So i figure when the whole world shuts you out into the cold, you need to grasp whats left and take it by storm. Life isnt always as idealistic is it may seem. Somedays are always better then others. Perople drift apart and come back as they please. I have also decided to grip onto oppertunities that i know can lead me somewhere.

I have been having ( Read more... )

Well everyone, there have been a few drastic changes I have made this week, ovbiously just trying to make myself feel better, haha. I chopped my hair off yet again. it about a bit longer then it was last 420 and i went and got my eyebrow peirced yay!!!!I refuse to let myself fall in love EVER AGAIN!!!! no blame on anyone *hint hint* other then that ( Read more... )

Im sitting here in this dark edge of my mind. Maybe this is karma, this is what i get for screwing people over ikn my past. I spent the weekend at sams place this weekend. and it was dope I mean we flirted and when it was time for bed each night, she would curl into me, and even tell me she loved me. We made love both nights, I was single the whole ( Read more... )

So once again im alone on valintines. This stupid comercial holiday angers me so much! That could also just because i have no one to spend it with... In had a huge fight with tammy this moerning. i just layed everything out on the table... She woke up and was like Im moving back homwe today. I had JUST oped my eyes, so i didnt realize what i had ( Read more... )

I ended uit with tammy... For good ( Read more... )

Janices birthday was yesterday, i miss her like crazy... It still kills me ( Read more... )

I havnt updated for awhile so i guess now would be a good time haha. Well i had a job interveiw today and all wernt well. HA Im a damn Telemarketer. But im makin 10 bucks an hour, and work is right now the street from where im living. The snow is actually starting to make me sick. stupid loser snow! Other then that.... Ive been working really hard ( Read more... )

Well lufe has gone down the shitter. Tammy and I are breaking up. I cut. Christina got put into Foster care b/c M

I feel so lost so wityhout any direction right now. Christmas is comming and I couldnt even get christina 1 single gift. Matt put out 700 buxucks gfor her presents luckiliy he put my nam,e on them as well. I am finally home until the new year which I thonk is really good. I missed my mom alot. Shes been doing alot better. and Im happy about that. ( Read more... )

Well its the day after Janices funeral. It was so hard to even comprehend being there. All I could think about was the time that we shred together and howe shell always be close to my heart. Janice and i used to talk alot. and now we cant. I havnmt been at my moms house in about a week and I think thats good for me. I cant stand that place or those ( Read more... )