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cat_f

My first entry...

Sep 28, 2004 02:25

Here's is my first entry. I used to be on another journal but I never kept it up and live journal are so much better anyway ( Read more... )

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nadiamdq September 28 2004, 11:25:54 UTC

Where are you going?

cat_f September 28 2004, 21:59:21 UTC

I am going to a little coastal town around about 70 miles where I live... I've always gone to this place and it's where I feel safe.

I'll try a post pics when I get back.

Relating... crimsonmoonlite September 28 2004, 13:54:59 UTC

Girl I can relate to you I am on effexor for my depression and I have been under A LOT of stress lately and I get bad anxiety attacks and I have to take meds for that too so I know how you are feeling. I am new at this whole LJ thing I bairly got mine up and going. I worked all day on it yesterday sense I was sick and didn't go to school. I can't miss anymore days I've missed 3 already and one was for a death in the family and the other one was my aunt was in the hospital so I'm going to have to go see the dean and get those cleared. Have fun on your trip :)

Re: Relating... cat_f September 28 2004, 22:05:19 UTC

Thank you... I've had depression since I was very young but it's only been in the past few years that I've become a manic depressive. I have good days where I can pretend that everything is fine but then there are the bad days where I am just staring in to this black abyss and those are the days where I normally do something I regret later (like send out weirds emails.... I wish I could take meds be I can't because every one I have tried has made me really sick. Anyway, I hope you get better soon and I am sorry about the loss in your family.

Re: Relating... crimsonmoonlite September 29 2004, 00:21:09 UTC

You know I got sick at first but after my body got used to it I don't get bothered by it anymore. I was told that because it's a chemical inbalance when the meds start to correct the the brain chemicals it makes us feel different and even sick, tired, fatigued, and so forth but it's not really effecting us in a bad way it's just correcting it so the brain chemicals do work normal. That's the only reason I kept taking mine for more than a week. I hope you get better, and Thank you it was my uncle but I think it was for the better that he died because he was ate up with cancer and he lived the last 5 years of his life homeless in Fresno and hyped up on heroin. We tired to help him but you can't help someone who doesn't want to help themselves.

Re: Relating... cat_f September 29 2004, 13:01:06 UTC

I agree. If the person doesn't want help you can't force them into it. Again I am sorry for your loss. Any loss is hard.

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Big hugs, sis... suzi_squirrel September 29 2004, 16:41:45 UTC

I hate to see you like this... I wish I could help you. Make everything better for you... I don't know how though.

I want you to know, Cat, that I love you and if you ever need me I will be here for you. I know we fight but if you really need to talk then I'll listen.

I really think we all need this holiday. We're happiest when we're away from home...

Take care. Hugs and kisses...

Re: Big hugs, sis... cat_f September 30 2004, 02:42:09 UTC

Suzi - If I said this to your face you might not believe me but I want you to know that you are my rock. I know argue, like last night, and when we do it hurts you. I suppose that what happens when you get two people that want their opinions heard. I do know that I can always count on you and even though you don't see it... you make me smile. I agree we do need a holiday, just to hear the sea again will be magic, some people would think where we are going is pathetic but I know that we love it there... it sets us free even if only for two weeks.

Love you loads too and bigger hugs :-)

Re: Big hugs, sis... suzi_squirrel September 30 2004, 15:16:25 UTC

Well I don't think it's pathetic... Free broadband internet access at the local library. Two beautiful beaches that stretch out for miles. The habour. The amusement arcades. The fairground. Some people might think it's pathetic, but I think it's one of the best places in the world, and what we think is what counts. *grins*

You know, I really want to try and listen to you more. I do a lot of talking back when you're trying to open up and it's not what you need... I want to be here for you. I AM here for you.

Love you.

Here's to a Happy Holiday!!!

Re: Big hugs, sis... crimsonmoonlite September 30 2004, 23:35:38 UTC

AWWWWWWW sentemental moment! I love it! It made me cry. I wish I had a relationship with my brothers like that. At least you two trust eachother enough to talk to one another even though you argue. Me and my brother argue all the time but I don't trust him, and my other brother is on the run from the law so I don't see him. It's super sweet and just to let you know if you need to talk I'm here as well no matter what about I'm here to listen :)

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Button! forbia October 25 2004, 14:55:25 UTC

Is Buttons the doggy in your icon?

Re: Button! cat_f October 25 2004, 20:23:19 UTC

Yes, Buttons is the dog on my icon and my baby... I'll be posting some more pics of her tomorrow from when I was on holiday.

Re: Button! forbia October 25 2004, 20:24:51 UTC

Awww, so cute! How old? What kind? Is she an insanely hyper dog? I like insanely hyper dogs...actually, I just love them all!

Re: Button! cat_f October 25 2004, 20:55:38 UTC

She turned three in August but I will of had her three years next Feb (she used to be my sister's dog but Suzi's couldn't look after her properly because of college and me and Buttons bonded... it was the hardest thing I think my sister as ever done since she sees Buttons everyday and I am so grateful because I adore Buttons so much that without her I would feel empty... I just hope my sister knows that I love her because of what she has done.)

What Breed? I believe she is a border collie, like, all my dogs that I have had... and she can be insane at times especially when she hasn't seen me in a while... she doesn't like to be apart from me and cries when she is...

Hugs to you, Beauty anonymous October 29 2004, 03:38:07 UTC

Hello, I am sorry, you felt into depression and after last year, I can imagine how hard it can be. I hope, that you feel better, and I just wanted to let you know, that I am back as I was times before.
I send you a part of my new strenght, so you can feel better, Beauty.

Lots of Hugs!

Nina

Re: Hugs to you, Beauty cat_f October 31 2004, 18:05:21 UTC

Hi Nina,
I hope you are well and that studying is going well.

Big Hugs!