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Reading through my old entries was interesting... I can't believe it's only been a year since all of that. It feels like a different lifetime to be honest. I barley remember feeling like that.
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I'm back again.
And I wish I had someone to talk to.
I don't even want to do this anymore.
None of it.
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need you like a heart needs a beat
I feel like screaming my lungs out.
I can't take it anymore... the frustration.
The anger and the sadness I have inside.
I CAN'T TAKE IT!
And I let things get out over the one person
who's tried to help me the most during all of this...
a person I know... but at the same time, don't know
She lives on the other side of the world and we never
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daughter to father.
I dream of another you, one who would never.
Never, leave me alone to pick up the pieces.
Daddy to hold me, that's what I needed.
Daughter to father, daughter to father!
I don't know you, but I still want to.
Daughter to father, daughter to father!
Tell me the truth, did you ever love me?
lyrics: lindsay lohan -
the confessions... of a broken heart
I took the long way home today... stayed outside for a while, watching the stars, doing some more thinking. And I came to the conclusion that I need to do something about this. But what? I feel so... I don't even know... and how did I even get here? Life was okay and now... all of a sudden it's all falling apart. Is it my fault? Did I do something ( Read more... ) -
i used to pretend, that i felt okay... just one big lie.
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i hate myself for doing this but i... i couldn't handle it.
i don't want people to worry about me or feel bad about me
but the same time i can't pretend that everything's alright
and that my life is perfect.
i'm not worth it.
excuse me while i go cry my eyes out.
i used to pretend, that i felt okay... just ( Read more... ) -
Am I really that bad?
I don't know what to say anymore.
I don't know what's wrong with me.
I don't even know what's going on in my head anymore.
I try to be happy, I really do... but why is it so hard?
And why do I... immediately, as soon as someone doesn't talk to me or act like they normally do... think they hate me? That's another problem I have, I suppose. But at ( Read more... ) -
greetings from space
So I try to say that I'm sorry
And I try to do no harm
And I lied when i said
I was happy
If you love me
please, let me go
So tell my guitar
I won't be coming home tonight
Feels kind of pointless
when there's no one around
lyrics: amanda jenssen -
crying, waiting, hoping
Lately I've come to the conclusion that I think too much. Too much about bad things. Things like death and how people would react if I was... gone. Who would show up to my funeral? Who would miss me? Who would cry? I know I shouldn't think about these things but I do and I can't stop. I'm not suicidal. I do not want to kill myself. I would never do ( Read more... ) -
went looking for a place to hide
I was frustrated when I got home yesterday.
Frustrated, sad, confused and upset. I couldn't handle it.
He ruined my day.
I had to break something and the door to my balcony was in the way.
I broke the window in the door. With my fist. It's double glass and I broke
the one that's on the inside, the other one is still intact. Which is probably
a good ( Read more... )