The Start of a Sin [Chapter 6]
Title: The Start of a Sin
Author: dephi
Pairing: Pitego, Ryotego
Genre: Angst
Rating: R
Disclaimer: Own the plot, not the characters
Summary: There were times when you were put in a situation where you would have to choose between two while each of them were completely different from each other. There were times that your choice would lead into an eternal pain or guilt. And there were times when you had to make your final choice, although you didn’t want to but the condition forced you too while you might regret it, forever...
Notes: There’ll be character’s death later.
Tegoshi walked through the hall of the house he had been missing. He had just been away from here just for some days, yet it felt like he had left this place for what seemed to be ages. This place was the place he wanted to call home, yet he couldn't but at least for now he would like to consider this as his home.
The walk continued until he reached the library, the usual place. It was quite terrifying for Tegoshi, and he couldn't help to feel a bit creepy whenever he stepped into this room where Nishikido always explained his order at. Tegoshi knew well how he had betrayed Nishikido while the undescribable expression in Nishikido's face made things looked even worse. But no matter whatever would happen later, Tegoshi would have to face it as it was the fate that was brought upon him.
"So... How are you?" Nishikido asked. It sounded pretty casual, but then Tegoshi was only able to see his back while Nishikido was quite a composure guy, so he couldn't just jump into that kind of conclusion all of a sudden. Besides, Tegoshi had been away for days, so it wouldn't be strange if Nishikido decided for some punishments.
"F-Fine... I guess." Tegoshi answered without dared looking right to Nishikido's face.
Another moment of silence overwhelmed the atmosphere between the two of them while Tegoshi himself started wondering what kind of thing he would have to go through after this. But it was broken when Nishikido finally turned around to face Tegoshi and opened his mouth. "Well, I am glad, then. I have been waiting in front of your University every single day until we finally met earlier."
Tegoshi found Nishikido's answer pretty surprising. No, that type of welcoming sentence shouldn't have come out from the mouth of Nishikido Ryo. He was known for his cold remarks, not this kind one. Tegoshi had to rub his eyes a few times when he saw the caring face Nishikido showed him. Was it a dream? He pinched his cheek only to whimper for the pain he felt later. This was not a dream. But for now, Tegoshi could only hope that Nishikido was not plotting for something else beneath his sentence.
"A-Ah... I-I am sorry for that."
Nishikido didn't give any reply to that, he simply approached Tegoshi and patted his head. But what he didn't know was that it reminded Tegoshi of his guilt again. He did not worth this rare kindness of Nishikido after what he had done with Yamashita.
"I saw Yamashita earlier." Nishikido said all of a sudden. The startled Tegoshi suddenly got alerted by it and then he realized that the main problem hadn't been discussed, yet, and he would need to be prepared of what might happen next.
Tegoshi didn't know whether Nishikido Ryo had the sixth sense or something but it seemed like he was able to guess Tegoshi's act perfectly. "I am glad that you didn't kill him. I was just joking before." another unexpected remark came, followed by loud laughs. "Don't tell me that you took it seriously. I mean, is it possible for me to ask you annihilate anyone?"
Tegoshi, feeling ashamed of his own self, could only remain silent while Nishikido continued his laugh. It was until Nishikido stopped his laugh that Tegoshi finally got the courage to look straight to the other's eyes.
It was raining hard that morning, the morning he would definitely remember forever. Even through the thick wall of Nishikido's house Tegoshi could clearly hear the sound of the rain. It distracted his attention for a moment, and when Tegoshi looked at the view outside through the window. It seemed to be so peaceful outside, despite of the hard rain, but it was not inside this room.
Tegoshi could clearly hear a click sound, and when he turned around, he could see how Nishikido lit the fire to his cigarette. The smoke started filling the entire room and made Tegoshi shivered for some reason. He got a bad feeling of something he couldn't describe, and he was sure that that something would come to him in no time.
He was about to open his mouth again when Nishikido decided to continue his sentence. "I guess, since you have taken it seriously, I wonder how you were able to finally come out after being missing for a few days." Nishikido exhaled his cigarette. "You were staying there, huh?"
This was terrifying.
If there was one thing Tegoshi most frightened about, it was when Nishikido was angry. He rarely showed his emotion so it was really hard to know whether he was pleased or mad. Perhaps it was because Nishikido was raised in such a situation which needed him not to show any emotion freely. But one thing Tegoshi was sure for now; Nishikido was mad, real mad. Just as what he had thought, Nishikido was so unpleased by Tegoshi's betrayal. It was true that perhaps Nishikido wasn't that serious when he asked Tegoshi to dispose Yamashita, but when Tegoshi decided not to return immediately to report whatever things he had, Nishikido went mad. He hated a liar the most and Tegoshi knew that well. And now as the lion had finally awaken, Tegoshi could only wait for his fate.
