death note/ You are my meaning
#01 Comfort
Feeling Mello’s regular breath at night has always been comforting for Matt.
#02 Kiss
For Matt receiving a kiss from Mello is like being born again every time.
#03 Soft
Matt likes to map Mello’s soft skin with kisses and caresses.
#04 Pain
And if being by Mello’s side means pain then Matt will gladly accept all of it.
#05 Potatoes
Matt laughed so hard the first time that Mello tried to cook fried potatoes and what came out were burnt sticks.
#06 Rain
Matt likes to spend rainy days with Mello, slumped on the couch watching some movie or just cuddling each other.
#07 Chocolate
When Mello arrived at Wammy’s for the first time he already had an obsession for chocolate and Matt grew fond of the little snapping sounds Mello made as he ate his chocolate bars.
#08 Happiness
Happiness for Matt is when he and Mello are able to laugh and have fun as when they were little.
#09 Telephone
When Mello is out for some business Matt always keeps his telephone by his side, so that he can run to Mello if he calls.
#10 Ears
Matt thinks that Mello’s ears are like little porcelain shells and he knows that they are Mello’s weakest point.
#11 Name
When they told to each other their real names it was like shouting out “I love you”.
#12 Sensual
And no one on Earth can be more sensual than Mello when he goes around in all that black leather, Matt is sure of it.
#13 Death
When he decided to follow Mello he had already taken death into account, but nothing could stop him from seeing Mello again.
#14 Sex
Matt knows how frail Mello is, how he doesn’t like to open up to other people, that’s why it makes him happy that Mello gives everything to him, also the hidden bliss of his little body.
#15 Touch
The first time he touched Mello Matt was afraid to break such a wonderful creature.
#16 Weakness
Matt knows all too well that Mello is his strength and also his weakness.
#17 Tears
Matt had thought to have shed all the tears that he could when Mello had abandoned him, but when he saw Mello wounded and covered in burns tears he didn’t know he had fell down.
#18 Speed
Matt likes it when Mello shouts at him because he is speeding up too much with his old car.
#19 Wind
Matt likes to go the seaside in winter, to feel the wind slapping his face, to see the wind playing with Mello’s golden hair.
#20 Freedom
When he left Wammy’s Matt think that was freedom, but now, now he knows that freedom would be being free to build up a peaceful life with Mello.
#21 Life
Many may think that Matt’s life has not been a lucky one, but personally he thinks he is the luckiest to be able to touch Mello, to be able to wake up in the morning and get lost in azure eyes.
#22 Jealousy
Matt has always tried not to be jealous but it was hard when Mello was still into the mob and he used to come back home with the horrible smell of women on him.
#23 Hands
Matt likes Mello’s hands, so elegant and yet so fierce, he like the idea that those same hands can both caress him at night and hold a gun.
#24 Taste
Sometimes when he is with Mello Matt feels like a child who’s discovering the world for the first time, and he wants to taste every inch of the blond.
#25 Devotion
And if Mello gives all of his devotion to God, Matt gives all of his devotion to Mello.
#26 Forever
Matt knows that it’s childish to say or to even think the word “forever” in this world, but when he looks at Mello he can’t help but whisper it.
#27 Blood
When Matt saw the blood socking his coat he just thought about Mello and whispered “I’m sorry”.
#28 Sickness
Matt doesn’t like to be sick and to remain in bed but at least when he is sick Mello remains at home and sits by his side.
#29 Melody
Matt is sitting at the kitchen counter and smiles behind his hand as he watches Mello cooking and humming some melody under his breath.
#30 Star
When he was little and he still had a mother she always used to tell him to pray to the shining star on the right of the moon, now Matt prays a little blond deity.
#31 Home
Being an orphan he can say he has never had a home, at least not till now that he is living in this little hole of an apartment with the most important person in his life.
#32 Confusion
And it was priceless to see the confusion on Mello’s face when Matt kneeled down in front of him, a little box in his hands, and whispered “Please stay by my side”.
#33 Fear
Matt didn’t know what fear was till the moment Mello called him after the explosion and he was sure that God had taken Mello away from him.
#34 Lightening/Thunder
Matt shivered as Mello leaned in pressing his lips to his for the first time, outside it was raining and Mello’s skin was shining in the whiteness of a lightening.
#35 Bonds
Matt doesn’t think that they have decided it, to be bound to each other, it just happened.
#36 Market
Something warm settles in Matt’s stomach every time that he and Mello do little, normal things together, as going to the market or going for a walk.
#37 Technology
Matt is always proud of himself when Mello admits that he is the one good with technology.
#38 Gift
Every time Matt has to found a present for Mello he feels excited as when he first bought him a present when he was ten and he wanted to confess to him.
#39 Smile
And there’s nothing more precious than Mello’s smile.
#40 Innocence
Matt knows that many may say that he and Mello have lost their innocence long ago, but he knows that what he feels for Mello it’s true and he doesn’t care about what others think.
#41 Completion
Matt blushes as Mello smiles and admits that the red-head is definitely hot today.
#42 Clouds
When Matt was still at Wammy’s and Mello was no longer there he used to look up to the clouds and imagine where Mello could be.
#43 Sky
And Mello’s eyes are azure and deep as the sky.
#44 Heaven
Matt has never believed in heaven but Mello does and that’s why even though he doesn’t believe in God he hopes that it could exist.
#45 Hell
His life has always been difficult but it would have been hell without Mello.
#46 Sun
There’s something enchanting in the sight of Mello’s hair shining under the sun.
#47 Moon
Matt remembers how much he liked the nights of full moon back at Wammy’s, he remembers he used to remain awake looking at Mello’s sleeping face immersed in the milky light.
#48 Waves
And the pleasure comes into waves as he comes inside Mello, the blond’s thin arms around his waist.
#49 Hair
Matt likes how silky and soft are Mello’s hair under his caresses.
#50 Supernova
Matt doesn’t know exactly when his love for Mello burst inside his chest like a shining supernova.