In My Room (2/4)
Title: In My Room
Pairing: 2min (Taemin/ Minho)
Rating: PG 15
Genre: Angst
Chapter: 2/4
Summary: Taemin gone missing and Minho is worried about his safety.
-Minho POV-
I wanted to call Onew to drive us there, but I couldn’t see him anywhere in this house. Where is him when I need him? I look at both of them, they should know better where is he.
“Hyung, where’s Onew hyung?” Jonghyun laugh was kind of stiff, they are hiding something…
“Well… Actually, we got the news while you went for a jog. So he went there first.” His voice was getting softer and softer as it reaches the end of the sentence. WHAT? Why didn’t they call me? I could just rush home. Don’t they know how much I wish to see Taemin? They should know it well.
“WHY didn’t you guys tell me? You could just give me a call and I ran home immediately. Why?”I was holding tightly onto Jonghyun’s arm. I was feeling kind of fed up so I didn’t care to let go even Jonghyun whined in pain. How could they keep this from me? If they told me earlier, I could get to see him earlier. Why do they keep it from me?
“Minho, you hurting Jonghyun!” Key was trying to pull my hands off from Jonghyun but I didn’t let go. I was going berserk. I am losing control of myself…
“CHOI MINHO!” I quickly let go of my hands, he rubbed the area where I grab. I tried to cool myself down, but nothing seems to be working out. The flame of fury just kept burning and burning.
“We were afraid that you might lose your temper after seeing Taemin and cause a ruckus. That why I’m telling you only now.” Seeing Taemin I will lose control? At the most I just hug Taeminnie tightly in my arms. What else can I do? I didn’t get it.
“Come on, let go and see Taemin.” Jonghyun grab the car keys on the table and off to the hospital. I wasn’t thinking anything else now, right now in my mind, I just want to see Taemin and nothing is going to stop me.
We arrived at the hospital, I hurried the guys. Right now, I just want to see Taemin’s face with my very own eyes. We got in the elevator, a thought just went through my mind. What if the dream I had was true? Jonghyun told me to stay calm no matter what… Does that mean something bad happened to Taemin? What if it was true? What should I do? I stopped my thoughts from running wild, because it was getting negative.
We reach our destination floor, I just tailed behind them. Maybe, I was afraid to face the truth… We stopped in front of a room. This is it. Inside of this room, is where my lover lies?
“Minho, this is a hospital. So I hope that no matter what you have to stay calm. Alright?” I nodded willingly. Of course, I will agree to any terms, just let me see Taemin.
“Okay, you may open the door.” Even though my heart was earning to see Taemin but my hands started trembling. I touched the icy doorknob. This is it… I didn’t know what I was hesitating about. Just open the stupid door! No matter what I told myself, I don’t seem to have enough courage to open it. I take in another deep breath and open the door.
Onew was sitting by the side of the bed, he only stood up when he saw us coming in. There was evidence of tears on his face… My eyes moved to a certain place. The certain place was the whole reason I came here. His bangs was covering his eyes, lot of bruises can be seen on his ghostly face. The wounds on his face, it’s so familiar like I have seen it somewhere. I took another stepped forward, getting closer to him. He had slim down so much… I could feel my heart been squeeze tightly. I took another step again, my eyes was getting watery. His injures, it’s too familiar. I sat beside his bed, I searched for his right hands and then held it tightly with both of mine hand. It’s cold. I couldn’t feel the same warm every time I held his hand. I placed his hand closely on my face. There were also wounds on his arm.
“Hyung, what happened?” Even though I don’t really want to know the truth, I was afraid to face it but I must know. What had cause Taemin to be lying here and not talking at all.
“The police found him in an abandon house. When they found Taemin, he was already covered with wounds and found unconscious. ..” He cleared his throat once and started talking again.
“The doctor said that… He was running a high fever and was suffering from malnutrition… ” He paused again.