"I wonder why you said nothing..." Nishikido murmured, both eyes were set straight at Tegoshi. Nishikido exhaled his cigarette again before he walked closer to Tegoshi, even too close.
Tegoshi, feeling frightened, stepped back until his body touched the wall. All of a sudden, Nishikido stopped before exhaling another smoke. "Now, how should I know the truth if you don't want to say a thing, Yuya?"
The voice was calmer than before, yet Nishikido called him with his name. This was such a real bad condition for Tegoshi and he had to admit it, even if he didn't want to. It had been long since Nishikido called him with his name, so when he did it, it could only mean that Nishikido was serious, real serious.
"I... I..." Tegoshi had to say something. He had to. But he couldn't. Just looking to the furious gaze Nishikido had.
"You leave me no other choice but to make the conclusion myself." Nishikido said in a hoarse tone. "Don't tell me that you slept with him."
Tegoshi's eyes grew wider when Nishikido guessed the right time. "N-No, d-don't get it wrong. I.. T-There's an explanation f-for that." Tegoshi tried to explain his guilt yet the only thing he could see in Nishikido's eyes was anger.
"It did happen." Nishikido threw his cigarette and walked even closer to Tegoshi. "How? No explanation is needed."
Even before Tegoshi was able to answer it, Nishikido opened his mouth again. "He doesn't own you." Tegoshi remained silent while trying to escape from Nishikido's gaze. The only thing he could hope was that he could get out from this place safely. Perhaps Nishikido would decide to spare hi, at the end. Perhaps... But little did Tegoshi know that this was just the start, the start of an even bigger disaster that would happen real soon.
The rain was pouring even harder that morning and Tegoshi knew that he would never forget that day, ever...
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'I own you...'
Tegoshi was stunned when he heard that. That was the least he would expect to hear from Nishikido's mouth.
This must be a nightmare.
But it seemed too real to be one.
Tegoshi could barely hear Nishikido's breath as the distance between them was even closer than ever. His eyes grew wider yet he couldn't take the furious look on Nishikido's eyes.
That thought kept rolling around Tegoshi's brain until he felt a rash kiss on his mouth. Not even being able to protest, Tegoshi could only whimper in pain while Nishikido didn't seem to care about it at all.
The same thing would be repeated, although this time it was in a completely different person. It was rash, painful, and on top of all this was not what Tegoshi wanted. Well, that was not supposed to be what he wanted, yet he didn't give any resistance either to Nishikido. It was as if he had lost his power immediately.
Tegoshi felt a hand started undressing him while his mouth was occupied by the kiss. It was obvious that Nishikido took the dominance; Tegoshi couldn't give any fight other than some whimpers. It was scary, frightening, terrifying. Tears coming out from Tegoshi's eyes, but he let himself to obey Nishikido. He should have been able to refuse this, yet he didn't. It was as if he really was the property that Nishikido Ryo owned, just like what the person himself had claimed earlier.
He could finally feel Nishikido's mouth away from his but that was not the end as he had to feel the pain of Nishikido into him, which was followed immediatelly with Nishikido's mouth crushed into him before he was able to shout. There was no forgiveness, not even a pity of Tegoshi while Tegoshi could feel the pain and pleasure mixed in one feeling.
But then, it was the punishment he had to accept, so the pleasure feeling should just be his imagination.
Tegoshi could clearly remember how hard the rain was...
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Tegoshi was exhausted. He had lost most of his energy, and he was even able to take a short nap. He didn't want to move yet he had to.
He felt dirty. He felt so disgusted of himself.
He went showering as fast as possible. Nishikido was not there anymore and Tegoshi didn't even bother to find where he was. He didn't even know where he was going to be at after this.
The first thing Tegoshi did after finished showering was simply going outside. It was such a gloomy day and he didn't want to make things even worse. It was quite funny that Nishikido was considerate enough to let the maid prepared some hot tea for him on his room. There was one other thing, a letter. But why bother reading it now?
Tegoshi took a long sip of his tea while staring outside the window.
It was indeed raining hard today...
E/N : So, the fic is getting even angstier, I guess. And will get even angstier at the next chapter. I am supposed to post this lastnight, yet my stupid telephoning provider!! I'm currently using my cell phone.. >.<
It might take longer for me to update the next chapter this time as I’ll be away to Jakarta for my distant cousin’s marriage during this weekends, but I’ll still try before Christmas.. :D
Moreover, I put R for the rating, but I’m not that sure. Please anyone, tell me if it’s not that appropriate.. :D
Author: dephi
Pairing: Pitego, Ryotego
Genre: Angst
Rating: R
Disclaimer: Own the plot, not the characters
Summary: There were times when you were put in a situation where you would have to choose between two while each of them were completely different from each other. There were times that your choice would lead into an eternal pain or guilt. And there were times when you had to make your final choice, although you didn’t want to but the condition forced you too while you might regret it, forever...
