sleeping on the plane is never quite enough

[bubblingbeebles]

i am starting to confront the way i think about depression as an inherent (permanently-entrenched) part of my life. it is frightening, for example, to notice myself taking comfort while upset by thinking about things that are upsetting in different ways (usually, things that i was upset about at some time past but have overcome), just because it

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[masqueradestar]

I don't really have much to add or say other than when I read this:

i am starting to confront the way i think about depression as an inherent (permanently-entrenched) part of my life.

I mentally went \o/ because I think it's a good direction in which to move. It seems more like solving a root cause (of unhappiness, dissatisfaction, &c) rather than treating a symptom (like a specific upsetting situation).

[bubblingbeebles]

"you are not your problems" has been first seat on my list of things to remember since i started writing it.

[bubblingbeebles]

in some sense i have always thought of it as a thing that has grown roots into me, and have been digging (throwing the surrounding soil all over the place in the process), to find where the deepest bits of it are, for a year or two or so.

mostly i am now trying to watch my language and my thinking to get better at reinforcing when i am on-track and not repeating when i fall off.

mixed success for day one of being home. i excuse myself on the grounds of too little sleep ;)