“His body is really weak and if he mentally decided to give up on his life… He may just go... like that.”This only explains his unconscious. How about the wounds? Although I had an answer in my heart, I just want to hear it from him, hear it with my own ears.
“The marks?” I held back my tears, bite my lips preventing myself from crying.
“He… he… was raped…” A moment of silence. I was right. This wounds, was the same in my dream. The crying face of Taeminnie.. This means that I had actually witness him being rape in front of my very eyes… and yet I can’t do anything about it. I hated myself, why didn’t I go and find him? I even allow him to bear this kind of pain. Do I even worthy enough to love him, to protect him?
Truths are always the hardest to accept because they are facts on reality. Reality is cruel. I just held his hand tightly and give a kiss.
“The police found this… He was holding it in his hands when he is on the way to the hospital, he never let go. I guess, this was important to both of you. I had washed away the blood stains on the ring for you.” Onew passed me a ring. It was our ring. I gave it to him on our first anniversary. I still remember that I tell him not to ever lose it, or else our love will end. It was a crazy joke, I didn’t know that he will take it real. I just hated myself even more. Every little word I said, he remembers it by heart. Tears started streaming down, I just could hold back anymore.
“Taemin… Why are you so silly?” I stroke his hair softly. I quickly slipped in the ring for him.
“Don’t ever lose it again.” I kissed his hands once more but this time was longer. I stayed by his bed and look at him. My hands reached out for face, my fingers ran slowly down his features. I could tell that you suffered a lot, once again I could feel a throbbing pain in my heart.
-Third person POV-
Other member didn’t say anything, because they didn’t know what to say. What words can actually lessen his pain. Jonghyun place an arm over Key, patting softly on his back. Who wouldn’t be sad after hearing what had happened to Taemin? Who won’t be heartbroken?
The following days, Minho would always keep Taemin accompany by sitting beside the bed, holding onto his hands. You can say that Minho was selfish as he wanted to be the first one Taemin sees when he woke up, but you can also say that he love Taemin too much that he is willing to play with his health.
No one can stop Minho from visiting Taemin. Days kept moving on, Minho still went there. Little moustache started growing under his nose. He didn’t have time to shave it because he’s too busy looking after Taemin. It has been four days now, Minho was just sleeping on his bed, hands still holding onto Taemin. He’s afraid to lose Taemin again, that’s why he is never going to let go.
Taemin’s eyes where moving under the eyelid, gradually his eyes began to open and slowly adjusting to the lights. He felt numb and weak, he started moving his fingers for a start. Soon he felt like someone was holding his hand, he gaze at the direction. What he sees was a haggard old man, which was none other than Minho. Minho was waked by his slight movement.
“Taeminnie? Taemin! You are awake?” Minho cried in joy, he finally woke up from his deep slumber. A bright smile was on his face, it was his happiest smile this week. It’s been a long time since he smiles like that.
“I go get the doctor and call the hyung.” He ran off quickly. Soon the doctor came and check on Taemin, the others has also reached the hospital.
“How is it, doctor? Will he going to be alright?” Key inquired the doctor.
“It seems like he had forgotten what happened that week, but he wasn’t suffering from any brain injuries. I guess the incident did inflict a lot of pain to him, that why he is suffering from selective-amnesia.”
“Selective-amnesia?” They had never heard of it, neither their surrounding friends had it before. It was a new term to them but somehow they could roughly guess the meaning of it.
“Yes, it is kind of mental problem. This is where patient selectively deletes certain memories, mostly the memories that are unpleasant or inflicts pains to them. But sub-consciously, they still remember it. It is a way for them to temporary hide from the problem.” Silence fills the hallway, they didn’t know if it was a good thing or a bad thing. Maybe forgetting about it can cause lesser pain to Taemin, but what if one day he remembers it. It will then be like a time bomb in his heart, anytime it will just blows up.
“Thanks doctor.” The doctor left and they went in.
