Going mad

[carnivalnights]

It's such a strange feeling when everything aches... my body, my heart, even my brain. When you suffer from depression and anxiety, there is just this constant sickly feeling. This underlying panic. What I panic about changes from day to day, sometimes from hour to hour, but I always know it's the depression/anxiety. I never confuse it with other

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[apori]

Sending you love and hugs (if wanted). I don't have anything helpful to say, but I read everything you write here and empathize. Wishing you and Salem the very best.

[carnivalnights]

Thank you, darling. <3

[alunmillard]

Pretty much echoing Apori - sending you all the positive thoughts and hugs.

Really really sorry you're going through all this. You're definitely doing the right thing by trying to get help.

[aerodrome1]

You have readers here, and if you feel isolated and trapped, we are here for you.

[symptosis]

You're definitely taking steps to try and help yourself (that strength which is really admirable) although you may have been neglecting some self-care. I hear how utterly depressed and anxious you are all the time. I'm sorry to hear about your cat especially since he means so much to you. That's terrible it's such a long wait until you can get into a psychiatrist. Hopefully, there's another option that can get you in sooner because clearly, you're suffering and you need the relief you say medications have given you in the past. I wish there were something obvious and clear-cut to make you feel better.