Cycles

[caropal]

Back in Chicago, there was one night in the midst of a really bad anxiety spell, a really bad depressive spell, and I couldn't sleep. I was so anxious that my mind would not stop; it just kept whirring and whirring and whirring, and it was three in the morning, and I hadn't slept, and I was anxious because I couldn't sleep. But it wasn't just that

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[stickpegasus]

It's so hard to crawl out of that hole. Keep breathing, and remember that you won't always feel like this. I try never to lie in bed longer than twenty minutes if I'm not going to sleep, I always get up and do something else for a while even if it's watching infomercials and knitting or something-- it stops the OH MY GOD WHY AM I NOT ASLEEP?!?!?! panic pretty well.

I had completely forgotten how hot it was at your wedding, by the way. That's not what I remember about it at all! I remember you guys looking awesome, and having fun, and eating tasty things. :)

[starofpersia]

As someone who struggles with the same issues, I love this post. I'll have to remember the TV thing- I'm pretty sure I *have* done that in the past, but always felt guilty that I was staying up later, when acceptance would be much more productive. Letting go is so critical to enjoying life. <3

[thepantdance]

I had a similar thing happen to me the other night. I flipped my shit over the cat of all things. I was silently crying, thinking about how it wasn't a big deal and that I shouldn't be upset, which only made it worse. Accepting that I was upset and sobbing was the only way I could properly release it. I then watched Lock Up for about an hour cause there was no way I was going to sleep after that.

I feel ya baby. Ignoring the feelings never makes it better.

[meru_neechan]

Too bad it doesn't sound cyclical *enough* to be linked to your period. I noticed that was what was happening to me where I was just inexorably morose and melancholy about life in general for one day, every month. I soon realized that while it was hormonal, I couldn't do anything except be patient and wait it out. Being aware of it helped to understand why I was feeling that way and eased the waiting, but it did me no good to dive into the random topic that my brain decided to be sad about

[evelynnash]

It's so timely that you mention the benefits of yoga. It seems like aaaaall of my friends do it, and I've been thinking about how I probably should be, too. I'm generally happy, but my problem is that I can get so upset about something that a stranger does to me-even by accident-on the bus or train in the morning that it can ruin my whole day. I think being able to put myself in a state of calm at will, like meditating, would be hugely awesome for me. Are you still doing it?

Also, still love David. Find myself not hating your happiness with him. Am annoyed by that.