-Minho POV-
“Thanks doctor.” Key broke the loud silence. We all make our way into the room. Taemin was sitting up, a weak smile could be seen on his pale face.
“Hyung!” He called excitedly. I make my way to his side and smiled. I’m glad his alright. Seeing his smile somehow calms me, but it doesn’t feel right, something was missing.... Maybe… I was just thinking too much. I patted on his head, his big bulgy eyes just stared at me.
“Minho hyung! You didn’t shave today, no wonder when I woke up, I mistook you as an old man.” We just laugh at his joke, at least the atmosphere wasn’t so tense. Onew was back with his million dollar smile, Key and Jonghyun just laughed at me.
“Does Taeminnie still like the old man?”
“No. I don’t.” A disappointed smile was on my face.
“I love the old man.” Taeminnie smiled cheekily. Everything is slowly getting back to what it is before. I felt contented. This few days, I kept Taemin accompanied in the hospital until one day, he was discharge from the hospital. I got up early that morning just to fetch Taemin home even though he could only come home in the afternoon. The huge smile on Taemin’s face the moment he stepped into the house, everything seems too good to be true. It feels like a dream, a dream where there wasn’t pain and horror, only pure happiness. It just doesn’t seems right, my heart just don’t feel right. Maybe, after hearing what happened to Taemin, I couldn’t accept the fact that he was back to his old self?
Soon it was coming to dinner. Key had cooked a lot of food and everything was Taemin’s favourite.
“Taemin, you must eat more. This are specially prepared for you!”
“Thanks Key umma! I miss your food so MUCH! The hospital foods are bland and tasteless.” Key just shows his motherly happiness and nodded. The food today was simply tasty with Taeminnie around. The household fills with fun and laughter again. All thanks to Taemin. Life was back on track.
After a few hours of watching television, Taemin got up from his seat.
“I’m tired… I’m going to bed now.” We all nodded. Think about it, I should also go to bed to keep him accompany. It’s been a long time since I hug him in my arms. The warm feeling when I lean my face on his back, it was comfortable and it’s like a sleeping pill which makes me sleepy. I got up and said goodnight to the hyungs. I walked into my bedroom, he wasn’t there. Where could he be?
Maybe he is in his room writing diary, I smiled and sneaked softly to his room. The door wasn’t lock, so I push the open the door slowly so that I won’t alarm Taemin. He lying on his bed, both of his eyes was close. His hands wrapped around Mr Teddy. Looking at this sight, blissful smile was on my face. He look so cute like that, I just want to hug him tightly in my arms. Since he’s asleep, I guess I have to sleep alone tonight again.
The next morning, I was waked up by the delicious smell. It was 8 in the morning, I guess Key prepared the breakfast early today. I got off the bed, stretch my arms and legs and walked lazily to the bathroom to get my teeth brushed. After doing so, then I made my way to the kitchen. I was surprised, it wasn’t Key hyung who prepared the breakfast. Taemin? I didn’t know Taemin knows how to make breakfast.
“Minho hyung! Good morning!” He was wearing a long sleeves shirt and a normal pant. Was he cold? I guess the morning air is kind of cold.
“Good morning.” On the table, there were differently prepared drink. My coffee, Key’s milk, Jonghyun’s milo, Onew’s fruit juice. There were pancakes on the table with different crispiness. I thought Key was the one who knows the member well, Taemin was also pretty good. I took a slip, it tasted just right, neither too sweet or bitter.
“Hyung! Could you get the other hyung to eat breakfast?” I nodded, something is different about Taemin today. He specially woke up early to prepare the breakfast? Everything seems too good to be true. Or I had never felt this before because I didn’t take extra notice on Taemin’s action? I ponder in my head. I just hope this kind of life goes on. We had a peaceful breakfast, everything seems too peaceful for me to accept… Did I want drama? I didn’t wish for drama but my heart just feels that something is wrong with Taemin.
His smile… Wasn’t truly his smile…
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Other parts will be posted soon..
