I've allowed people to walk out and back into of my life willy nilly, whenever they feel like it. There's never any consequence for walking about, because walking back in is effortless and requires no effort on their part ( Read more... )

This seems to be something that everyone forgets about me ( Read more... )

I've created a perfect facade of happiness.  A mask so carefully crafted that no one can see past it, or tell the difference.  But behind that mask I'm cracking and breaking and falling apart.  No one knows the real me, because I've been careful to conceal this side.  Careful to put up the happy front, and be the bubbly person everyone expects of ( Read more... )

i want to go to new city, transfer to a new school, and just start over. this isn't what i want to do anymore. it's time for a fresh start. i don't even know where i'm moving to yet, but i'm pretty positive i'm leaving fort collins and csu behind after this semester is done.

i feel more and more pieces chipping away each and every day that i'm stuck here. it gets harder and harder to prevent when there's virtually nothing holding them together.

this week i have three papers due, a project where i have to create a website, and i have a test i have to study for. one of my papers has to be 5-7 pages and i'm having problems getting a whole page. i just feel like there's no way i'm going to get all this stuff done by the time i leave campus on thursday morning. i feel like there's no way i ( Read more... )

 the duct tape is starting to come undone again. i dont know how many times i can pretend to have fixed this.

 my mom has been after me to transfer from csu to a school in denver so i would be closer to home for over a year.  i've been kind of against the idea, but being home this past week has made me realize how much i miss it.  part of me kind of wants to look into a school around here to transfer to, but at the same time, i really like living on my own ( Read more... )

ok so tumblr or livejournal aren't the places to resolve stuff like this, i know that. but since apparently we're putting this out there on the internet for everyone to read, alright here i go.

here's the the thing. i've always been here for you, and i always will be. i've told you this many times, one of them being rather recently. if you needed me ( Read more... )

this past year my life has been like the most ridiculous roller coaster ride ever and i'm so sick of it.  the highs and lows are so extreme, and i wish i could just find a balance between the two ( Read more... )