Notes: There’ll be character’s death later.
Tegoshi walked through the hall of the house he had been missing. He had just been away from here just for some days, yet it felt like he had left this place for what seemed to be ages. This place was the place he wanted to call home, yet he couldn't but at least for now he would like to consider this as his home.
The walk continued until he reached the library, the usual place. It was quite terrifying for Tegoshi, and he couldn't help to feel a bit creepy whenever he stepped into this room where Nishikido always explained his order at. Tegoshi knew well how he had betrayed Nishikido while the undescribable expression in Nishikido's face made things looked even worse. But no matter whatever would happen later, Tegoshi would have to face it as it was the fate that was brought upon him.
"So... How are you?" Nishikido asked. It sounded pretty casual, but then Tegoshi was only able to see his back while Nishikido was quite a composure guy, so he couldn't just jump into that kind of conclusion all of a sudden. Besides, Tegoshi had been away for days, so it wouldn't be strange if Nishikido decided for some punishments.
"F-Fine... I guess." Tegoshi answered without dared looking right to Nishikido's face.
Another moment of silence overwhelmed the atmosphere between the two of them while Tegoshi himself started wondering what kind of thing he would have to go through after this. But it was broken when Nishikido finally turned around to face Tegoshi and opened his mouth. "Well, I am glad, then. I have been waiting in front of your University every single day until we finally met earlier."
Tegoshi found Nishikido's answer pretty surprising. No, that type of welcoming sentence shouldn't have come out from the mouth of Nishikido Ryo. He was known for his cold remarks, not this kind one. Tegoshi had to rub his eyes a few times when he saw the caring face Nishikido showed him. Was it a dream? He pinched his cheek only to whimper for the pain he felt later. This was not a dream. But for now, Tegoshi could only hope that Nishikido was not plotting for something else beneath his sentence.
"A-Ah... I-I am sorry for that."
Nishikido didn't give any reply to that, he simply approached Tegoshi and patted his head. But what he didn't know was that it reminded Tegoshi of his guilt again. He did not worth this rare kindness of Nishikido after what he had done with Yamashita.
"I saw Yamashita earlier." Nishikido said all of a sudden. The startled Tegoshi suddenly got alerted by it and then he realized that the main problem hadn't been discussed, yet, and he would need to be prepared of what might happen next.
Tegoshi didn't know whether Nishikido Ryo had the sixth sense or something but it seemed like he was able to guess Tegoshi's act perfectly. "I am glad that you didn't kill him. I was just joking before." another unexpected remark came, followed by loud laughs. "Don't tell me that you took it seriously. I mean, is it possible for me to ask you annihilate anyone?"
Tegoshi, feeling ashamed of his own self, could only remain silent while Nishikido continued his laugh. It was until Nishikido stopped his laugh that Tegoshi finally got the courage to look straight to the other's eyes.
It was raining hard that morning, the morning he would definitely remember forever. Even through the thick wall of Nishikido's house Tegoshi could clearly hear the sound of the rain. It distracted his attention for a moment, and when Tegoshi looked at the view outside through the window. It seemed to be so peaceful outside, despite of the hard rain, but it was not inside this room.
Tegoshi could clearly hear a click sound, and when he turned around, he could see how Nishikido lit the fire to his cigarette. The smoke started filling the entire room and made Tegoshi shivered for some reason. He got a bad feeling of something he couldn't describe, and he was sure that that something would come to him in no time.
He was about to open his mouth again when Nishikido decided to continue his sentence. "I guess, since you have taken it seriously, I wonder how you were able to finally come out after being missing for a few days." Nishikido exhaled his cigarette. "You were staying there, huh?"
This was terrifying.
If there was one thing Tegoshi most frightened about, it was when Nishikido was angry. He rarely showed his emotion so it was really hard to know whether he was pleased or mad. Perhaps it was because Nishikido was raised in such a situation which needed him not to show any emotion freely. But one thing Tegoshi was sure for now; Nishikido was mad, real mad. Just as what he had thought, Nishikido was so unpleased by Tegoshi's betrayal. It was true that perhaps Nishikido wasn't that serious when he asked Tegoshi to dispose Yamashita, but when Tegoshi decided not to return immediately to report whatever things he had, Nishikido went mad. He hated a liar the most and Tegoshi knew that well. And now as the lion had finally awaken, Tegoshi could only wait for his fate.
