Ok what is it with women and drinking. the girl i mentioned the last time erin(the straight girl i like) got super drunk and was throwing herself all over everyone. then once we got home and was in the bed, she started throwing herself on me. now i was so twisted because i like her and i wanted it, but she was drunk and not knowing what she was ( Read more... )

So i just purchased my first kinda new car. 2001 chevy S-10. i love it. its so pretty.. and it fits me well.. awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww what else can i say....but...

WHOOPEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

IVE LOST HER SHE DOSNT NEED ME ANYMORE.......................

So last night my brother called me it was very late and i was very tired but i talked anyways. he was lonley because he dumped his women. but that was only for like 5 mins. the rest of the time i listened to him rant and put down so many people.. for 45 mins i heard a boy i once knew as nice and sweet, to this man who is mean and racist and you ( Read more... )

So yesterday when i got home i asked gini if i could still have thanksgiving with her and her family and she said they asked her if i would... which makes me very happy... i didnt want to lose her family because all of this.. i like them alot and there like my own family... things with me and gini are so so right now.. i think its getting better. ( Read more... )

So Me and gini broke up this morning for the third time. but this time is the last. I guess it was just time. two years over now. I am all twisted with the whole thing. but i know that its going to be better this way. thats about all i know. i guess we just werent made for each other. we wanted different things. I love her she is the closest person ( Read more... )

So i have been seeing a shink.. No i am not crazy.. i have panic attacts and anzity attacks. anyways she says i dont need meds. because its all in my head. i dont if i trust her yet, but alot of the things she has sojested that i do. is really good ( Read more... )

So last night i had this big fight with gini and didnt sleep the rest of the night. Sometimes i just dont think she knows how much i love her. how much i want time i want to spend with her. is this wrong to want the person you love to spend time with you? I get so jelious over the computer and this guy. i mean if it was a 30min thing fine even ( Read more... )

So yesterday i found out my best friend is getting married.. I would be happy for her except shes known this girl for almost 4 months..i just dont see how someone can want to marry someone they have only knew for that short of a time... not to mention it was 5 months ago when she was confessing hom much she loves me.. can she really love this girl ( Read more... )

So Gini left early this morning to go see her grandmother. you see we got the phone call last night that her grandmother had a heart attack last week and the doctor said she is not getting better. and the possibility of her not getting better could happen... it sucks because i could not see her or even be there to be strong for the rest of the ( Read more... )