It's Enough Now [6/?]
Title: It’s Enough Now
Author: Trance-Faith
Rating: M
Pairing: Callie/Arizona
Disclaimer: I do not own Grey’s. All characters in this story sadly do not belong to me; they’re simply being borrowed for a little while, and then will be returned. This story was not written for profit and no copyright infringements are intended.
Other Parts incase you haven’t read them! -
1. http://community.livejournal.com/callie_arizona/1228932.html
2. http://community.livejournal.com/callie_arizona/1235554.html
3. http://community.livejournal.com/callie_arizona/1238257.html
4. http://community.livejournal.com/callie_arizona/1238491.html
5. http://community.livejournal.com/callie_arizona/1240777.html
Author’s Note 1: In terms of Grey’s storyline - this is set after their break up, BUT I altered when they’d broken up, as this is set just before Christmas.
Author’s Note 2: Should I continue on after this chapter? If you say yes, but warned you may not like the next chapter - BUT I can guarantee it will be worth it.
Beta: No beta was used while I wrote this, so all spelling and grammar mistakes are my own.
Reviews: Are much wanted please!
Arizona’s POV
The blonde’s eyes opened slowly, her vision blurred. She sat up in shock, looking around trying to take in her surroundings. Where was she, it looked familiar but nothing she recognised. Then she realised, she was in Callie’s living room, she was simply looking at it from the wrong angle, she couldn’t remember ever waking up on the couch before.
Arizona turned her head to where she knew Callie would be, and was rewarded by the sight of a mess of black hair, which sticking out from under the covers, but facing in the opposite direction. The blonde couldn’t remember her removing her hair from the messy ponytail she’d adopted earlier in the evening, but assumed she must have done it before going to sleep. Arizona gave a small, but sad smile. The love of her life was so close, yet so far away. The distance between them would have taken her a few steps at most, and yet it seemed to span for miles.
Her head was pounding, it felt like someone was trying to make their way out of her skull, and she realised how dry her mouth way. She made a few, rather unattractive faces, testing how dry her mouth was. Arizona swung her legs over the edge of the couch, causing the wooden floor to creak. Her head shot up, when Callie began to move, though relaxed when she saw the raven surgeon was simply rolling over in her sleep. So she continued to tiptoe over to the kitchen area, pulling out two glasses. She turned the tap on too much, splashing herself, and the surrounding counter, causing her to silently curse, spinning the tap to reduce the flow. The blonde cringed slightly, checking over at the black haired head for movement, however she saw none.
Arizona lowered each glass in turn, filling them with water, before turning off the flow of water, and tiptoeing back to the couch. She couldn’t remember the floor ever being this creaky before, and was sure that there was some power that was determined she would wake the sleeping woman on the floor. She edged around to the small table on the other side of Callie’s sleeping form, placing one of the glass on it, knowing that when Callie woke, considering the amount of alcohol she’d consumed tonight, she was going to need it.
Walking back carefully avoiding what she suspected were loose floorboards, she placed her glass beside the couch, seeing that they hadn’t drawn the curtain. She could see it had stop snowing now, and moved to close the curtains, knowing that once the sun rose, the light would shine directly into Callie’s face, and she would not be happy. Pulling on the curtain she realised, as the bit of material started to give up a fight, which without using much more force, and creating much more noise, she shouldn’t carry out the task. Looking out of the bare window, she could see a thick covering of snow lying on the ground. It looked as if someone had iced a Christmas cake, as the soft snow clung to the trees. Even without going to see, Arizona could sense how cold it was outside. Arizona’s bladder started to demand her attention, how much had she drunk? She slipped into the bathroom, locking the door behind her.
Callie’s POV
When raven haired woman heard movement, she turned to investigate. Everything looked wrong, everything seemed bigger. It took her several moments to note that she was lying on the floor, and the previous night came flooding back. As this realisation hit her, she became aware of the two eyes staring at her from the couch. Callie lowered her eye lids, so they almost closed, but so she could still see the blonde who was by the look of things trying to gage whether she’d been woken up.
Callie must have fooled her well enough, as the smaller woman stood fully and walked slowly taking large steps to avoid creaking boards, towards the kitchen. Once Arizona entered the kitchen area, she went out of sight of the woman on the floor, due to lack of light. Though without light, what she could hear was much more amusing. She heard the whoosh of water as Arizona clearly turned the tap too much, and the whispered curse that fell from the blonde’s lips, made Callie have to try extra hard to laugh. A few more everyday noises occurred before the blonde came back into view again, it was only this time that Callie caught sight of the blonde’s legs, as she came extremely close to the dark haired surgeon. Callie slightly held her breathe as Arizona made small noises behind her, then walked passed her yet again, this time only one hand was carrying a glass, which was discarded at the base of the couch.
The PEDs surgeon yet again moved out range of Callie’s sight, but this time it was down the other side of the room, meaning Callie couldn’t look without being caught. The raven haired woman’s brow creased, as odd noises came from the window, Callie thought, though she couldn’t be sure without looking, Arizona was attempting to draw the curtains. Callie assumed the other woman must have given up, because she heard her footsteps again, and the bathroom door creak and close.
