I kind of know what you mean... I'm watching SuJu's Full House... and was like... "ahh why can't DBSK do something like this???" Then I thought of the reasons why they couldn't... and I just got depressed b/c I miss them so much. I mean I like that each member sans Chun is doing something... which Yunho looked incredibly adorable dancing to MJ and I just wanted to bite his cheeks but... I really really really need them together... I guess I'd have to wait till the PV comes out since they actually have an OT5 shot.... But I feel greedy... It's not enough... T-T
I remember back when I was first starting to watch HB, and someone commented on the very *first* episode with something like, "Ahhh, I wish DBSK would do something like this..." and I thought of all the possibilities and...it just made me a little sad, then, but NOTHING compared to what I was suddenly feeling at random yesterday night at midnight while I was pouring through Tumblr for some SHINee pics? :[[
It was just...I wasn't looking for anything related to them, either -- but then, one of the Shawols on there had a few posts on Yunho in LA and I kind of just...felt my heart skip a beat & sink a little, all at the same time. D:
I really, really, really do miss them - and it's almost not enough to see them individually, right? It's almost like...there's something 'missing,' you know? And you know damn well what it is because you've felt the completed feeling only when the five of them were together. And you can only selfishly hope that they all subconsciously feel the same way, too...I'm really hoping I won't cry or
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Oh, Kei-ah. D: I watch a lot of programmes now, mostly reality ones, and I see members from rookie groups popping up everywhere, and I'd always wonder, for a millisecond or two, "Mmfh, why don't I ever see my older boys on TV?" I'd have excuses for SHINee and Super Junior and SS501 and the like, but when I skim across DBSK, my heart just breaks into tiny little pieces like that. I try not to think about what we all don't want to think about. But all we can really do right now is to keep this faith close to us. ♥
I was feeling pretty melancholy yesterday, I guess. :[
--Yeah, if you think about the possibility that they might not ever be back to shine like they have...well, like you said, it's really painful, and almost not worth thinking about? D: Because there's nothing we can do, at this point, about the situation...just wait. ;x; Because that's the essential heart of what international fans are known for...we're a little too good at the waiting game by now, I think.
But I'm still right here waiting - preparing for the worst but hoping for nothing but the best - and I guess that's all that really matters in the end. ♥ I guess that's unconditional love for you, huh? [Laughs]
Are you feeling better now? D: /hugs ♥ At times, as much as we try to push all those thoughts away and focus on the brighter side of things, and taking every activity these boys have together, every record they break as the silver lining in the clouds, there are dark moments when I lie in bed alone and my thoughts just stray. And sometimes, I really can't pin all the blame on the fans who've jumped ship - as much as I feel they shouldn't have. There are many, many people out there that have been so moved and touched by these boys that when something like this happens, they're just so irrevocably crushed and depressed, for the boys and themselves.
Mm. But if this is a game, I'm willing to play it forever. And yes, fans like you and I feel unconditional love for these boys, we really do. :3
I'm feeling...okay now. :] --Well, about this anyway. (I'm not feeling health-wise the best this week, but I'LL GET THROUGH IT. /fistpump Fighting!!)
I couldn't agree with you more. And I'm fine with playing this game. :] The waiting game might be downright frustrating, but I'm sure that's just the nature of it.
Just a little more faith and hope to push us through, and I'm sure that light at the end of the tunnel will win out eventually. ♥
I don't even know HOW I feel about the whole situation anymore. *Sigh*
I wish I felt frustrated, in a way...instead, it's just a "numb" kind of feeling, you know? :\ Probably because I know all that's left for us to do is wait. And you would think international fans like me would be all too used to the waiting game by now...
But we can't lose hope, right? I can't imagine they'd want that. *Hugs* Besides...even after all this time, I still haven't given up - and that has to say something, doesn't it? :]♥ Even if my spirit wavers, I know my heart will always bring me back to them again. Just like it always does, always will.
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I'm watching SuJu's Full House... and was like... "ahh why can't DBSK do something like this???"
Then I thought of the reasons why they couldn't...
and I just got depressed b/c I miss them so much.
I mean I like that each member sans Chun is doing something... which Yunho looked incredibly adorable dancing to MJ and I just wanted to bite his cheeks but...
I really really really need them together...
I guess I'd have to wait till the PV comes out since they actually have an OT5 shot....
But I feel greedy...
It's not enough...
T-T
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I remember back when I was first starting to watch HB, and someone commented on the very *first* episode with something like, "Ahhh, I wish DBSK would do something like this..." and I thought of all the possibilities and...it just made me a little sad, then, but NOTHING compared to what I was suddenly feeling at random yesterday night at midnight while I was pouring through Tumblr for some SHINee pics? :[[
It was just...I wasn't looking for anything related to them, either -- but then, one of the Shawols on there had a few posts on Yunho in LA and I kind of just...felt my heart skip a beat & sink a little, all at the same time. D:
I really, really, really do miss them - and it's almost not enough to see them individually, right? It's almost like...there's something 'missing,' you know? And you know damn well what it is because you've felt the completed feeling only when the five of them were together. And you can only selfishly hope that they all subconsciously feel the same way, too...I'm really hoping I won't cry or ( ... )
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I watch a lot of programmes now, mostly reality ones, and I see members from rookie groups popping up everywhere, and I'd always wonder, for a millisecond or two, "Mmfh, why don't I ever see my older boys on TV?" I'd have excuses for SHINee and Super Junior and SS501 and the like, but when I skim across DBSK, my heart just breaks into tiny little pieces like that. I try not to think about what we all don't want to think about. But all we can really do right now is to keep this faith close to us. ♥
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I was feeling pretty melancholy yesterday, I guess. :[
--Yeah, if you think about the possibility that they might not ever be back to shine like they have...well, like you said, it's really painful, and almost not worth thinking about? D: Because there's nothing we can do, at this point, about the situation...just wait. ;x; Because that's the essential heart of what international fans are known for...we're a little too good at the waiting game by now, I think.
But I'm still right here waiting - preparing for the worst but hoping for nothing but the best - and I guess that's all that really matters in the end. ♥ I guess that's unconditional love for you, huh? [Laughs]
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Mm. But if this is a game, I'm willing to play it forever. And yes, fans like you and I feel unconditional love for these boys, we really do. :3
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I'm feeling...okay now. :] --Well, about this anyway. (I'm not feeling health-wise the best this week, but I'LL GET THROUGH IT. /fistpump Fighting!!)
I couldn't agree with you more. And I'm fine with playing this game. :] The waiting game might be downright frustrating, but I'm sure that's just the nature of it.
Just a little more faith and hope to push us through, and I'm sure that light at the end of the tunnel will win out eventually. ♥
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I don't even know HOW I feel about the whole situation anymore. *Sigh*
I wish I felt frustrated, in a way...instead, it's just a "numb" kind of feeling, you know? :\ Probably because I know all that's left for us to do is wait. And you would think international fans like me would be all too used to the waiting game by now...
But we can't lose hope, right? I can't imagine they'd want that. *Hugs* Besides...even after all this time, I still haven't given up - and that has to say something, doesn't it? :]♥ Even if my spirit wavers, I know my heart will always bring me back to them again. Just like it always does, always will.
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