2 days of bliss.
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And maybe this is love. I did not plan this to happen. I was asking for this for months and I do not get good replies. The two days were quite simple. The usual things happened. We watched DVD, various TV shows, listened to music, shared some stories, shed some tears and was happy. I can't spell the happiness that I felt when I was with you...and yes, I'm still in love with you. It breaks my heart to know the possibility that you might be falling in love with somebody else. It kills me to know that you also share the laughs and the memories that we used to have. It hurts to know that you have your hand held by somebody else. And most of all, it makes me cry knowing that you're not mine anymore. I've been angry to you since we left each other. I listed endless reasons for me to hate you. I memorized the thoughts of me being successful without you. But I was wrong. There is a world of reasons of me loving you. I may not point it out one-by-one but I know that I was happy. I hated you because I love you. I may turn out to be successful but I won't be happy because I can't share it with you. In order to fall out of love, you need to wait to be numb. I am not ready to fall in love yet because I am still in love with you. My heart still beats for you. Can I blame myself for choosing not to move on because I felt happy. Can I blame myself for being happy in your arms?
I am crying because I know that there's a chance of you not spending your tomorrows with me. I am in tears because I know that there's somebody else aside from me. It's not only me. This time around, you have your list of reasons why you should not pick me. You have your own share of experiences that you could be miserable again because of me. I know that there's a big chance that it's not me. Although you did not ask me to wait. You did not give your hopes. From those two days, the only thing that holds me is the fact that I'm still in love. And maybe this is what love really is. Love is about the struggles that you encounter just to be with someone you love. It maybe hopeless, foolish, or one-way. But who cares anyway? You're in love and you should follow where your heart is. And I know that my heart still belongs to you.