As soon as she heard the door close, she made a grab for her cell under her pillow, unlocking it, she was momentarily blinded by the brightness from her phone screen. It was 4.23am; she’d only been asleep for a few hours. What was worse was the fact she still had to sleep for a few more hours. Sleeping this close and yet so far from Arizona was confusing, and painful. She was staring at her cell screen, the smiling image of both women staring back at her, their eyes, their smiles, laughing cruelly at her, mocking her, reminding her of happier, simpler times. Callie felt her throat start to close up, and the tell tale signs of tears reaching her eyes, Arizona was going to come back in any minute, she couldn’t see her like this. The younger surgeon closed her cell, pushing it back under her pillow, as she heard the bathroom door click open. Steadying her breathing, Callie was finding a near impossible task, and the image of her and Arizona together, was burned into her mind. Her face buried into her pillow, was making little to no difference to her shaking as the sobs took over.
Arizona’s POV
Opening the bathroom door, and then killing the light, Arizona stood for a few moments allowing her eyes to adjust again to the darkened room. Once she could see a little better, she noted Callie had moved on to her stomach, her hair spread out over her whole pillow. The sight, despite the fact she blonde couldn’t see her face, held her breathe. This was the most relaxed she’d been able to see Callie since they’d broken up, and she felt almost guilty at spying on something so personal. Arizona could see Callie breathing, stepping forwarded she realised it was heavier than it could have been for a sleeping person. The PEDs surgeon’s breathe caught when she realised, the raven haired woman was crying. Arizona’s weight shifted uneasily, as she fought with herself internally. It was clear Callie didn’t want her to know she was upset, but Arizona wanted…needed to offer comfort to the woman who was clearly hurting as much as she herself. The shifting in weight movements would have been comical under a different circumstance. Arizona moved slowly towards the crying woman, making a decision. If Callie didn’t want her comfort, she would give her space, but she would never forgive herself, if she didn’t offer it.
The blonde woman moved slowly, placing her hand on the raven haired shoulder, whispering, “Callie?” The effect was immediate, and caused her to jump slightly, as the younger woman shot up, wrapping her arms around the blonde’s neck, pulling her in, resting her head on shoulder and sobbing. Arizona took a few moments to comprehend what was happening, before wrapping one arm around Callie’s waist, while entangling her fingers on the other hand into the dark hair inches away from her face. “Shhh, I’ve got you.” Arizona repeated rhythmically, in a low whisper, though it seemed to have no effect on the taller woman’s sobs. Arizona was trying to keep her own breathing, and emotions under control, as her own tears filled with tears, she held the woman in her arms even tighter.
Callie’s muffled voice broke through the sobs, not that Arizona heard what she’d said. “What?” sounded Arizona’s voice, full and thick of failed hidden emotion. The blonde felt Callie’s arms slacken, but didn’t move from their position, as Callie slightly altered her body posture. “It’s too hard…” Callie stated stifling a sob. “Seeing you…I just…I can’t keep doing this”, she continued, her voice breaking throughout. Arizona’s eyes slid shut, dreading the worst, feeling the tears flow down her cheeks with abandon. “Callie…” Arizona stated slowly, but before she could continue the woman in question sobbed, “Don’t call me that. Please don’t call me that”. Arizona could feel her whole face crumble, as the emotion came pouring out of her body. The blonde tried again, trying so hard, to fight the tears, and yet failing so miserably, “Tell me to go. Tell me to leave you alone. That it’s what you want, and I will. I can’t until you tell me.” It was too late to hide her tears, as a sob racked through her body, as Callie moved to look at her looking horrified. “Tell me”, the blonde whispered in a desperate plea. Callie shook her head, “I can’t. I don’t…” She took a hold of the smaller woman’s hand, raising the palm to her own face, allowing Arizona to feel her cheek. Arizona could feel the warmth of her skin, mixed with even hotter tears. “I don’t want you to go.” Callie whispered back in her own plea, just as desperate as the blonde’s question. “Do you want me to say it?” her voice sounded so innocent, and child like, so afraid and lost, it caused Arizona to crumble yet again. Shaking her head she stated “I want you, Calliope.”
The transitions between the clear emotions on Callie’s face were extremely fast, going from desperation, surprise, to sadness. Her face crumbled, as fresh tears spilled from her eyes, pushing the blonde down with quite some force. Arizona’s widen with shock as as Callie’s face came inches away from her own. “I don’t need kids. I don’t. I need you Arizona. Please don’t make me lose you again. I need you”, the younger woman sobbed, causing her tears to fall on to Arizona’ face, mixing with her own. Arizona didn’t know how to stop the tears from falling, so she raised herself up from the make-shift bed, and place a gentle kiss on the raven’s lips.
Callie lazily responded to her kiss, clearly too tired to give the kiss back, but she could feel every emotion being poured into it. Arizona pulled away first, opening her mouth to speak, before a finger pressed against her lips. “Please don’t say anything. Please.” Callie begged her, her eyes swimming with tears. Arizona gave a small nod, which got a quality small smile in return. Arizona wrapped her arm around the younger woman’s shoulders, pulling her in, and leant back causing Callie’s head to rest on her chest. Callie shuffled closer, one arm draped across Arizona’s waist rather tightly, as if she was afraid she was going to escape. No more words were spoken, as both women’s breathing returned to normal. Slowly Arizona felt Callie relax into her, also relaxing her grip on her waist as her breathing evened out. The last thought which entered her mind as she joined Callie in the dream world was, that for days she’d wanted to tell Callie, she didn’t need to give up kids for her, she’d have them willingly.