what am i supposed to do?

pete crossed the rainbow bridge this morning.


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i've written a few sentences and erased them. i don't know what to say.

hi.

i'm trying to keep my chin up, but this year has not gotten off on the best foot. living in new hampshire again is strange. it's a ghost town, filled with old acquaintances and fuzzy memories that are better off dead ( Read more... )

i will.

i want to update, but writing on livejournal gets hard sometimes ( Read more... )

aw man...


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after spending the past few days in nyc for the first time, it's so good to walk the familiar streets of allston. i never thought i'd find home in this mess. the buildings there are too tall and the streets are anonymous. it felt good to come back home.

back at square one again and i'm feeling hopeless.

i can't help but think about how difficult today is, while i watch him sleep. his chest rising and falling as his lungs inflate with air and empty out, inside the ribcage that shields an organ larger than his brain (his heart). i'm going to miss so much of this. each time i've let him out of the crate since the decision has been made, watching him ( Read more... )

meet larry.

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