Pairing: 2min (Taemin/ Minho)
Rating: PG 15
Genre: Angst
Chapter: 2/4
Summary: Taemin gone missing and Minho is worried about his safety.
-Minho POV-
I wanted to call Onew to drive us there, but I couldn’t see him anywhere in this house. Where is him when I need him? I look at both of them, they should know better where is he.
“Hyung, where’s Onew hyung?” Jonghyun laugh was kind of stiff, they are hiding something…
“Well… Actually, we got the news while you went for a jog. So he went there first.” His voice was getting softer and softer as it reaches the end of the sentence. WHAT? Why didn’t they call me? I could just rush home. Don’t they know how much I wish to see Taemin? They should know it well.
“WHY didn’t you guys tell me? You could just give me a call and I ran home immediately. Why?”I was holding tightly onto Jonghyun’s arm. I was feeling kind of fed up so I didn’t care to let go even Jonghyun whined in pain. How could they keep this from me? If they told me earlier, I could get to see him earlier. Why do they keep it from me?
“Minho, you hurting Jonghyun!” Key was trying to pull my hands off from Jonghyun but I didn’t let go. I was going berserk. I am losing control of myself…
“CHOI MINHO!” I quickly let go of my hands, he rubbed the area where I grab. I tried to cool myself down, but nothing seems to be working out. The flame of fury just kept burning and burning.
“We were afraid that you might lose your temper after seeing Taemin and cause a ruckus. That why I’m telling you only now.” Seeing Taemin I will lose control? At the most I just hug Taeminnie tightly in my arms. What else can I do? I didn’t get it.
“Come on, let go and see Taemin.” Jonghyun grab the car keys on the table and off to the hospital. I wasn’t thinking anything else now, right now in my mind, I just want to see Taemin and nothing is going to stop me.
We arrived at the hospital, I hurried the guys. Right now, I just want to see Taemin’s face with my very own eyes. We got in the elevator, a thought just went through my mind. What if the dream I had was true? Jonghyun told me to stay calm no matter what… Does that mean something bad happened to Taemin? What if it was true? What should I do? I stopped my thoughts from running wild, because it was getting negative.
We reach our destination floor, I just tailed behind them. Maybe, I was afraid to face the truth… We stopped in front of a room. This is it. Inside of this room, is where my lover lies?
“Minho, this is a hospital. So I hope that no matter what you have to stay calm. Alright?” I nodded willingly. Of course, I will agree to any terms, just let me see Taemin.
“Okay, you may open the door.” Even though my heart was earning to see Taemin but my hands started trembling. I touched the icy doorknob. This is it… I didn’t know what I was hesitating about. Just open the stupid door! No matter what I told myself, I don’t seem to have enough courage to open it. I take in another deep breath and open the door.
Onew was sitting by the side of the bed, he only stood up when he saw us coming in. There was evidence of tears on his face… My eyes moved to a certain place. The certain place was the whole reason I came here. His bangs was covering his eyes, lot of bruises can be seen on his ghostly face. The wounds on his face, it’s so familiar like I have seen it somewhere. I took another stepped forward, getting closer to him. He had slim down so much… I could feel my heart been squeeze tightly. I took another step again, my eyes was getting watery. His injures, it’s too familiar. I sat beside his bed, I searched for his right hands and then held it tightly with both of mine hand. It’s cold. I couldn’t feel the same warm every time I held his hand. I placed his hand closely on my face. There were also wounds on his arm.
“Hyung, what happened?” Even though I don’t really want to know the truth, I was afraid to face it but I must know. What had cause Taemin to be lying here and not talking at all.
“The police found him in an abandon house. When they found Taemin, he was already covered with wounds and found unconscious. ..” He cleared his throat once and started talking again.
“The doctor said that… He was running a high fever and was suffering from malnutrition… ” He paused again.
