Still coping with the world...

[casanicci]

You know, I am not certain if my posts are benefiting the world these days. I'll go ahead and put them behind links so that if they aren't beneficial, you can ignore them. This one has a lot of female related issues since that is what is ongoing, much to my frustration. Skip it if it squicks you.

I am weary. I'm tired and feel hollow and I'm sick of

Comments

[txwhiterose]

You have lots of purposes!

Perhaps your Doctress could recommend a good therapist that specializes in your needs?

[sashastarchaser]

Shit, hon. That's a lot of crap to go through. Seeing a therapist is risk free. Either it helps or it doesn't. If you don't like it, quit. You have a really good reason to be frustrated with Jon, it's not something you can keep pushing down. It will ruin you. You have to have someone you can lay it all down in front of, who can help you process it in a healthy way. You're in my prayers and thoughts.

PS: My cousin had invetro and ended up with THREE!!! She wasn't very healthy which lead to them being born very early, they were 1 pound each! That was about a year and a half ago and they are doing great. Miracles happen, my friend. Don't stop believing.

[thebb73]

I am so there with you on nearly all of this. I do not have the medical condition and I do not have someone else holding me back. It's all me. All my fault. Other than that, I can identify with all of it.

[dleighb]

Prepare to go through several therapists. I had a thearpist who specialized in Marriage and Family Counseling. But before I got to her I went through two horrid men. I would suggest finding a female therapist. Not that a man couldn't sympathize, but I think that you would feel more in tune with a woman therapist on these matters. However, even among women there are multiple thoughts on psychological stuffus, so journey around. If your work has an EAP program, that would also be a good place to start.

P.S. I attended a one year birthday party today. There was a slide presentation of the family over the past year. Talk about working hard to stare at something but not see it and desperately try to think of something else.

I know that's tough

[casanicci]

...I have had to learn to search myself for what I can and cannot handle. I don't think I could handle that without paying for it in sorrow and frustration for it later so I tend to avoid most things involving children when I am in the more difficult place.

I think it is an unnecessary torture to put ourselves through those things and our friends and family have to be understanding or they have to suck it up when the can't.

I have some concerns about therapy and work - it says that they can't hold it against you but with Texas being "right to work" state and all, how can we be certain that there aren't reprocussions?

I'll say it again

[allea]

I completely agree with kara isma. You definitely need to sit down and talk to Jon about this. If you feel like he isn't listening or taking you seriously, try again, and if that doesn't work, we will find someone who can make sure he will pay attention.

Hugs!

Re: I'll say it again

[casanicci]

You are both right but boys are dumb and they just don't get it sometimes. He always means well. Jon has the best heart of any man I've ever known. But it is really hard for him to deal with the emotions involved in everything. He wants to look at it only from the practical side and gets very frustrated that I can't or don't see them that way.

I wish some of his friends could talk to him about this. Then he'd know that I'm not nuts.