Don't believe his lies.kallielOctober 9 2010, 01:20:43 UTC
3. By August, I already knew everything you've written here. Because I know you. The months previous, I could guess, and suspect, and deduce, but I'm known to overdramatize. What got me wasn't any of these things.
It was that you never told me outright. I couldn't say how many conversations we had (mostly concerning tribulations with other people, but I digress) that ended somewhere around...
I value your honesty. I value that you tell me things. I value that there's that openness between us.
So when you didn't, yeah, that hurt. It did.
2. This is the part that I wanted to hear from you. Would I have been kind of sad? Yeah, because change makes me sad. Because not sharing things that mean a lot to me with the people who mean a lot to me makes me sad. But not just making this a clear-cut kind of thing? Was worse.
'Cause you know what I did to remedy that first problem? Found fandom friends. Because that's what fandom is for me. That it isn't for you means you're not a fandom friend. It doesn't mean you're not
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This is not an exit.caerialOctober 9 2010, 07:03:47 UTC
MISC: Maybe this is something you don't need to know about me, but I feel like I'm still lying if I don't at least offer to tell you. I wasn't sitting in a shitty shanty doing nothing all summer. I did immerse myself in a fandom. It wasn't your fandom, but. And maybe it really doesn't matter, but if you want to know, I'll tell you everything. Because, I'm really not out yet. I don't even know if I'm getting out. And it's a part of me, even if it feels like a mistake now (I swear to god this is not an euphemism for I got pregnant and have an unwanted baby now even though that kind of is what this feels like sometimes), and if you want to know, I'd tell you. It isn't something I'd hide from you.
<0: Thank you for stopping with 0. I'll do the same. This is the point of Disappear Here, and I won't come here again.
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It was that you never told me outright. I couldn't say how many conversations we had (mostly concerning tribulations with other people, but I digress) that ended somewhere around...
I value your honesty. I value that you tell me things. I value that there's that openness between us.
So when you didn't, yeah, that hurt. It did.
2. This is the part that I wanted to hear from you. Would I have been kind of sad? Yeah, because change makes me sad. Because not sharing things that mean a lot to me with the people who mean a lot to me makes me sad. But not just making this a clear-cut kind of thing? Was worse.
'Cause you know what I did to remedy that first problem? Found fandom friends. Because that's what fandom is for me. That it isn't for you means you're not a fandom friend. It doesn't mean you're not ( ... )
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<0: Thank you for stopping with 0. I'll do the same. This is the point of Disappear Here, and I won't come here again.
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