“His body is really weak and if he mentally decided to give up on his life… He may just go... like that.”This only explains his unconscious. How about the wounds? Although I had an answer in my heart, I just want to hear it from him, hear it with my own ears.
“The marks?” I held back my tears, bite my lips preventing myself from crying.
“He… he… was raped…” A moment of silence. I was right. This wounds, was the same in my dream. The crying face of Taeminnie.. This means that I had actually witness him being rape in front of my very eyes… and yet I can’t do anything about it. I hated myself, why didn’t I go and find him? I even allow him to bear this kind of pain. Do I even worthy enough to love him, to protect him?
Truths are always the hardest to accept because they are facts on reality. Reality is cruel. I just held his hand tightly and give a kiss.
“The police found this… He was holding it in his hands when he is on the way to the hospital, he never let go. I guess, this was important to both of you. I had washed away the blood stains on the ring for you.” Onew passed me a ring. It was our ring. I gave it to him on our first anniversary. I still remember that I tell him not to ever lose it, or else our love will end. It was a crazy joke, I didn’t know that he will take it real. I just hated myself even more. Every little word I said, he remembers it by heart. Tears started streaming down, I just could hold back anymore.
“Taemin… Why are you so silly?” I stroke his hair softly. I quickly slipped in the ring for him.
“Don’t ever lose it again.” I kissed his hands once more but this time was longer. I stayed by his bed and look at him. My hands reached out for face, my fingers ran slowly down his features. I could tell that you suffered a lot, once again I could feel a throbbing pain in my heart.
-Third person POV-
Other member didn’t say anything, because they didn’t know what to say. What words can actually lessen his pain. Jonghyun place an arm over Key, patting softly on his back. Who wouldn’t be sad after hearing what had happened to Taemin? Who won’t be heartbroken?
The following days, Minho would always keep Taemin accompany by sitting beside the bed, holding onto his hands. You can say that Minho was selfish as he wanted to be the first one Taemin sees when he woke up, but you can also say that he love Taemin too much that he is willing to play with his health.
No one can stop Minho from visiting Taemin. Days kept moving on, Minho still went there. Little moustache started growing under his nose. He didn’t have time to shave it because he’s too busy looking after Taemin. It has been four days now, Minho was just sleeping on his bed, hands still holding onto Taemin. He’s afraid to lose Taemin again, that’s why he is never going to let go.
Taemin’s eyes where moving under the eyelid, gradually his eyes began to open and slowly adjusting to the lights. He felt numb and weak, he started moving his fingers for a start. Soon he felt like someone was holding his hand, he gaze at the direction. What he sees was a haggard old man, which was none other than Minho. Minho was waked by his slight movement.
“Taeminnie? Taemin! You are awake?” Minho cried in joy, he finally woke up from his deep slumber. A bright smile was on his face, it was his happiest smile this week. It’s been a long time since he smiles like that.
“I go get the doctor and call the hyung.” He ran off quickly. Soon the doctor came and check on Taemin, the others has also reached the hospital.
“How is it, doctor? Will he going to be alright?” Key inquired the doctor.
“It seems like he had forgotten what happened that week, but he wasn’t suffering from any brain injuries. I guess the incident did inflict a lot of pain to him, that why he is suffering from selective-amnesia.”
“Selective-amnesia?” They had never heard of it, neither their surrounding friends had it before. It was a new term to them but somehow they could roughly guess the meaning of it.
“Yes, it is kind of mental problem. This is where patient selectively deletes certain memories, mostly the memories that are unpleasant or inflicts pains to them. But sub-consciously, they still remember it. It is a way for them to temporary hide from the problem.” Silence fills the hallway, they didn’t know if it was a good thing or a bad thing. Maybe forgetting about it can cause lesser pain to Taemin, but what if one day he remembers it. It will then be like a time bomb in his heart, anytime it will just blows up.
“Thanks doctor.” The doctor left and they went in.
