maybe that's why i never felt happy. the things i did, the things you did, made the whole relationship feel incompatible. we were incompatible. i say it like it's gone, when i have yet to tell you that's how i feel. but how easy is it now to see that there were a lot of times with you, i don't ever think i knew what happiness was ( Read more... )

 So I remember the dream sorta started with me at this house, by the water, and I was fishing. A literal fishing rod on my hand, the sun was on me, but I wasn't fishing for fish. I was fishing for puzzle pieces. Before I go back into the dream it kinda pans to a part about me renting a car to drive to Wenatchee. That's where my family lived for 5 ( Read more... )

I haven't given anyone the key to my heart kinda gift since you, I wonder if that means something, or is just something I want to mean something...? idk maybe i'm overthinking, it's still cute though.

I still love you, but I also love someone else, and said I love someone else too ( Read more... )

it seems so difficult sometimes. and sometimes i really wish i had someone that i could reach out to, someone that would just understand. the feeling inside is so heavy sometimes, sometimes has me feeling this deep loneliness, and even though i have family that understands, we each are going through this different. but i'm sitting here writing to ( Read more... )

You never gave me a chance to tell you that I love you. You just flake out, vanish, and mislead me. You keep showing up then acting like I mean nothing and it’s totally unfair. Why bother loving someone that can’t even face their own emotions? You waste my time all too often. People say you shouldn’t take for granted the people that matter, the ( Read more... )

somedays i feel like everything will just be resolved, that i won't feel this gap in my heart, and other days i keep thinking someone will come along and pick up my pieces, but it doesn't work that way. life doesn't work in a way where someone just comes and sweeps you off your feet when you're down

This weekend has been especially hard for me and I don't know why. Saturday night I had a dream that Matt died, it was painful and surreal. I woke up feeling a heavy pain in my chest and I ended up having to call him and ask him to come spend the night. And he did. Sunday I broke down crying off and on. It really hurt, it hurt a lot that my dad is ( Read more... )

give me the bottle till i forget you ( Read more... )

you piss me off sometimes. i ain’t asking for your forever. i’m asking for where you see yourself in the next 5 years, and am i involved anywhere in it. i want to know your plans, that’s as easy as it comes down to.