This weekend was ridiculous. I had a breakdown yesterday at my aunt's birthday party. I love my friends and family here so much. But I also love the ones in the States. I hate that I can't combine both at the same time. Maybe everything happening is only happening because I am leaving soon.

I really need to get an important paper done. But what I am doing instead? That's right, coming onto this website, which I rarely use to read old journal entries. Procrastination seems to be a theme in my life. I'd like to change that when I start up grad school ( Read more... )

It was more than four years ago that I sat in my freshman dorm on our goodwill couch watching brokenheartedly and in disbelief as Bush won the election. Today is the day, Bush's last day. "Yes, we can." Can we? I think with a new president in power, specifically Obama, we at least have the chance and hope for change ( Read more... )

I'm back in California. Back exactly where I was 4 years ago at 17. Except this time I come with a college degree in hand and with LOTS of debt. I'm applying for tons of minimum wage jobs with no luck so far. I just need one to support my summer fun. To be able to afford 5 dollars a gallon for gas. Go to the clubs. And maybe to see this girl...heh.

Today was a huge day for me. The past week and a half I've been a wreck, my stomach tied in knots. I finally had the face-to-face confrontation with...the ex. I feel as if an ENORMOUS burden has been lifted off. I feel like there is close, almost as if I have a new freedom. Although we have been broken up for almost a year (well, and she's been ( Read more... )

this whole dating game. It's not the same as I remember it.

Life is going by at a much quicker pace than I would prefer ( Read more... )

Service Work in Peru this summer.

...trying to get through school. I'm so burned out. I've been in school since March, the longest break being 2 weeks. I did really well at the beginning of the transition back here, but now I'm going crazy. I like what I'm studying, but I am getting to the point that I cannot comprehend anything because of how much work I have, applications, and ( Read more... )

I wonder if it's true...what somebody told me once...is my soul/aura older than 20, or now, 21? I wasn't sure how to take this at the time, but at the moment I am questioning this...as I seem to really click with somebody older than myself...and besides, I can't seem to find connections with those around me who are my age. Maybe this is environment ( Read more... )