i havent written anything in a while...things have changed...i finally see things as they really are...i have been betrayed by people that i thought cared about me...and i didnt want to believe it...but now i cant keep denying it...there is proof all around...everytime i encounter someone...i find out more and more lies...i will always wonder why? ( Read more... )

...ouch...my heart hurts...is it possible for my heart to break over and over everyday...when i wake up and realize this is not a dream....is it completely insane to still have hope?? am i still so blind? to not see it...when its written right in front of my face? is this really the end..or will he show me in some little way..that he still cares? ( Read more... )

so yesterday i finally met this boy i have been talking to....hes really sweet and really nice...we talk on the phone for hours! its crazy...its nice to find a friend that you can talk to about anything and they will understand....he tells me that i keep all my feelings locked up inside and that i shouldnt...he says i need to talk to someone about ( Read more... )

so basically today was pretty good...i got a raise at work! whoo hoo!! so on Friday its on...im going shopping lol and im getting shit faced! can you tell im excited...also on friday i think i get to meet this boy i have been talking to...its like a blind date or something..which is really freaky...im pretty excited..but i am in a place right now ( Read more... )

so its been a rough week so far...ive been going through an emotional roller coaster...but its getting better each day...i am trying to do things more for myself..i have been doing a lot of things that are bad for me lately..i keep going through this vicious cycle..and its destroying me...im loosing track of who i am...i came to the conclusion last ( Read more... )

i love underoath...this song speaks my heart...

When The Sun Sleeps ( Read more... )

Today has been a laaaazzzy day...i stayed out waay too late last night...i spent the day doing laundry and little things around the house... so i decided to do this live journal thing...i think it will help me sort out my feelings if i can just get them out...i've had a lot on my mind lately...and i am still too tired to even atempt to write ( Read more... )

im still trying to figure out how to use this thing...