A very very special thanks to:

Melanie Raines
Rootin' Tootin' John Morris
Tom Da Bomb Morris
Matt Dooley
Drew Stipe
J.P. *inset last name*

Thank you all very much.
This would not have been possible without you.

Weird night.

Weird thoughts actually.

I find myself searching for something to beleive in.
Anything to put faith into,
to pray to,
to help me.
I want to...
I want to so fucking badly.

I don't know why I can't.
I don't understand why it won't work for me.

I try.
I end up disapointed.
Depressed.

Why?

I was truely brought to tears this evening.
I haven't stoped crying.
When you read the rest of this, you'll know why...

wannasemedisc0 (11:25:35 PM): FUCK ron burgandy
wannasemedisc0 (11:25:38 PM): yeah. i said it.
Steve88442 (11:25:59 PM): and i thought i knew you!

I'm so hurt.

You know ( Read more... )

a prayer.

Um...

I got accepted the the University of South Carolina!

So this is pretty cool.
The whole actually going to college thing just sort of settled in.
Dunno if I'll go there or not.
Still have to hear from a few others.

This has been a good fucking day.

Ever wake up and wish the day had never made it here ( Read more... )

Goddamn motherfucking shit.

Umm ( Read more... )

Can't breathe.
Suffocated myself with thoughts and memories.

"Oh yeah?" he said. "But what about the future? It's a possibility."
"Never fucking lose hope" he said. "Never."

I need a goddamn cigarette.