anybody?

no one knows where to put their commas or semicolons, which prepositions to use, what the connotation of a certain word is, which pronoun to use, which homonym is the one they're looking for, what sounds awkward and weird, what makes no sense at all...

and no one's got any style.

myself included in these complaints.

i'd like to think this would be much better if it didn't have to be in this form. and i know it should be 10 syllables per line and in iambic pentameter. but it just wouldn't seem to work. so i have 11 syllables per line, and not in iams, either. sometimes i definitely wish i were creative. i wish i could be a musician or a writer.As the Clouds ( Read more... )

i wish i didn't have secrets.

how do i figure out where i'm going to be for the next four years of my life? what about after that?

was "sure" always a feeling that came at times so far and few between?

one step forward, two steps back.

one of my favorite things anyone ever said to me: "you know that feeling... when you've had too many carrots?" -a. varvi

i just don't get it.

so i was tired of sitting around on my ass and watching the pattern repeat itself. and wallowing in self-pity. and recognizing the cycle, but not doing anything to stop it.

so we had a talk.

because i needed some god-damn closure or something so i could get over him. because i needed to let him know, so i could let him go.

so i told him i loved ( Read more... )

i guess i have to believe that God knows what he's doing. because how else do you recover from that? ever?

but for most of the weekend, all i could think was, people our age don't die. they just don't. parents ought to never have to bury their children, and 18-year-olds can't die.

and amanda was so wonderful. and i couldn't get used to the past ( Read more... )

it's been a while.

my first reaction was just to feel pain. i heard from mr. wolfe, and something about his voice didn't afford me that luxury of numb, disbelieving shock. i guess i didn't believe the message he left, but he was unclear, so um, yeah. and then i called and i found out. and the tears seemed to just come hard and fast right then and ( Read more... )

it just sort of freaks me out.

how i felt just 5 months ago compared to how i feel now.

i can look back and rationalize, but i remember that feeling. maybe it's not true now, but it was true then. it had to have been.

and the random memories.

that make me feel lonely.

i'm not even sure what it is i miss.

i just sort of thought...

and you ( Read more... )

sparks really did fly. and it really was like we were the only two people in the entire world. and everything was spinning around and around. and i wasn't standing or sitting or anything-ing but floating and flying and soaring. and it was passionate and fiery and frenzied yet romantic and soft and sweet and beautiful, and all the emotions just got ( Read more... )