eating disorder my fucking ass

God damn it, I dont know why it even surprises me anymore. You would think that 4 years of being inseparable, there would be some sort of effect; apparently not. We are slowing fading away, grasping at the idea that everything is okay. Can friends just be over, is that it? Its strange, I have been able to spend literally, weeks at a time with her, ( Read more... )

frustration is overwhelming me right now. all i am feeling is complete anger. fgfdngflgmfdlkmklgmjfdg

blue blue blue.

i dont know why i get so excited over a lousy hello or a simple conversation that means nothing. my hopes shoot sky high only to come barreling down into the dust. every hope and downfall is my own fault though, its not like lies are being told or false invitations. theres really not much. it shouldnt effect me or bother me anymore. maybe im just ( Read more... )

this is worthless. its just a bunch of worlds thrown together that make me seem like i have the intelligence of a first grader. note to self. never write when angry.

FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK WHY THE HELLL DO I DO THIS. FUCK.

I really, truely do not get it. You know, I tried to do everything I could. I wasn't the one to call her dad. I was trying to take care of her, I just didn't have a clue as to what I could do. So now I am the fake one. Like the way for me to find out there is even a problem is by me finding it out on my own. I mean, sure, the way I found out is bad ( Read more... )

FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK I dont know why i am still upset or why i still care or why i am so fucking antisocial and cant seem to move on even though he wants nothing to do with me. everything is my fault he tried talking to me and i refused to talk back so i suppose i get what i deserve. im just so goddamn angry all the fucking time and i hate ( Read more... )

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