"I wonder why you said nothing..." Nishikido murmured, both eyes were set straight at Tegoshi. Nishikido exhaled his cigarette again before he walked closer to Tegoshi, even too close.
Tegoshi, feeling frightened, stepped back until his body touched the wall. All of a sudden, Nishikido stopped before exhaling another smoke. "Now, how should I know the truth if you don't want to say a thing, Yuya?"
The voice was calmer than before, yet Nishikido called him with his name. This was such a real bad condition for Tegoshi and he had to admit it, even if he didn't want to. It had been long since Nishikido called him with his name, so when he did it, it could only mean that Nishikido was serious, real serious.
"I... I..." Tegoshi had to say something. He had to. But he couldn't. Just looking to the furious gaze Nishikido had.
"You leave me no other choice but to make the conclusion myself." Nishikido said in a hoarse tone. "Don't tell me that you slept with him."
Tegoshi's eyes grew wider when Nishikido guessed the right time. "N-No, d-don't get it wrong. I.. T-There's an explanation f-for that." Tegoshi tried to explain his guilt yet the only thing he could see in Nishikido's eyes was anger.
"It did happen." Nishikido threw his cigarette and walked even closer to Tegoshi. "How? No explanation is needed."
Even before Tegoshi was able to answer it, Nishikido opened his mouth again. "He doesn't own you." Tegoshi remained silent while trying to escape from Nishikido's gaze. The only thing he could hope was that he could get out from this place safely. Perhaps Nishikido would decide to spare hi, at the end. Perhaps... But little did Tegoshi know that this was just the start, the start of an even bigger disaster that would happen real soon.
The rain was pouring even harder that morning and Tegoshi knew that he would never forget that day, ever...
####
'I own you...'
Tegoshi was stunned when he heard that. That was the least he would expect to hear from Nishikido's mouth.
This must be a nightmare.
But it seemed too real to be one.
Tegoshi could barely hear Nishikido's breath as the distance between them was even closer than ever. His eyes grew wider yet he couldn't take the furious look on Nishikido's eyes.
That thought kept rolling around Tegoshi's brain until he felt a rash kiss on his mouth. Not even being able to protest, Tegoshi could only whimper in pain while Nishikido didn't seem to care about it at all.
The same thing would be repeated, although this time it was in a completely different person. It was rash, painful, and on top of all this was not what Tegoshi wanted. Well, that was not supposed to be what he wanted, yet he didn't give any resistance either to Nishikido. It was as if he had lost his power immediately.
Tegoshi felt a hand started undressing him while his mouth was occupied by the kiss. It was obvious that Nishikido took the dominance; Tegoshi couldn't give any fight other than some whimpers. It was scary, frightening, terrifying. Tears coming out from Tegoshi's eyes, but he let himself to obey Nishikido. He should have been able to refuse this, yet he didn't. It was as if he really was the property that Nishikido Ryo owned, just like what the person himself had claimed earlier.
He could finally feel Nishikido's mouth away from his but that was not the end as he had to feel the pain of Nishikido into him, which was followed immediatelly with Nishikido's mouth crushed into him before he was able to shout. There was no forgiveness, not even a pity of Tegoshi while Tegoshi could feel the pain and pleasure mixed in one feeling.
But then, it was the punishment he had to accept, so the pleasure feeling should just be his imagination.
Tegoshi could clearly remember how hard the rain was...
####
Tegoshi was exhausted. He had lost most of his energy, and he was even able to take a short nap. He didn't want to move yet he had to.
He felt dirty. He felt so disgusted of himself.
He went showering as fast as possible. Nishikido was not there anymore and Tegoshi didn't even bother to find where he was. He didn't even know where he was going to be at after this.
The first thing Tegoshi did after finished showering was simply going outside. It was such a gloomy day and he didn't want to make things even worse. It was quite funny that Nishikido was considerate enough to let the maid prepared some hot tea for him on his room. There was one other thing, a letter. But why bother reading it now?
Tegoshi took a long sip of his tea while staring outside the window.
It was indeed raining hard today...
E/N : So, the fic is getting even angstier, I guess. And will get even angstier at the next chapter. I am supposed to post this lastnight, yet my stupid telephoning provider!! I'm currently using my cell phone.. >.<
It might take longer for me to update the next chapter this time as I’ll be away to Jakarta for my distant cousin’s marriage during this weekends, but I’ll still try before Christmas.. :D
Moreover, I put R for the rating, but I’m not that sure. Please anyone, tell me if it’s not that appropriate.. :D