-Minho POV-
“Thanks doctor.” Key broke the loud silence. We all make our way into the room. Taemin was sitting up, a weak smile could be seen on his pale face.
“Hyung!” He called excitedly. I make my way to his side and smiled. I’m glad his alright. Seeing his smile somehow calms me, but it doesn’t feel right, something was missing.... Maybe… I was just thinking too much. I patted on his head, his big bulgy eyes just stared at me.
“Minho hyung! You didn’t shave today, no wonder when I woke up, I mistook you as an old man.” We just laugh at his joke, at least the atmosphere wasn’t so tense. Onew was back with his million dollar smile, Key and Jonghyun just laughed at me.
“Does Taeminnie still like the old man?”
“No. I don’t.” A disappointed smile was on my face.
“I love the old man.” Taeminnie smiled cheekily. Everything is slowly getting back to what it is before. I felt contented. This few days, I kept Taemin accompanied in the hospital until one day, he was discharge from the hospital. I got up early that morning just to fetch Taemin home even though he could only come home in the afternoon. The huge smile on Taemin’s face the moment he stepped into the house, everything seems too good to be true. It feels like a dream, a dream where there wasn’t pain and horror, only pure happiness. It just doesn’t seems right, my heart just don’t feel right. Maybe, after hearing what happened to Taemin, I couldn’t accept the fact that he was back to his old self?
Soon it was coming to dinner. Key had cooked a lot of food and everything was Taemin’s favourite.
“Taemin, you must eat more. This are specially prepared for you!”
“Thanks Key umma! I miss your food so MUCH! The hospital foods are bland and tasteless.” Key just shows his motherly happiness and nodded. The food today was simply tasty with Taeminnie around. The household fills with fun and laughter again. All thanks to Taemin. Life was back on track.
After a few hours of watching television, Taemin got up from his seat.
“I’m tired… I’m going to bed now.” We all nodded. Think about it, I should also go to bed to keep him accompany. It’s been a long time since I hug him in my arms. The warm feeling when I lean my face on his back, it was comfortable and it’s like a sleeping pill which makes me sleepy. I got up and said goodnight to the hyungs. I walked into my bedroom, he wasn’t there. Where could he be?
Maybe he is in his room writing diary, I smiled and sneaked softly to his room. The door wasn’t lock, so I push the open the door slowly so that I won’t alarm Taemin. He lying on his bed, both of his eyes was close. His hands wrapped around Mr Teddy. Looking at this sight, blissful smile was on my face. He look so cute like that, I just want to hug him tightly in my arms. Since he’s asleep, I guess I have to sleep alone tonight again.
The next morning, I was waked up by the delicious smell. It was 8 in the morning, I guess Key prepared the breakfast early today. I got off the bed, stretch my arms and legs and walked lazily to the bathroom to get my teeth brushed. After doing so, then I made my way to the kitchen. I was surprised, it wasn’t Key hyung who prepared the breakfast. Taemin? I didn’t know Taemin knows how to make breakfast.
“Minho hyung! Good morning!” He was wearing a long sleeves shirt and a normal pant. Was he cold? I guess the morning air is kind of cold.
“Good morning.” On the table, there were differently prepared drink. My coffee, Key’s milk, Jonghyun’s milo, Onew’s fruit juice. There were pancakes on the table with different crispiness. I thought Key was the one who knows the member well, Taemin was also pretty good. I took a slip, it tasted just right, neither too sweet or bitter.
“Hyung! Could you get the other hyung to eat breakfast?” I nodded, something is different about Taemin today. He specially woke up early to prepare the breakfast? Everything seems too good to be true. Or I had never felt this before because I didn’t take extra notice on Taemin’s action? I ponder in my head. I just hope this kind of life goes on. We had a peaceful breakfast, everything seems too peaceful for me to accept… Did I want drama? I didn’t wish for drama but my heart just feels that something is wrong with Taemin.
His smile… Wasn’t truly his smile…
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Other parts will be posted soon..