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BEEN A LONG TIME..BUT ONCE AGAIN TIME TO VENT..YAY!
I sit there watching you with your head held high, looking down your nose at me, saying i'm demon opressed or possesed just because I decide it's time once again to stick up for myself and not be belittled by you. Let me ask you something do you feel good about yourself..now that you've stated that you're basically better then me, and all I can do ( Read more... ) -
Waiting...
It's been a while..so I thought this being the perfect night to write in my online journal. There are a 1000 thoughts running through my head at this particular moment. Have been for a long while now. So I'm just going to type and let my heart and mind do all the writing. So if this doesn't make since forgive me. *SMILES ( Read more... ) -
Tired of feeling used...
I am so tired of felling used...I feel it all the time as of late, and today is no different. I feel like all people do is pull a little piece of me off every time I talk to them, or do something for them. Today just seemed over the top..Now I am screaming, ENOUGH IS ENOUGH DAMNIT!!!! I feel so angery and sad about this, I just don't know what to ( Read more... ) -
Trapped..
Today I realized something...I realized that no matter what I do or how hard I try, I am always going to be trapt. I once had a dream of moving out of my mom's house and into a house all my own. A place for me to raise my daughter, and show her that though life throws you hard balls you can still make it. Well today I found out that it would be ( Read more... ) -
MY HEART JUST CAN'T TAKE IT ANYMORE!!!!!
I've been in this stupid fight with my sister over a pic I placed in my Blog on MySpace. I took the picture without asking and used it in my blog, but only as a way to show my point so to speak. I complimented her in my Blog and all she could see was that her pic was in my blog. She didn't care to even read what the blog was about, she just assumed ( Read more... ) -
I NEED TO GET DRUNK...BUT I'M BROKE...SAD!!!!!
*WARNING THIS ENTRY MAY NOT MAKE SINCE..I'M JUST LETTING MY FINGERS TYPE WHAT MY HEART FEELS. SO IF IT DOESN'T FLOW TOGETHER OR MAKE SENCE AT ALL..FUCK IT, I DON'T CARE ( Read more... ) -
It would've been nice
It would've been nice if someone told me that I was obsolete. Once again I feel as if my being a mom now has changed people's views of me. Not that I can blame them, not having someone to babysit so you can have a life, kinda prompts the people who do ask you to go out to stop asking when the answer is always no. I've come to a harsh realization ( Read more... ) -
LORELAI
Today is Lorelai's first birthday, and all the mixed emotions I was feeling before have all settled down into excitment. I'm excited to see what this year brings, and what milestones she will cross. I love this age because we can have so much fun together. Now granit I miss the little newborn days, where she would just lay in my arms and look up at ( Read more... ) -
Updates...
I turned 23 on the the 14th of this month, and Lorelai turned 11 months old on the 18th. It seems like only yesterday I was turning 22 and Lorelai wasn't even born yet. It's hard to believe that a whole year has gone by. I feel like I fell asleep and woke up and it's a year later. A very freaky feeling by the way. Anyway Lorelai took her first ( Read more... ) -
UPDATE....LONG BUT WORTH IT!!!
Ok it would appear that I have once again been failing to update everyone on the goings on in my life so here we go ( Read more... )