes to ourselves.

[punkelfe_kiara]

When u would have been born one u wouldnt miss a thing i guress, just because u would have never knowen how it would be having a twin...

I don´t know u and i don´t know anything about twins, but i think when u are so close to somebody u will never grow apart.

[cathykissy]

Heh, thanks. I get what you mean about the not-missing-cause-you'd-never-known thing, but that just makes it sadder. I just wonder if I would've handled being an only child. :/