In Lund again..

[busarewski]

I am back in Lund for the first time since May 25th 2016. So strange to walk around here where everything remains the same yet my life is so very different. So many memories of mum staying here with me, walking into town with her

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[byslantedlight]

If it makes you feel any better, I turned 50 not long ago, and I don't know what I want to do with my life either... Sounds like your life has involved alot of love and happiness though, and even with the sadness too, I think it sounds like you've been doing good things just by living...

[busarewski]

Well yes, that does help a bit. And the thing is that I don't regret one bit the time I've spent with mum and dad during these last six years. It has in some ways been a privilege to get this time with them. It is just frustrating to know that something else is there on the other side of taking care of dad, but not feeling a lot of joy about getting there.
I loved what you said about doing good things just by living though. I hope that's true. And somehow the rest will sort itself out..